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Wait... What?

2009-04-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

Like any other person, I enjoy a thrill, a momentary high. And there had been rare moments when dopamine simply floods my system and I feel really pleased with myself: Passing math (the three times I've met it since entering University) for example, was a high three times over. Graduating High school was one, and then there are my just-as-planned moments.

Which would then explain the utter pleasure of right now (which would really qualify as a just-as-planned moment) when I helped my friend sell a wig. Yes fellas, I helped sell a wig. And I'm pleased with that... (okay something must be horribly wrong with me, Haha).

It started out as a whim to advertise the said hairpiece. I really doubted my *ahem* interpersonal skills and doubted anyone would bite. But then, my inbox was more or less flooded by prospective buyers (wow, a lot of girls really want to cosplay C.C. that bad?). But in the end, I landed the deal before anyone on the main channel had. Haha. Just as planned! *sakujo!*

...Maybe I should have taken up business.

...Nah.

Ano bang problema mo?

2009-04-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

Nakakasama ng loob. Grabe. Wala naman akong ginagawa sa iyo pero ginaganyan mo ako. Sunday ka pa ah. Kilala niyo ako. Mahirap akong magalit. Insane ang level ng pasensya ko. pero aaminin ko: hindi ako santo tulad mo na little-miss-perfect na lagi na lang tama ang ginagawa. pero at least hindi ako hipokrito tulad mo.

I don't throw my shit on you, so don't throw your shit on me. Di ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa langyang opisina mo at ganyan ka. Pero di kita jiu-judge. Wala kayong karapatang i-judge ako dhil hindi niyo rin alam kung anong nangyayari sa school. Plain and simple. Palibhasa akala niyo kasi kung ano lang eskwela ang UP eh.

Look, I tried to be civil. I try to be nice. Hindi ko na lang kayo inapansin, kasi nga, I don't want throwing shit unto other people. It's not my style. Kung baga, hindi niyo problema yon. Yung mga trivial nga na bagay pati sa Diyos hindi ko kinukwento, sa inyo pa ba? Ewan ko lang ha... Ang insensitive niyo. Di niyo alam na nakakasakit na kayo ng damdamin. Alam kong insesnsitive at batugan ako. Yun ba yung rason ng crap nyo? Dahil hindi ako tumululong? Sino nag-aayos ng kwarto araw-araw? Sinong nagpupunas ng ibabaw sa taas? Tumutulong nga eh. Ayaw niyo lang pansinin. Masyado kasi kayong closed-minded. In denial ba kayo ha?

Ang akin lang, wag kayong magsungit ng random. Kung may rason man, sabihin sana ng matino. Wag yung pag nagkamali ako todo condemn na. Nakakasakit eh. Nakakabanas na lang every time gusto kong mag-relax tapos ang hirit niyo sakin para akong baboy na dumudumi sa sarili kong kama. HELLO? Kaya nga kama ko eh. Responsibilidad mo yan. And if you can;t take the stench (or lack thereof), get out of the damn room and get out of my damn case!

Palibhasa akala niyo dati palaro-laro lang ako eh. Palibhasa ang nakikita niyo lang yung coping mechanism ko. Hindi niyo ako nakikitang pinaghihirapan ang maka-tres man lang sa subject na madaming nalalagas. Akala niyo kasi hindi ko sineseryoso buhay ko eh. Bakit? Dahil ba gusto kong maging teacher? Buhay ko to. Di mo to buhay. Gagawin ko ang gusto kong gawin kasi legal na ako. Di naman ako umiinom, naninigarilyo, nagdudrugs, nambababae, nanlalalake, nanlalandi, pumapatay.Sa chem na nga lang umiikot ang buhay ko eh. Wag naman. mentally unstable na nga ata ako since andaming nasa isip ko. Ayoko nang idagdag ang collosal weight ng iniisip niyo with my problems.

Please. I've tried to be civil. but my patience has worn thin.

Academic Year-ender post.

2009-04-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

And so ends AY 2008-2009. My second year at the University is finally behind me. Now I can rest relax, and wait for third year to hit me in the face. Summer term? WHAT SUMMER TERM? That's blasphemy! That's madness! Summer term is just a myth!

And to cap off the academic year, I'd like to thank my mentors who, in their *cough* undying patience, managed to get me through my second year.

Mr. Alvin Baclig- beloved physics 71 teacher. Showed us that Physics can be fun. XD
Mr. Christopher Jay Robidillo- amidst his shortcomings, he's really nice and approachable. He didn't teach us to rise up in the face of adversity... He taught us that adversity can and will rise up with you. Took him twice this year: Chem 18 and Chem 35.
Prof. Nora Del Rosario-I owe a lot to her. She started it all... my road to Organic Chemistry, and its bretheren, Advanced Organic and Biochemistry.
Prof. Josephine De Los Reyes- She was there in one of the rare occassions that we had to encounter the Biology department. She's really sweet and funny.
Prof. Benjamin Mangubat-'nuff said. He shows the other side of History.
Prof. Jude Agsalon-always there to lend a helping hand on your physics experiments. But... that's the only place you'll find him.
Mrs. Glennalin Pangilinan-Medina- research-oriented chem lab instructor. She's very nice, not to mention pretty and intelligent.
Mr. Ralph Sederick Lapuz- Biology Lab instructor... You can call him a fashionista, LOL. And he looks damn good in a labgown. Haha XD
Dr. Marilou G. Nicolas- My favorite teacher, hands down. She's a bit...daunting at times (like when she's filling the board with chemical structures in less than thirty seconds), but she has a great sense of humor, and really made my first enconunter with Biochemistry worthwhile.
Ms. Kreza Ligaya-she too, is a bit scary when she's asking you mechanisms for Biochem lab. But she's really nice and approachable. (and she even showed up in class loligoth style once)
Dr. Nelson Villarante-I admit, he could be unreasonable, but his knowledge of chemistry knows no bounds.
Mr. Derick Erl Sumalapao-It's a wonder I survived math. He's really kind, and really good in his element. I wish he could teach us math again.
Dr. Roy Tumlos-he's a bit funny, and very knowledgable. He knows how to derive equations like the back of his hand. Also, he's a bit of an entertainer in class, right?!?
Prof. Linda Bonilla- She strict, gives plenty of requirements, grills and literally sautee's you, but in the end, you get to appreciate art just as much as she does. The end justifies the means.

I'd like to do a quotations post soon, but I'll have to compile them from my head first. XD

Well, I'm glad that's over.

2009-03-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, after six years (the latter part of which spent in disuse), I finally deleted my friendster account. yes, dear friends, my friendster is no more.

To those bewildered saps going "ZOMG WHY DID YOU DO THAT??!!!1111" right now, here's my reason: I don;t want/need it anymore. Plain and simple. You see, I for one don't like seeing it gather dust (but it does). And like some sort of disgusting object, I rarely touch it. My email is cluttered with numerous and countless app alerts inviting me to add another useless item to what was ultimately, in my opinion, utterly useless profile to begin with.

I never gleaned any satisfaction from the site, except during my profile's infancy stage, I guess. So what if it was my only link to people from my far past: people I hardly know anymore? I don't really give a damn anymore. I desire neither the past nor the present... I desire the future.

Okay, too much dramu for something so mundane and trivial.

Need I say more?

2009-03-20T16:34:00.000+08:00

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2009-03-18T14:41:00.000+08:00

I don't have much of a will to write anything amusing, nor is my sarcasm that big today. I haven't even been doing much contemplating today, not even on the train and not in school.

...In short, my brain, as a result of the combined powers of math, physics and chemistry... has died.

So I went to school at around 8:30, and had portions of Morrison and Boyd's Organic chemistry photocopied. Then I went straight to the Library to go over Leithold's "The Calculus 7", the title of which still eludes me. Yeah, I know. It's a book about calculus and it's the seventh edition... By why cll it "THE Calculus?", it's not the first calculus book out there, and it's npot some term which is very novel and should merit the use of the article "the". It's bugged me since high school because the freaking "the" is stuck with the freaking "calculus" in the freaking title of the freaking book.

Okay, my sarcasm has returned.

So I was cooked up in the library (without Pasty, boo.) going over the *insert ridiculously titled book here* for aq couple hours until I finally gave up on trying to completely comprehend the integrals, integrands, derivatives, length of arcs and whatnot and began to become horribly bored. So I figured I should take it easy and go ahead and review applications first and go for techniques of integration later. So I photocopied the parts with applications.

I went to masci because I was bored. The seniors were practicing at the auditorium... and I could hear them singing. The other students were enjoying the last days of their year and so were the teachers. Haha.

Then, I met up with my HCC-mates. Had lunch and talked about stuff while preparing for the Gintama skit. I was talking to Touya most of the time... I kept blackmailing her of her *aherm* posts at ichiraku. haha. Then, we saw a couple of guys who were donning-of all things-akatsuki jackets. It kind of insulted us. I even exclaimed "OH MY GOD!", which made them look at me. My friends told me I should have been costripping right then and there to show 'em.... It would seem that acting like a cosplayer wannabe insults a cosplayer ver much. Too bad they don't do that at cons. Haha.

While on my way home, I skipped Dian and went straight on to Filmore street (because the traffic light at Dian was still green and I would have a hard time getting down). So when I went down near Filmore, I saw a familiar swish of blue cloth... The shade, and the sailor shirt that went with the blue skirt plus the location meant only one thing... I ran after the girl, before she could cross the street. All the while, I was thinking that "This can't be her"... But it turned out to be her: Illana, a lowerclassman from masci. She was surprised to see me, having heard running steps. So I walked her to her house near Filmore, and we talked about how her graduation practice went (horrible, in my opinion)... She failed the UPCAT (I checked her name, among other batch '09ers), but she can still file for an appeal. After that, I told her what courses she could take at the Manila campus (she wants to take up Bio).

So there. My day's rant. XD

Doc Nick strikes again!

2009-03-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

As you may know, Dr. Nicolas is my Biochemistry professor. Her exams all follow the same format: a 50-item multiple choice part and a 20-item problem solving part. The problem solving part always takes the form of a story, wherein the questions cohere to both the story and the lesson...

...I just noticed a trend, though... her stories... are getting weirder.

It first happened during our carbohydrates and lipids exam. She warned that she;ll be using a "story from our childhood", so we can relate. Come exam day, the story was about... Pinocchio. Yes, and it turns out that Gepetto can perform exhaustive methylation, among other biochemical analyses.

But this exam really made me facepalm/headdesk/WTFLOL.

a young half-human named Naruto was so strong that studies on his metabolic and genetic make-up were undertaken... It was found out that Naruto is a clone made up of human genome and the gene of a nine-tailed fox

What. The. Hell.
Yeah. I know. The following questions also included copious amounts of references to Naruto's ramen habits, and, of all things... Kage Bunshins... like, "Calculate the number of moles of tryglyceride required to produce enough energy to produce two kage bunshin". Yeah... and most of the questions are essay-type, so I felt really silly putting the words "Naruto", "kage bunshin", "nine-tailed fox" and "phosphorylated enzyme" in the same sentence.

Doc Nick... is so cool. I wanna be just like her.

Which leads me to think... what will the final exam story be about? Bleach? TSUBASA? CODE GEASS?!? XD it leaves me to wonder...

"The biochemical mechanism behind the power called 'geass' is unknown. Lloyd Asplund, a britannian researcher, studied two individuals: Lelouch Lamperouge and C.C., and found out that certain enzymes that control eye coloration were mutated, and hence give forth radiation..."

(this will be the first time you will see me put the tags "biochem" and "anime" together.)

Obligatory rant entry

2009-02-25T17:43:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow, I have an exam for Fundamentals of Biochemistry, not to mention a quiz on Elementary Physics 2 and Art in society. Guess I'll be cooked up in the library far longer than I should (I hope the magic drawer is unoccupied).

Today was Ash Wednesday. I really didn't want to come to school today since I didn't have an excuse to. Even if it meant not being able to see her (I only get to during Wednesdays). Instead, me and my father got ourselves ashed (I know. I have really obscure terms for catholic rituals. I call saying the rosary "praying beads"... I don't see it a violation of edict or blasphemy).

Yesterday was sandwiched between two days without classes for me. Robi didn't show up for Chem 35, so I ended up hanging out with Kiveli and Jami while waiting for Biochem to start. Ate KA and Ate M had an exam in Anthro (I know this because their room is next to ours). We started metabolism in Biochem. I didn't have a notebook so I used a sketchpad. After copying the schematic of the electron transport chain, I had a lot of extra space so I sketched Fuyu from Crimson Pain in the white space (Doc Nic actually saw it. LOL).

Then I ate lunch with fatima and Regine (I always do). They were practicing for their presentation in their chemlab class.

Biochemlab was frustrating. First I had to boil 20 grams of chicken liver for 30 minutes and then do horrible things to the broth. First of all, it was freaking acidic and took two beakers of Sodium Hydroxide to neutralize. And then it won't precipitate any osazone crystals after heating for roughly an hour (it did, but they were so small we needed a microscope just to see them).

After biochemlab Jamil and Kiveli were hanging out at the stone tables. We talked to candidates for the elections and asked them a question I usually drop at candidates:

"Why shouldn't you lose this election?"

They answered pretty well, to tell you the truth. Some of them may well be getting my vote.

And then, Kiveli pointed out the fact that made me grin for the better part of the remainder of my day. The phrase "Natsu mo Fuyu mo..." can be found in the song Aikoi. I mean, I liked Aikoi ever since I heard it, but I never got that phrase before. I am very amused. XD

Seven Sins Survey

2009-02-23T08:03:00.000+08:00

GRABBED FROM RUE

+ WRATH +

WHAT IS YOUR WEAPON OF CHOICE?
- Wakizashi... but if I'm in a bloodthirsty mood I'd pick a masamune. XD

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO GOT REALLY ANGRY AT YOU?
- I think it was my sister.

WHAT IS YOUR PET PEEVE?
= telling me to do something that I'm already doing, and calling me something that I'm not.

DO YOU KEEP GRUDGES, OR CAN YOU LET THEM GO EASILY?
= I forgive rather easily. Though I like to make people think that I'm still angry at them.

+ SLOTH +

WHAT IS ONE THING YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO DAILY THAT YOU HAVEN'T?
= Study Physics 72, Biochem 14, Chem 35, and Math 74. Hahaha.

WHAT IS THE LAST LAME EXCUSE THAT YOU MADE?
= "He's not gonna read this paper anyway"

HOW MANY TIMES DID YOU HIT THE SNOOZE BUTTON ON YOUR ALARM CLOCK THIS MORNING?
= I don't have an alarm clock.

+ GLUTTONY +

WHAT IS YOUR OVERPRICED YUPPIE BEVERAGE OF CHOICE?
= Uhh... What's a yuppie beverage? O__o

ARE YOU A MEAT EATER?
= yeahp.

ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR DRINKING AND EATING HABITS?
= trying to eat less. haha. XD

DO YOU ENJOY CANDY AND SWEETS?
= not really.

WHICH DO YOU PREFER? SWEETS, SALTY FOODS OR SPICY FOODS?
= What? no BITTER!?! BLASPHEMY!

HAVE YOU EVER LOOKED AT A SMALL HOUSE PET OR CHILD AND THOUGHT, "LUNCH"?
= uhh... No.

+ GREED +

HOW MANY CREDIT CARDS DO YOU OWN?
= one. Well, technically, at least.

IF YOU HAD A MILLION DOLLARS, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?
= Divide by four. 1/4 will go to Caritas Manila, 1/4 will go to Manila Science High School, 1/4 will go to UP-PGH, and I'll use the 1/8 to buy all the books, upgrades and stuff I want. The other 1/8 goes to a trust fund.

WOULD YOU RATHER BE RICH OR FAMOUS?
= Fame is fleeting. So I choose riches... so I can say "Screw the rules, I have money".

WOULD YOU ACCEPT A BORING JOB IF IT MEANT THAT YOU WOULD MAKE MEGABUCKS?
= This is a stupid answer: no.

+ PRIDE +

WHAT'S ONE THING THAT YOU'VE DONE THAT YOU'RE MOST PROUD OF?
= Enter the University of the Philippines and survive the first couple semesters. XD

WHAT'S ONE THING THAT YOU'VE DONE THAT YOUR PARENTS ARE MOST PROUD OF?
= Uhmm....Enter the University of the Philippines and survive the first couple semesters?

WHAT THING WOULD YOU LIKE TO ACCOMPLISH LATE IN YOUR LIFE?
= BECOME THE GREATEST TEACHER IN THE WORLD. XD

DO YOU GET ANNOYED BY COMING IN SECOND PLACE?
= Not at all.

HAVE YOU EVER CHEATED TO GET A BETTER SCORE?
= *shifty eyes* pass.

+ LUST +

HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SEEN NAKED TODAY?
= . . . none.

HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE SEEN YOU NAKED ALREADY?
= That depends on a given timeframe. If you're referring since birth, then the doctors wo delivered me, and most of my family have. I wasn't pulled out wearing anything, you know.

HAVE YOU EVER CAUGHT YOURSELF STARING AT THE CHEST/CROTCH OF A PERSON OF YOUR CHOSEN SEX DURING A NORMAL CONVERSATION?
= I admit I have. Wahahaha.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN PROPOSITIONED BY A PROSTITUTE?
= Hell no. >_< (not even prostitutes will come near me. haha.)

+ ENVY +

IF YOU COULD BE ANYONE WHO EXISTED IN THE WORLD, WHO WOULD YOU BE?
= Albert Einstein, Stephen Hawking, or Francis Crick.

HAVE YOU EVER WISHED YOU HAD A PHYSICAL FEATURE DIFFERENT FROM YOUR OWN?
= noodle limbs like you see in CLAMP.

WHAT INBORN TRAIT DO YOU SEE IN OTHERS THAT YOU WISH YOU HAD FOR YOURSELF?
= the ability to smile without showing my teeth.

...Like metal nuclei in a sea of electrons.

2009-02-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

Forgive the long post. I have a lot to say and this is way overdue.

You're probably wondering where the hell I picked up that title from. I first heard it back in high school chemistry. It sounded so profound and poetic that it's quite silly to think that it's used as the standard textbook definition for a metallic bond. Haha. It was just begging to be used somewhere (a poem, perhaps?) since last week. But creativity has eluded me.

I'm pissed at the fact that I haven't done anything more creative than take pictures of my gintoki gashapon. I mean, come on... I can't write or draw these days. My pen touches the paper, and that's it. The lines don't flow, my wrist doesn't move, my mind refuses to whir, and most importantly, drops of blood do not start appearing on my forhead.

Lately I've come to deal with it by blaming my hectic schedule. I mean, an exam every weekend and papers due left and right are everywhere. There actually is no room for creativity lately, and I doubt there'll be time by the time I reach my third year at the University (because by the third year, you become something else). I have plots in my mind beggfing to be written, verses longing to be set in paper, undrawn lineart in my head, mixed up in a swirl of organic chemicals and noxious formulae.

I am a bit pleased though that three chapters of Grisham gave me back some of my alleged flair in writing, something I've missed since early last year (seriously, I need to read more. All I have are giant textbooks on chemistry and physics). The thing I love about Grisham is the fact that his books are not hyped at all. I mean, I hate hyped up things, be it a manga series, a novel, or some fashion trend (you can now imagine my disgust when Twilight came out). The thing I hate about him, however, is the fact that he only writes about Lawyers.

It's the fifteenth of February right now, which basically gives me license to rant about how I hate everything about the date yesterday. Yes, I detest Valentine's Day, a day whose political or religious significance fails to grasp me (and if any of you smartasses try and say it's St. Valentine's feast day, first tell me who the hell was he, and why the date is not a holy day of obligation). I've started detesting said date back in third year high school (which weirdly coincides with one of my first blogs). Come to think of it, I should have detested it from the very beginning. But in afterthought, I guess it was when my hormones kicked in and I started to feel the need to be in love. Blech. Damn you, hormones. As you might have guessed, I'm one of those poor, bitter saps who dress in black during that day. But wait! I had a date yesterday. Two dates actually... Elementary Analysis 2 and Advanced Organic Chemistry. And these are two ladies who are extremely hard to please.

Come to think of it, I did suck at pleasing them, didn't I? I mean, the exams were freaking hard. Too bad it was a saturday, and SHE had to go back to the province. My longing... has increased twofold. This is bad.

Again, forgive the excessive ranting (and thank you if you've reached this far into my post). These are the things that cross my mind during train rides. haha, go figure. Also, I highly enjoyed the sensation of my fingers rapidly meeting keyboard. I can practically feel the capacitors being set off.

PS. Those who reply by tl;dr will be severely punished. srsly.

LOL

2009-02-12T15:12:00.000+08:00

I was checking my mail earlier and I got this notification from friendster:

Avatar Aang wants to add you as a fan.
By becoming a fan of Avatar Aang you are able to send Avatar Aang messages and connect with other fans.
Also, any updates made to Avatar Aang's profile including photos and blog entries will be included on your Friendster homepage.
Please confirm that you would like to become a fan of Avatar Aang.

*gigglesnort* of course Avatar Aang. I so want to be your fan. I have watched your adventured up until Book 2: Earth, and I haven't watched an episode of Book 3: Fire yet. Boo... ~~I don't want to see your awesome fury though so I'll add you...~~

Seriously. Who logs in to friendster and registers himself as the all-powerful master of all the elements... and then asks you to be their fan? Come on...

...This is why I never touch my friendster account.

The latest chapter of TSUBASA: RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE is out. and the major speaking parts (aside from Fei Wong Reed) was Mokona. Ahahaha. Mokona. In his cheesy speeches about everyone being sad. It's kinda weird looking at a pathetic-looking manju rebuke an all-powerful sorcerer. But it's nice CLAMP gave it such a badass role so late in the series.

For some reason, I like Fei Wong Reed's just-as-planned smirk.

Freaking Long Post is EPIC

2009-02-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

My classes during Mondays start at 7AM. So, by around 6:45, I was already in front of the Rizal Hall steps when I began reading the messages left on my phone when I wasn't checking it on the train ride going to school. One of them was from Fatima.

"Friends, walang Physics LEC at LAB" (Friends, we don't have Physics LEC and LAB). Nice. . I'm fifteen minutes early, only to find out that my next class is 2:30PM. That left me with quite literally seven hours to study for the Biochem exam that afternoon.

So, I basically did nothing in the morning but hole up in the Library reading "Biochemistry" by Mathews and Van Holden (which, may I add is probably the most nosebleed-inducing textbook I have encountered) and "Modules in Biochemistry" by Nicolas (If you're wondering if she's the same person as the one doing all the Mr. Gutierrez analogies, you're right). I was with Fatima, Inno, Paul and Mao. Mao brought the adBio book we used to use back in high school, which Paul said was the same book the biology people at Diliman use (amazing, ain't it?). After clearing 5 chapters of Mathews and reading an entire unit from Dr. Nick's module, I started working on my problem set (the syllabus states that passing a problem set merits additional points in the exams... woohoo. SWEET). After that, I had lunch with Fatima and Inno.

After lunch, I bumped into Jamil, Dennis and Kiveli (Kiveli "flirting" with Dennis this time, do note the use of quotation marks). We discussed the script for our collaboration, and then waited until the OMAKE meeting.

The OMAKE meeting was attended by Ten- get it- TEN people, namely M, D, K, A, Madz, Uretz, Jeun, Dennis, Geneva and Me (ah yes, it all started with L and his funny name). We decided what we we're going to do for tomorrow's ACLE (Alternative Classroom Learning Experience) and decided to do a "timeline of anime styles". After that, we just hung out. Aya-sama fell asleep on the benches, Dennis sort of "stole" Uretz-nee's PSP to use "rapist maneuvers" using Devil Jin on Tekken, random "flirting" of some members, Madz-nee told me how to get our org uniforms made, et cetera, et cetera. Bumped into nina for three seconds, bumped into RJ even longer.

Then came Humanities 2. As usual, I sat for another 90 minutes listening to another lecture on the history of fashion... Then, I fell asleep. Haha.

Bumped into Lau who told me he was already delayed by a year. Then we debated which was harder: Organic Chemistry or Biochemistry.

My exam in Biochemistry 14 started around 5:30. Dr. Nicolas was complaining that we weren't numbering her attendance sheet properly. She asked if we're confused or panicking. I told her it's because we were developing Thymine-Thymine cyclobutane dimers (I admit. Only a biochemist would find that funny).

The exam. Was freaking. Hard. My head hurt (it rarely does during exam, sometimes my mind just blanks out XP). I think the reason it did so much because it kept on running, and I didn't encounter mental blocks (because I was like, studying since wednesday). In the end, it killed the hell out of me.

Had dinner at shakey's while listening to Hitomi to calm me down.

Right now I'm wondering what the hell Hitomi is saying in the first two minutes or so before the official lyrics kick in. O___o (I'm seriously considering some weird subliminal message-chant)

The World is a Conspiracy! :D

2009-01-30T16:34:00.000+08:00

I've been much too busy to be paying attention to one of my guilty pleasures lately: watching anime. Haha. I'm only following one series at the moment: mouryou no hako, a psychological/horror/slightly shojo-ai series (that may I add makes absolutely no sense to me) and then I realized that the world conspired to make it difficult, if not impossible me to watch it.

First of all, the only fansubber (to my knowledge at least), doesn't hardsub it anymore, forcing me to watch it on mkv format. My PC has issues with mkv, so I figured I'd install a new set of codecs. It helped with the skipping, but now there is a general audio-video-sub desync. Boo. It turns out that my PC is way too slow to be playing mkv's, even with a faster decoder. So my last hope was video streaming. Then, it turns out it was recently deleted on crunchyroll...

...I mean seriously... It's not even licensed, and about half of the series on crunchyroll is already deleted.

Chemistry lessons today were lulzy.

"ang problema natin ngayon ay ang reaksyon ng alil organomagnesyum sa alil heylayd na gumawa sa kanya. Kaya ang ginawa ng mga kemist ay maglagay ng aldehayd o kitown para mapigilan ang pad-daymerays ng alil organomagnesyum. Naiintindihan ba?" ~Sir Robidillo

Seriously... Funny as it is, it'll take someone who's actually studied Filipino AND Organic Chemistry to get the joke here. Just translating and explaining the text will make it corny.

"So you take an egg cell, disintegrate the nucleus using a laser, take a somatic cell of the same species, and implant that nucleus into the egg cell. Since the egg cell is haploid and the somatic cell is diploid, the egg cell will now divide, and start growing as if it was fertilized. So if Mr. Gutierrez would like to clone himself, this is what he will do."~Dr. Nicolas

ALSKDJFHALSKJDFHLAKSJDFHLAKJSDFH. WHY???? (refer to my previous post)

Ma'am Ligaya (who was wearing something jawdropping, by the way... haha) told me to recompute my enzyme inhibitors. Took me long enough... It turns out that I hadn't converted the substrate concentration (Otherwise known as Mr. Gutierrez's girlfriend, reffering to my previous post) from Millimoles to moles... While at the department, I caught a glimpse of the teachers racticing for their performance. Wait... let me say that again. MATH AND PHYSICS TEACHERS DANCING... ALSJDFHLAKSJDFHLAKSJFH XD. It was amusing to watch Ma'am Len, Sir Mong and Ma'am Johnson practicing (but I knew I couldn't attend the DPSM event since I had tons to do).

...and that "tons to do" had something to do with chemistry. It was my turn to stir the experiment for advanced organic chemistry lab so I went to the Lab (the lab technicians were out, so I had to sneak in ninja-style XD), turned on and calibrated the magnetic stirrers and waited for 15 minutes. So what will happen with me alone in a lab with nothing but swirling orange goo, a labgown, a beret and a camera? Of course.... Vanity will ensue! haha. XD

A kid was like, hogging DrumMania this afternoon. And he was destroying the drum pads by hitting too hard, too. So instead of waiting for him ~~to stop venting out his frustration~~, I settled for a round of driving practice instead. LOL.... I still suck at driving sims. >_<

Love and... Enzyme activity?!?

2009-01-27T16:55:00.000+08:00

Suppose Mr. Gutierrez has a girlfriend. Now, Mr. Gutierrez likes another girl. What can be said about his affinity to his girlfriend? It would seem that the two girls are competing. This then lowers Mr. Gutierrez and his girlfriend's affinities to each other, therefore lowering the chances of them being together.

Coincidentally, this is exactly how Competitive Inhibitors change the kinetics of enzymes. They are structural analogues of the substrate, lowering the affinity of the enzyme and substrate.

Now suppose another girl likes Mr. Gutierrez. She latches on to him, making it difficult to reach his girlfriend. It doesn't look like the two are competing, since Mr. Gutierrez still likes his girlfriend. It's just that getting to her is a bit difficult.

... And this is exactly how a non-competitive inhibitor changes the kinetics of an enzyme. It latches onto it, changes its conformation, making it more difficult to attach to a substrate.

Funny how Dr. Nicolas chose that analogy... The funnier thing is that she chose me of all people to use the analogy on.

I know it's been ages since this lesson (and this analogy) was brought out in Biochem 14 class. But it never fails to amuse me (mainly because Mr. Gutierrez doesn't have a girlfriend to speak of). I remembered it this afternoon since we were working on our 14.1 lab reports on enzyme kinetics.

(Dr. Nicolas, of course, has funnier jokes.... None of them involving me).

Sadism.

2009-01-19T17:09:00.000+08:00

need I say more?

Life is playing mindgames with me.

2009-01-19T16:37:00.000+08:00

This came into my head before Humanities 2. It should've been epic but then again, I forgot most of the things I wanted to write since I fell asleep during Hum II (lol) and I took an epic Physics 72 exam. So yeah. I basically forgot everything I wanted to say save for the title. Crap. Now I need to compose it all over again. T___T

I am thoroughly convinced that Life has been playing mindgames with me, or at least today.

First of all, I came to school pretty late (around ten minutes late), and I was pretty sure that physics lab had already started. But while I was walking through the DBS corridor, I heard voices. Noise. It's usually a good sign. When I arrived, everyone was there, but the professor wasn't. Which meant I wasn't late; everyone else was just early. Haha. It turns out that the class wasn't due to start for another twenty or so minutes, which gave me time to revise that proof for Wheatstone Bridge using Kirchoff's rules (I was doing it last night, and it literally took me three pages worth of equations, leading to an incorrect answer. Ate Fatima, however, took half a manila paraper and seven lines of equations. *epicfail*).

Physics lab was pretty cool. Kirchoff's rules applied to circuits. I brought it upon myself to assemble and test the circuits, and they came out pretty well. Ahaha. Pretty much everyone wanted to understand how it's done, andI pretty much showed them.

No physics 72 Lecture since there was an exam later that evening. This left me with four hours with nothing to do. FOUR HOURS WORTH OF FREE TIME. I could've studied... but instead I hanged out with Dennis, DM, Jamil and Kiveli, looking and LOLing at Jamil's new drawings (most of which disturbing in nature). Then, when they had classes, I went to the library... and slept.

Now here is where the mindcrush begins. You see, I know that the girl I like has a class from 1-2:30 at the third floor of Rizal Hall. My class there is from 2:30-4. Therefore, we could meet each other, right? So at 2, I positioned myself on the hallway and fired up my ipod and set it to "shuffle".

Its choices were so... appropriate.
Season's Call by Hyde > Haruka Kimi no Moto e by Nomimura Tenma> True Light by Miyamoto Shunichi> Mitsumeteitai by Flow-War. (If you can't relate, these are all sentimental songs). Looking back, I must have felt pretty silly checking how I looked in a mirror and stuff like that, in preparation for an encounter that was to last less than five minutes. Then, I realized that they may not be holding their class there at the moment, or not at all. So my ipod decided to smite me... Pika Pika no Taiyou by Kana Ueda. Nice.

The weird thing is, I could still hang out with Jen even if the girl I liked wasn't there. But alas, she said that she was not going to NatSci because she has more stuff to do.

After hum 2, I saw Dennis at DSS. Seems like he did bad on his philosophy test. We went to Robinson's and ended up seeing Jamil, DM and Kiveli at a coffee shop *insert Dennis!Squeal here*. After a few randomness moments, I got myself a Xing-Ke gashapon.

Oh great. Li Tuberculosis Xing ke. I was hoping Lelouch or maybe Spinzaku. But I got Xing ke (cue Tianzi dance). oh well, maybe next time I decide to splurge my allowance.

Physics 72 exam was a joke. seriously. It was three times easier than the last one. It kinda got me scared because it was too easy. At least I just need to answer 26 items correct in order to pass (I'm pretty sure about my answers on 17 questions. XD)

Creative Slump, among other things

2009-01-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

I've been in such a creative slump over the past few days. Notice I haven't been writing or drawing for at least a week now. There isn't just as many ideas coming out of the right hemisphere of my brain right now; I guess they were all overpowered by the endless impulses from the left hemisphere, not with all the exams and papers I have to get through this semester. The good news is I did pretty well in my Biochem 14 exam. And I hope the same goes for the exams I took these past few weeks. The only place where my mind is free to wander is during train rides, for some reason, especially the morning ones when I'm going to school. The thing is, everything that comes to my head while riding the train is gone the instant I get to a computer and write about it. And I'm pretty much a guy who doesn't write down what he thinks at the moment only to copy them later. I like being spontaneous... And lately, delta G is positive.

And not only that, but most of my free time is devoted to sleeping. It's as if I'm always exhausted, even if I haven't done a damn thing. Either that, or my pillow is too inviting.

I'm no longer coming up with plots in my head (last one was I think around last week, which explored one's fall from grace, so to speak). And I can't visualize things properly. Must be the workload getting to me.

Some people may know that I like this certain girl in our school. So last friday, after literally months of waiting for the right moment, and basically getting sick of waiting and not minding the people around, I decided to tell her the truth. At first, she was speechless, then I just put the words right in her mouth. Basically, all she could ask me was "Why should I be angry at you?" (I was working under the premise that I had sinned against her, and that being liking her). Suffice to say, She couldn't return my feelings. I feel so bittersweet, mainly because I know that it just can't happen between the two of us, but also because I don't have to hide what I feel anymore (and LOL, it was driving me to the verge of mental breakdown, when coupled with my coursework).

IN the end, I guess I'd just have to wait and see what fate has in store for me.
There are no coincidenes, only hitsuzen.

Affirming the choice

2009-01-13T17:03:00.000+08:00

Earlier tonight while I was walking one of the bridges between Rizal Hall and Gusaling Andres Bonifacio, I saw the sign of the Pearl Manila, one of the nearby hotels... The sign, however, was missing a P. And so it read:

THE EARL MANILA

This image immediately came to my mind:
It really, really amused me. Dennis, of course, already beat me to the idea for a couple days now without my knowledge, but you could just imagine my reaction when I saw it...
"The Earl is in manila... ZOMG INNOCENCE INVOCATE!!!"

Now if you were wondering why I was at campus at night (It was around six in the evening and so I would have seen the neon lights), blame my schedule. On tuesdays I have Biochem 14.1 from 1PM-7PM. Most of the time we finish before 5, so I get to go home early. But then, this was a very long class, and I had to go to back and forth between RH (where our main classroom was) and the equipment room at GAB (where the others were finishing the last part of their experiments) to make sure that nothing goes wrong with the spectrophotometer.

They handed over the biochem 14 exam results earlier today. Out of the 38 who took the exam, only eight passed. I'm one of them. I don't mean to brag, though. I'm just happy that I passed such an epic exam. I admit that most of that was just plain intelligent guesses on my part coupled with a bit of luck, but I can still take credit for myself, can't I?

...After all, Biochem chose me.

Senseless rant #3.14

2009-01-08T08:40:00.000+08:00

These days I can't seem to find myself writing anything of immediate significance. Even if I'm forced to review a play I've seen over a month ago (haha, and my prof said it should have been fresh in my memory) nothing is coming out and the cursor is just blinking, begging to be moved.

It just so happens that when I'm thinking, I'd need to write all my ideas down lest they dissapear from memory the moment I sit into the nearest computer console with a near-decent internet connection. I just have to write stuff down, but alas, nothing comes out...

Art, however, is something else. For those who know, my drawing talent was practically zero before and during highschool. My drawing has gotten a lot better, mind you... And when I want to draw something, the image I can lock inside my head and release the moment I pick up a pen...

This may justify my autistic tendencies, rather than thinking in words, I can think in pictures, as well. Although, I can think in both sometimes. Lol. MPD tiem is nao?

...Prime example of the world playing mind games with you. ^^

In far hopes...

2009-01-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

Here lies my hopes for the coming year. I found it befitting to post something like this other than another asinine, debate-inducing ramble brewing up in the far corner of my mind. Forgive my prudence if you must, this is for the peace of mind I'm longing after another dose of the "new system".

This is when I sound like a highschooler writing a lame essay just to get a decent grade in english.

I'm gonna start real boring,cliche'd, and somewhat stupid by wishing for world peace, an end to conflict, corruption, and evil in general. I hope 2009 will bring an end to the world financial crisis and bring forth a solution to global warming.I hope the world will realize what it has done in the past and start working for a brighter tomorrow. I hope my prayers muttered every night would be answered, and generally make the ideal world we all want it to be. But we all know those are farfetched dreams floating in our reality... They are fleeting, almost intangible things that are better left to the greatest of men and the decisions of fate to start and the rest of humanity to operate upon.

I hope that the ideals of many be met, but I also want the proponents and visionaries see the fallacies in their ideas show in order to improve, and in turn lead others to their goal. I hope that the system becomes less high and mighty, I hope that the general populace of the said system respect others in their interests and bash them less, if not completely stop their prejudice (which is ironic, since they advocate against prejudice itself). I hope for less bias, less indifference and less strife among the ranks fighting for their freedom.

Now it gets serious. This is what I really want for this year. I want to get past the remainder of my second year at the University, hopefully get it to the Dean's List, and to have better relations with my peers. I hope that this year will bring forth improvements to the University which would mean improvements to the country. I hope the road will be less thorny, but rough nonetheless; none of us have learned without mistakes. I hope this year will bring about my first taste of romance (haha), and be absolutely better than next year.

The world continues to turn and humanity continues to hope. For that is what remains in the mythical pandora's box unleashed millenia ago. Hope is never completely extinguished, and it is what drives people. Hope is the foundation underneath the best of ideals and the most genuine of concerns. Hope is what keeps those in the dark searching for the light, to keep fighting and to not succumb to the crushing weight of the world's sins. Though it is true that hope drives men mad and leads them astray, it is the proper administration of this essential object that keeps the spark of life burning, the sun in our souls shining, and ultimately, the moon and stars that will accompany us in our darkest moments.

The best thing about hoping is that unlike wishing, it is feasible, accessable, doable. Those who have lost it will eventually find it again in the strangest of circumstances.

But then again, hope is not enough. It is only the first step. If hope is the spark, then will is the fuel that will drive us towards our goals and ideals. And sadly, because it is merely the fuel, it should not be lost to the existing pain eating it, extinguishing our drive and smothering the shine our dear hopes...

But from dreams it started... so shall it be reborn from dreams.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
~1 Peter 5:6-7

A look back at 2008

2008-12-31T07:18:00.000+08:00

This is the last day of the year, so I thought it nice to look back at what had happened through the many aspects of my day-to-day existence. (blech, I'm really doing this because I'm bored and I need to join the bandwagon).

Domestic Affairs
I started the year at our little apartment in Makati. But my uncle had plans to renovate the building so we had to move to my grandma's house (she was in america at that time so there was no one to take care of the house). And for the first time in my life, I had my own room. Haha. The downside being I was directly above my grandfather's urn which scared the heck out of me at night. When summer rolled in, we moved back to the renovated building, and then this time to the third floor, with a loft room for me and my sister. Therefore, the house had a roof, but no ceiling. The pitter-patter of the rain was now completely audible and amplified to horrid proportions.

School
The second semester of my first year in college was nearing a close. Amidst all the hectic papers to write and all the coursework to finish, I managed to grab a 2.3 average (though I wish it would've been higher). This was also the first time I had summer term, which was COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY HORRIBLE. I had 9 units, chem 18, 18.1 and Hum Stud 20. All of which was a bucketful of hell. Hum Stud 20 (which we thought was fun) turned out to be a snorefest to the highest degree. I got a 1.25 for that one. Chem 18.1 was when I realized I had anger issues during laboratory sessions. Stifling laboratories and missing reagents were everywhere, not to mention the constant reports that had to be filed... I'm not really the nicest person in the laboratory. Haha. In the end, I gambled on my dreaded qualitative analysis and got a modest 2.75. Chem 18? No comment. I removed, then failed.

I retook Chem 18 again, along with Chem 31, Bio 10, Physics 71, and History 2 during the first semester of '08 in the June. AND I WAS IN THE ZONE! Even though I was the victim of late registration, I was excempted from almost every final exam, got past the dreaded qualis for 31.1, dissected a frog for the first time for Biology... I absolutely ADORED CHEM 31 (not without a few hesitations and frustrations here and there), and got a 2.4 GWA.
(FEAR MAI CHEMLAB POWARZ!) thanks to Mao for the photo

The second sem is here, and I have a feeling I'm going to survive it!

Otaku-ness
This year was the first time I've cosplayed. It started on February with the OMAKE CAFE (thank you DM for the costume!). I was a butler who served coffee, tea and sweets.
(OMG FEAR MEH)
(thanks to Ate China (shinyredballoon on devart) for the pic)

Next was for Ozine Fest '08, my first real convention. I went as Hiiragizawa Eriol and got a huge culture shock. haha. It was the first time I was immersed into this strange new world. Oh well, there IS a first time for everything, I guess. After which, I was "recruited" by Tamaki of HCC.

Afterwards was mangaholix Manga Mania... I went as... hmm... who DID I go as? It was ~~Jyuushiro Ukitake~~ ~~Aizen Souskuke~~ Random Shinigami number 5!
Thanks to Ate M for the epic, yet blurry photo.

After that, I went on a cosplay hiatus for a whole sem to focus on my studies. But I came back for AME 8th avenue, cosplaying Shimura Shinpachi (sorry, no pics) and again for Christmas Toycon as Watanuki Kimihiro!
That was the first time I've worn contacts, too!

Aside from cosplaying, I was hooked on Code Geass: Hangyaku no Lelouch (R1 and R2), Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu, Mouyou no Hako, and Harukanaru tooki no nakade: Hachiyosho.

Lovelife:
THIS. IS. SPARTA!

Thank you to all the people who've been to my life. My friends (especially the folks of OMAKE, HCC and *aherm* some people from DPSM), My teachers, My family (XD), and more importantly, to God. May we have a blessed 2009!

Let silver stars shine upon us!

when I was [not so] young... (ganked from rayshi)

2008-12-24T08:32:00.000+08:00

Think back to your first semester in college. Let's see how much you remember and how much you regret.

> What section were you?
block 11

> Who were your seatmates?
uhm... which subject?I

> Still remember your English teacher?
Forgot her name, but I'd recognize her face

> What was your first class?
Philo 1 on tuesdays and fridays, CMSC 10 during mondays and PE2 BD during thursdays (i cheated and peeked at my schedule blog)

> Best friends?
none. nasa diliman eh

> Made any enemies?
the entire block 11

> Who was your favorite teacher/s?
Sir Villaflor, BEST MATH TEACHER EVAR.
Dr. Mateo, because of her fun history class

> Back then, do you always buy your lunch?
yeah, and in expensive robinson's too. >_<

> Did you get suspended/expelled?
FIRST.SEM.IN.COLLEGE. HELLO?

> What was your favorite subject?
HISTO 1. XD

> What was your school's full name?
University of the Philippines-Manila

> Where did you go most often during breaks?
Robinson's place manila... I wasn't too fond of the library back then...

> What color of pen do you always use?
black...

> Recited often?
I don't really remember XD

> Ever cheated?
...hi~mi~tsu! *joke*

> Do you bring your own paper and pen?
nope. you're talking to an eternal parasite

> Are you in the top ten of your class/es?
Me? Top ten? LIES!

> Favorite things to do in class?
aside from studying? Sleep. haha. XD

> Classmates you didn't like?
around 80% of block 11

> Subjects with highest grade?
Histo 1 with 1.25, CMSC 10 with 1.50

> Lowest?
MATH 17 3.00 OH YEAH (nag-removals pa ako >_<)

> Ever had a crush? Who?
none that I can recall.

> What's your theme song for him/her?
O____o

> Fave events in 1st sem?
boring ang buhay non eh. Hahaha.

> What are your favorite classrooms?
Histo 1 room, CMSC 10 room (hellyeah free internet)

> Do you sleep in class?
yes.. haha. especialy during math 17

> Ever thought of burning your school?
I love UP. Why will I burn it?

Not this crap again...

2008-12-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: I myself am fed up with having to write about this. Do I have to reiterate myself all over again? I really hate repeating myself, especially repeating explanations, but I really get pissed whenever someone just has to bring it up. So yeah. I bet my readers (or lack thereof) are sick too of me ranting about this.

Here goes...

Otaku: unpatriotic?

"I was not aware that liking anime/manga and being nationalistic are now mutually exclusive." (Montenegro, 2008).

It just seemed that being who we are makes us already victims of "cultural imperialism", wherein another culture is transplanted into another, forcibly or otherwise. As I have pointed out before, the subculture, or at least the majority of it, retain the most basic-and I'll even go farther to say primal or even essential-tenets of our culture here at home. We don't go out giving new years cards, pray at buddhist shrines, watch the sunrise on mountains, etc because we are otaku. I admit that some of Japanese culture has blended with our own, we do not forget this country and its ills. I'd like to say that the bigger cultural imperialist in the country would be the US and Spain, with at least 350 years of occupation in this country. But do we blame gangsters, hip-hoppers, and the likeas victims of imperialism? Surely not. Do we comment on their blogs speaking of how their practices as alien and un-filipino? Of course not! Is the Catholic population of the Philippines (~95% of the population, me included), which gives us pride as one of the most populous christian nations un-filipino, considering it was brought from spain 400 years ago seen bad? But we embrace it nonetheless. So why then, do you see otaku as japanese-brainwashed people?

It would seem that the subculture is seen in a negative light, even more so than the geeks who adore science fiction. The point I'm asking is, why the negativity? Do we need to dress up in Barong Tagalogs and Baro't Sayas to show our patriotism? Do we need to stop speaking in English (or any other language for that matter) to show our nationalism? Do we need to follow ONLY OPM (which I admit rules the airwaves) just to show our Filipino pride? I highly doubt that some of the nationalists who bash the subculture don't have a favorite koreanovela, or listen to western bands. So why the hate on otaku, then? Do we need to express our nationalism in our hobbies, too? Isn't it enough that we support motions against the unfair government? Isn't it enough that we are aware and angered by the current sociopolitical situations rocking the country? Do we seem that apathetic, that engrossed in another culture, that you brand us and smirk labelling us victims of another culture's imperialism? How then, wilol we show our love of our country when you don;t give us the opportunity to do so?

I present this questions to those who have questioned us of our nationalism. To those (some of which I know have been otaku at some point in their lives before they were radically changed by the system) who still mock and brand us. We don't worship japan. It is just that we are fascinbated with some facets of their culture. We don't want to imbibe it into our own culture-they're worlds apart- but we just want to pursue being an otaku as a hobby, not as a statement of self, not as a statement of political alignment, not anything more of a hobby. We don't ave any particular goal in mind other than to have fun. I doubt you don't go to parties for the same reason... And as hobbyists, I understand that it takes up a lot of our time and thinking space, but don't you dare generalize that what it means is that the country plays second fiddle to a hobby.

Stop generalizing. We don't generalize you, so don't generalize us. Just becasue your ideals may be far-reaching, don't bash those that are shalow in your opinion.

The fruits of staring blankly into your monitor

2008-12-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

This morning, I received the usual messages from HCC (and by usual, I mean most of them won't make a difference in how I operate as a person, id est senseless greetings, and stuff which normally I can't relate to.The inbox was full, so I deleted all the messages. Every single one of them (that's how I roll).

Then, after five minutes, Nagi texted in what seemed like an eternity:

Ohayo! I'm selling Culture Crash issue #14, Alodia(&)Ashley Gosengfiao on the cover. Mint condition, Printed 2003. It's a collector's item and its only 200php. Text me if you're interested.Ü

LOL. Why was I not surprised? It was your usual Nagi GM. Tempted was I to buy the magazine, I figured, "I'm spending too much on my cosplay hobbies." So I decided to text her (We usually adress each other using our geass personas, ie she's CC and I'm Lloyd Asplund)
Good morning, Shitsu~ *sleep*

Then she replied the text that just made my day:
Wake up, Earl. M selling a mag feat a Britannian cosplayer lyk u.
Yeah, sure. That woke me up laughing. (Note to self: place that geass poster next to my bed).

Today was the last day of classes for 2008. Classes resume on January 6. So during this last day, we had to hand in our Physics reports. Since I was epic fail (see last post) with the laboratory exercise, I copied my data from Fatima. While waiting for her, I decided to make a name for that story I came up with yesterday. I called it "stereophone" for some reason, mainly because the main character wears a pair of headphones all the time.

Since Fatima and I are fans of "Bakuman" (She calls me Shujin and I call her Saiko), I decided to see how long it would take me to make a name. One of the characters of Bakuman, Niizuma Eiji, can make a 29-page name in half an hour. That's around a page a minute. I'm a bit... err... slower. It took me a full hour to construct 4 pages. EPIC FAIL.

We hung around DPSM, finishing our reports. Dr. Tumlos was there to be sadistic with us, giving out deductions like Mr. Crocked from the Fairly Oddparents. Haha. I found it amusing, actually.

I opted not to join the lantern parade today, even IF it is the UP centennial Lantern Parade. I figured it;d be too much of a hassle for me. Things like this exist to bore me, and besides, I don't really like going to the Diliman Campus (for reasons I'd better keep to myself).

My Watanuki preparations are 99% complete. Huzzah! For all those attending Toycon, see you saturday! ♥←finally learned how to do that. XD

Migrane-induced ramblings

2008-12-12T05:49:00.000+08:00

graced by a perpetual migrane set about by an odd mix of opera, classical music, the hornblowing of Padre-Faura street and the music of the spheres governing chemistry, this head uses the upper appendages of the body it controls to write a post that, above all else, should not make sense to the general public...

Still reading this? Good.

I'm currently at CAS cybernook, clad in the upper half of a shihakusho and jeans. I'm procastinating and looking for an excuse not to further edit the travesty known as the CHEM 35.1 paper so as to please our professor with our eloquence with the way analgesics, caffeine and carotenoids move up a chromatography plate. And later we shall be dissecting lemons to get at their citric acid.

My migrane has increased twofold. Let us continue.

Now I'm out of my poetic daze after looking at my chem 35.1 paper, I realize why I've been having poetic dazes. No, I'm not emo, I just happen to be in a particularly happy mood these days. So happy that I will the world dissolve leaving only the sun and moon and the music of the spheres that separate them! No, seriously. I think I'm really high on dopamine, compounded by listening to Reason by Nami Tamaki, 1/3 no Junjou no Kanjou by Siam Shade (yes, there is a 1/3 there. "no junjou no kanjou" does not make the slightest bit of sense), and finally Aika (ELEGY) by Ken Hirai (POP STAR~winter lover version makes me think weird thoughts. His songs are really weird). I've been on this dopamine high ever since I recieved that Fuyu-kun pen from Nina, for some odd reason. I even laughed to teh point of having an asthma attack when Dennis commented that the guy buying calamares from the store looked like he was peeing.

Forgive my senseless ramble about how my life's been. It's been far too long since I've written and all these thoughts in my head are still begging to be gushed out.

I'm coming to the christmas Toycon on the 20th, as Watanuki Kimihiro. I should now go looking for a larg that will cost me less than 200 (most largs or soels are too freaking HUGE).

I'll just print the travesty of a paper now.

This has no title.

2008-11-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

Lately I have been staring blankly into this field without writing anything. So much has the bane of writer's block has gripped me evere since I got sick that this blog has been gathering cobwebs (well, not really). So in desperate boredom I force myself to do spomething... Such is what happens when your WSJ fails you because your favorite writers are on hiatus (I wish Katsura Hoshino would be better soon. her last installment was a cliffhanger).

So last monday was Nina's party. Haha. Beyond the raging headache and paracetamol overdose I pretty much had fun, albeit I had to skimp on the ice cream... Boo. I'll treat Nina to ice cream later, to make up for it (it's imperative that RJ and ming be there. They are a must to be able to deliver the proverbial package!).

I browsed through the latest installment of Code Geass: Nightmare of Nunnally and would have to comment on a few things:
THIS IS LLOYD ASPLUND. WHATTHEHELL. He looks markedly different from the main series, Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion. I haven't seen the other one, Code Geass: Suzaku of the counterattack, but wow. Different lloyd is different. And here, he's not an earl but a Lieutenant Colonel and formally part of the britannian army. He does retain his arrogance, curiosity and apparent apathy. ~~He still looks hot, too.~~
This is Kururugi Suzaku. WHY DOES HE NOOT LOOK LIKE THE SUZAKU I KNOW? I demand an answer, Takuma Tomomasa. Although I do like the nice touch they went with the robotic zero outfit. But WHY SUZAKU... >_> I admit this is a different storyline altogether, but the character designs have me stumped.
Uhh, yeah. Hi thar, Euphemia. I see you've kept your headphones (good for you if you can get this joke).

The christmas decorations have been set up in out house already. Outside are blinking lights and inside are wreaths galore. Haha

...If I can;t attend Toycon on the 20th, I don'r know what I would do with myself. I'm thinking of going as the original lloydie, but I may have some surprises up my sleeve. haha. XD

of culture and cosplay...

2008-11-16T10:50:00.000+08:00

Earlier I was faced with a question relating to what is known as the otaku subculture here in our country, aimed at cosplayers, to be exact. And being such an argumentative person, I immediately sought to combat the rhetoric. BECAUSE I CAN. XD

So the initial question is, "do cosplayers want to be japanese?". But within that comes the real premise of their argument. why do people adhere to yet another foreign fixation when clearly there are a lot of things in this country that has yet to be (not to mention very much needed to be) celebrated and recognized? If not american, japanese. are we that empty we have to identify ourselves, find ourselves in japanese culture? aren't you (the cosplayers) reinforcing and enabling people to abandon their identities and find new ones in a culture they barely know? do you even know who (as in the people) you're trying to emulate? in short. you're celebrating another culture instead of our own. when there are so many things needed to be fixed within our own culture that you look into a different one.

Frankly, I've had time to think of this thoroughly. A few months ago, a friend was confronted with a question from someone about how we uphold nationalism given the fact that our organization primarily focuses on Japanese Culture and media.

Here's my take on the matter.

For purposes of my discussion I will label those with a japanese obsession as "otaku" and the rest of the subculture as "mania"

I understand that there are many people who don't give a damn shit about what happens in the Philippines and finds the Japanese culture more fascinating, mainly because it's foreign. It's also happening all around the world, where people find the Japanese culture very interesting (I myself admit to doing so). For me, I'm more or less knowledgable on Japanese culture, having read numerous articles and such. Also, it's wrong to generalize cosplaying as a "celebraton of the Japanese Culture." I understand that that's a common theme used in many festivals, but the point is we hardly rave about how the country sucks and this one is better, we still converse in Filipino, and conduct things in a Filipino fashion. The culture of the Philippines is too deeply instilled even in the subculture that it's almost instinctive.

However, this is where I make my real point. I myself classify the "mania" subculture into "true mania" and "otaku", wherin the otaku are those who are extremely obsessed to the point of WANTING to be Japanese while the mania just hold a clear fascination.

As a clear point, it's not fair to generalize all cosplayers under the otaku category... Mostly because there are some of us who are actually proud of the Philippines and recognizes its sociocultural plight, some of these are very famous and world-renowned in terms of the mania subculture.

The majority of us don't go on raving aropund how we want to be japanese, live in Japan and start to write and speak in japanese (I myself display that ability but not to the point where I show it off and go "nippon, banzai!" when faced in a situation). As a conclusion, we are not looking into the Japanese culture when we cosplay. It just so happens that it is an artform we enjoy. And as for the point of being other people, we believe that by being other people, we in essence, are becoming ourselves. that ends my argument.

How did I live with myself back then?!?

2008-11-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

I was browsing through the stuff I had back in high school and came upon my journal/random things notebook (where I usually put fiction, poetry, random essays and sketches). And within the detritus of bad poetry and even worse drawings was this tiny essay that was in my old handwriting (which is big and irregular and juvenile). I found it hilarious to the point that I don't believe that I even wrote it, so I decided to post it here for the lulz.

Warning: emo post is emo.

Sometimes I wonder why so many people are indifferent to people such as I. I ask myself why they are so apathetic towards the unorthodox. Is this a product of the fear f the populace towards to challenge the norm? A personification of mankind's desire to retain the status quo? Or is it that I am simply repulsive? Is there a way to assuage the situation? Or will the cruel hand of fate drive me into a perrenial loop, forever suffering the agony of this indifference?

I can't ascertain why people are like this. Are these persons simply blind, blind and asinine enough not to awaken to the plain and simple truth walking in their midst? The human mind is built unlike a brute's. one is not ignorant unless he is mentally impotent.It seems that the only feasible reasoning fitting the apparent apathy is that the improbity of the psyche forces the minds of men to stop the natural and instinctive urge to empathize. It's simply pathetic. Pathetic and sociologically wrong! It goes beyond the ethical and moral boundaries to nmy knowledge.

But then again, it is morally incorrect to speak ill of other people. I necessarily have no right to offend others, even if those persons cause neuralgia. I believe I'm perspicacious enough to be aware of that. After all, I must also comprehend those who ridicule me for them to understand me.

Whut. This does not sound like me. AT ALL. I don't even think the damn thing makes even the slightest bit of sense. Was I holding a thesaurus at the time forcing me to write those ridiculously highfaluting words? I find this really funny, considering this is a close encounter with my emo past.

AME 8th Avenue: taking the streets of Harajuku

2008-11-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

Venue: Bahay ng Alumni, University of the Philippines Diliman Campus
Went as: Sousuke Aizen (Bleach)/Shimura Shinpachi (Gintama)
Status: not as fail as I expected. Pretty decent. :3
Pics: PICS? YOU WANT PICS? THERE WERE NO PICS! PICS ARE JUST A MYTH!

Warning: LONG POST IS LOOOONG

Seeing that I've been outside the cosplay scene ever since the summer, I decided to take the golden opportunity to attend a convention during the November holidays, given enough justification that my GWA has risen from miserable to decent.

Getting to Diliman was a nightmare. Now I know why I wasn't allowed to enter that campus. One was the immense time it would take (it took me around 15 minutes just to get a train to Quezon Avenue). Then I had to navigate a maze of walkways to find a jeep. And then I had to locate the venue, HCC, and OMAKE people. The convention barely started, and I was already exhausted. So the first thing I had to do was to locate the people I'm with. Maya said they were near the entrance but I couldn't find them. So instead I bumped into Tamaki and Honey. After a while we thought we should come out back. And at the field were Maya, Fuu, and this girl whom I'm sure I don;t know (yeah. I don't know who she was). Maya was waiting for Honey for the hairpaint so he can paint his wig...pink. Yes, he had to paint his wig pink. After Tamaki and honey went to some place to change (and seeing that Matthew hasn't arrived to give me my kimono jacket back), I decided to change superficially into Shinpachi and lay on the ~~ant infested~~ grass.

After a while we went to the front where we were joined by Chika, Joyah, Rocky, and Diego; doing small talk until it rained. Haha. Ame during AME. I LOL'ed (seriously, if you don't get this joke, I'm not sure what to do with you).We decided to take shelter at the film institute where the others were practicing Mokette! Sailor fuku and Hare Hare Yukai (what convention would be complete without those, seriously).I decided to help them out with the practice, having memorized Hare Hare Yukai and a keen knowledge of Mokette. Jerome was teaching them, too. Hahaha. I managed to get myself adopted by Matthew and Audrey (which resulted in too much LOL), while making Rocky don this extremely girly wig (He still managed to look like a man, albeit he looked like a sword-wielding drug addict). After like, three spirited imitations of Mokette and Hare Hare each, I was even more exhausted (at this point I changed to Aizen mode, since Matt-toochan gave me my jacket back).

So well, after I noted that I don't have hairpaint myself, I took some bond paper and a pentel pen, scribbled alternative kanji on it and stuck it to the back of my haori to make my Aizen look work (I didn't even have a belt because I forgot to bring it along X___x). But Maya's paper tape wasn't sticking and Jerome's double-sided tape was with Diego who mysteriously disappeared. So when Tamaki came by and all were ready (I had to scribble the hole in Grimmjow's stomach, too), we went inside. The line was unbelievably long, but for con standards, there were only quite a few people (but I'm sure AME made a killing).So when we were inside, it was time to be mania. I changed into Shinpachi. I met Pasty and Via and gave Pasty her sketchpad back, and then we all fapped the loligoth drawings XD. I met Christian who went "What are you doing here?", bumped into Bea who was too busy to acknowledge, Han-senpai who was yet to change (and I never saw her again either way), M-sama with her unglompable dress (so sad), and Frances-senpai who was not going as Yuuki (~~even more sad I can't believe it~~).

So I decided to try their AME geass-themed cafe (two Lelouch's (or was one of them a Rivalz, I can't really tell), an anya, and a pretty Milly~). It was pretty good. I liked it. Haha. But I didn;t try any of the other booths mainly because I didn't want to throw darts, get my picture taken, Date and play wire maze not to mention spend another hundred or so bucks on a prize I doubt I'll genuinely like, so I went about with Jerome (now cosplaying Byakuya and Sasuke's lovechild O_____o), and checked out the expensive figmas, the other food stalls and the DVD tycoons (I forgot what he bought but I bought a Gate Keepers DVD). This was when I got probably my only picture. Some girl asked to take my picture, and I obliged (either a, she was on a mission to photograph all the cosplayers she sees or b, she's a fan of gintama). Ahahaha. The wonders of dressing up as someone not that popular. XD

After that, I went home (and bumped into Pasty in the process of so doing), went on to the trains and straight to the hospital.

...Something tells me this is the last con for a long while.

weird dream is weird

2008-11-01T16:33:00.000+08:00

last night, I had a very weird dream. If I didn't, then this post would have a very diferent title. Haha. Anyway, I decided to share this because of the epic lulz it generated when I woke up. But you know when you dream... you think it's real. I've rarely come upon a chance where my dream is so bizarre that I went "LOL I'm dreaming." Ahaha. So here we go. I'l just enumerate the facts because it won't make sense if I narrated it.

High School was kinda like college, save from the fact that it's in uniform and there's a foundation day ceremony coming up.
I was half a high school student and a college student. And to switch I just had to take of my uniform.
It is perfectly legal to be in two learning levels at the same time.
At the school, there was a gang with three leaders: "Intellect King" (basically a guy who likes riddles very much. He looked like my classmate from Histo 2), "Earth King" (forgot about him) and "Fang King" (LOL AIR GEAR).
I had a grudge against this fang king for some reason (I AM AGITO WANIJIMA).
My "fang" was made up of a paper clip chain. (I AM FUYUKI KIMIHIRO)
My paper clip chain was uber destructive to the point that minor contact causes bruises on my enemies.
I defeated "Fang king", and was crowned 'Intellect king" (SENSE. this does not make any)
when the real intellect king arrived, I stood up from a silven bean bag and ran because I knew Earth King would beat me up.
I ran through the quad which was filled with tea lights (WTF?)
I slipped in the stairs, spilling my papers unto the floor in front of the nurse's office.
when I picked up my papers i recieved massive papercuts.
I realized I was late for Chem 35 (stupid Fang King making me late) and that I haven't attended a single chem 35 lecture because sem break just ended. (yeah I know).
I was about to take off my uniform when my bloodstained hand touched my polo then...
ZOMG MY BLOOD IS GREEN!
I was running to the college section and I keep saying "shit robi's gonna kill me" (no he won't. XD)
I kept looking for my chem 35 book but I can only find my Biochem 14 book.
I was taking up chem 18...again.
chem 18 is offered in high school. (EXCELLENCE FOREVER)
my hand hurted... a lot.

When I woke up, I was still thinking my fingers were bleeding. It was all too real. And yeah...

...any interpretation to the whutlol is appreciated.

Shingakunet game~

2008-10-25T07:26:00.000+08:00

Frankly one of the most amusing games you'll ever play, Shingakunet is a sims-like educational game which takes place in a volcanic island which can be terraformed to suit sustainable human habitation by following a sequence of engineering feats such as electricl engineering, computer engineering, civil engineering, applied chemistry, aeronautics, architecture, environmental engineering, and mechanical engineering. Each of these must be placed into the maximum level (either by humans or by aliens) in order to complete the game.

When you do max all the levels of the engineering feats by human hands, you get a utopia:

But if you let the aliens take over and conquer the island (first they turn you into an alien which will turn your family into aliens and then you'll get cloned by the aliens, which is really disturbing but amusing), you get... this:

note the crop circle on the left hand side and the brain where the computer should be.

...and of course if you neglect your environment, you'll end up cutting up the forest, making computer viruses which will destroy the city, leading to its destruction by the volcano. Like this:

(honestly, I can't think of a worse ending).

If you want to try your hand at this game, go here.
...totally recommended for Nat Sci 5 students XD

I will strangle ignorance. I am justice.

2008-10-10T16:13:00.000+08:00

reaction to the posts of Leya and Gidget.I say the alumni should do something. Allow me to justify.1.) We are GRADUATES and as graduates we carry the reputation of the school beyond its walls. As such, if the school falls, so does our reputation. Ergo, we wouldn;t have much of a pride left if "Padre Faura High School" comes into fruitition. The maroon within me is clamoring for action (and that's saying something, I usually keep him locked up).

2.) These are the future members of our society. Granted, that they may not be as *ahem*brilliant as the previous batches, they have the right to be able to fully get the education the institution can give. Otherwise, they won't have an edge when they reach college. Heck, being an alumnus didn't even grant me a huge edge back in my first year of college. A tiny one, but an edge nonetheless.

3.) The ignorant people who forced the changes do not know of their sheer ignorance and must be taught because ignorance is bad and ignorance should be stopped at all costs. I hate ignorance. In fact I use the word a lot to emphasize how much I hate it. Ignorance Ignorance Ignorance. MAGSAWA KAYO SA KAKASABI KO NG IGNORANCE NAASAR AKO, OKAY? So if the administration will not stand up for it, who else will but the alumni?

4.) as Leya and Gidget (who will be now referred to as "marchofthepigs") have pointed out, THIS IS A SPECIAL SCIENCE HIGH SCHOOL with a SPECIAL SCIENCE CURRICULUM. In short, by having the system changed by no less than the ignorant parties, there will be no science high school left to begin with. It is now a science high school by NAME and not by PRACTICE. EH PANGALAN LANG PALA ANG HABOL NIYO PARA MASABING MATALINO YUNG MGA STUDYANTE EH. If you really want your children to be acknowledged as intelligent and capable, prove it. I myself want mascians to be intelligent and capable THROUGH HELL AND HIGH WATER. I'm loyal to my alma mater, I'll be sincere wherever I will go and fight for her like fighting for my country as a true Filipino. As such, I want mascians trained in the ways of hell, mainly because KAWAWA SILA PAGDATING NILA NG UP. Yun lang masasabi ko.

this merits a new tag: rage.

Manila Science High School Alumni: and pround of it!

2008-10-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

This week marks the 45th anniversary of the signing of the law that created the first Science High School in the country. I found it fitting to post something about my alma mater in this time.

Before I get bashed for any excess hot air this post contains, I'd first like to point out this: before today, I have lost all trust in my alma mater. Students have been coming in late with disturbing frequency. They don't seem to be responding to their teachers, and have seemed to lack the ability to rise above the other High School. Truth be told, some alumni including myself have resigned to sighing and concluding that our worst fears have been confirmed: the school has sunk into a "Padre Faura High School" of sorts. Although this may seem to be a conclusion based solely on uninformed circumstances as one who has exited forevermore the four walls of the school, I found it the only logical way to describe the situation.

And then, hitsuzen intervened.

Earlier today, as I was waiting for a not-so-crowded train home, I went across a familiar figure. A tall man, clad in a usual blue polo, porting a stern look and a familiar buzz cut: Mr. Zaccharias Bangayan. I found it odd to see him exiting the train at the station, which led me to conclude that he was arriving from a contest. Then, I saw mascians with trophies and medals, which was not uncommon in my days. Then, I got the picture from the TLE department head: they won the title overall champions in this year's STEP skills competition. Although it would seem to be a small deal, it restored what little pride I had. Having participated in the STEP skills competitions myself (and mind you, failing miserably in the process), I was reminded of the intense preparation and stringent measures required by the school to ensure victory in my day (what some alumni call the "golden age", without much justification to do so).

And so, I wondered... have I been generalizing based solely on what I see as an outsider? I have forgotten how it is to be a mascian, not with all the demands the university places upon me, and the fact that my reputation as a mascian is at odds with the current way I'm handling my subjects. I concluded that right now, I shouldn't be comparing what went on in the years I was a mascian to what I see as an alumni. Things change, adapt, and evolve. I guess my traditionalism was the crux: a blindfold from allowing me to see into the glimmer of excellence that still exists, just a walking distance away from rizal hall. So even though I still admit that some of the changes have shocked me, leading me to believe that MSHS was on the brink of downfall. But I have hopes. One day... We will reclaim glory. And I want to be want of those who will help the process along.

To all mascians and alumni that witness these words, I bid you a happy 45th anniversary of our founding. And even though I have left, a part of my soul still lives on in the corridors of the main building (unfortunately the ghosts have evicted my soul out of bordner and I never took a liking to the maceda building). And even if I was a child of a mascian, and an adolescent of a university student now, I guess it would be worthwhile to relive 4 years of being bathed in excellence, with bitter hardship in generous doses. I have confidence that Manila Science High School will rise from the ashes and be reborn in all its former glory, like the proverbial pheonix on myth...

...Man, that was an exhaustively long post.

Qualitative Analysis: Identification of Unknown (Part II)

2008-09-26T17:37:00.000+08:00

Yes, after a few months, part 2...
Quali, Chem 31 version! *cue apocalyptic music*

Earlier this evening, I recieved vial number 10, a vial no one else has chosen, since everyone else got their unknowns a week before (stupid, stupid dengue). Anyway... It contained a white, odorless fine powder. And just like Liquid vial 19 and solid vial 19, solid vial 10 was an unknown compound: one I have to identify (otherwise I screw up... again). This time, I have an advantage: I know the compound has carbon! *song of storm and fire* _{ORLY Bernard, let's go with that over thar.}

So yeah. I set about doing the dreaded SODIUM FUSION TESTS, which, as any organic chemist with minimal funds not to afford a spectrometer would know, will allow you to test whether you have sulphur, phosphorus, oxygen, nitrogen or halogen in your compound. *gasp* UNLIMITED POWER WITHIN YOUR GRASP! Oh, and you get to put sodium and watr and break a test tube: two things any juvenilic biochem major would enjoy: or not. The results, after an hour or so of having to endlessly wash pipettes in hard water (and staining my hands with a chemical odor), yielded positive to bromine. OMG I HAS BROMINE!

Then, I went ahead with the solubility tests. It was insoluble to water, so I moved to NaOH, which dissolved it (kinda), and then went ahead with NaHCO₃. It was insoluble. _{WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED?} With a little help from CAS lib (and with the lady guard telling me off because OMG LABGOWNS ARE NOT ALLOWED AT CAS LIB!), Ate Fatima and The local kitten of DPSM (no joke here), I learned that my unknown was weakly acidic, which meant it was either a phenol or an enol (I have ruled out others since they were all nitrogen-containing and some of them even had sulfur on them, which I know are not in my sample). So... An Aromatic alcohol and an unsaturated alcohol...

Here comes the crux of my widdle quali... I tested it for aromaticity with Le Rosen test. Le Rosen says NOWAIZ YOU DON'T HAS PHENYL. So phenol is out of the question. Then, I went with test for unsaturation. Bromine in CH₂Cl₂ says that I don't have any multiple bonds. But Potassium Dichromate test says I have an alcohol. So that means... I have an alcohol halide.

Alcohol halides were not even part of the solubility test. Plus, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A SOLID ALCOHOL?!? HELLZYEAH. Truth be told, I'm utterly confused.

Wahaha~

Total Reset

2008-09-20T13:01:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the hospital from yet another bout with dengue.The good news is, I'm probably immune to all four strains now. But that's not the point. The point is, I need to settle a week's worth of absence from the University, and basically reset my last week until I've caught up with the rest of the world.

Amazing how just one week throws a wrench at your life. The moment I went online, I was confronted with 42 messages in my main email adress (I have yet to check the other one, since my flist is flooded and I can't check the other messages I have). My deviantart was swamped by 20 deviations (most of which I didn't comment on, sorry) and 20 messages (and to my surprise, I was faved twice).

I finally recieved my flashfic assignment. I do hope I'll be able to pull it off. *Sigh* So much for first fic get. The internet's a bit slow and I'd like to finish my total reset before leaving for church later this evening. My code geass download (which is scheduled weekly Monday evening -- yes, that's how big a fanboy I am) is currently at 58.4%; I feel lucky to get a healthy torrent off eclipse.

A few resoilutions: I resolve not to go to 4chan in a while. It takes too much off my time looking at underground imageboards which I'm sure are filled with 99% pr0n which I could end up saving, and so on and so forth.

I'd end this asinine discussion for want of better things to do.

Various rants

2008-09-09T06:14:00.000+08:00

Currently at CAS cybernook... I'm blogging mainly because I forget to, mainly because I shouldn't, and mainly because I would otherwise do something else. This is crap. Pure crap.

...I should be finishing my biology paper right now. Why should a task assigned to three people be forced into my hands? I've completed a good 60% of the piece, and my two groupmates haven't contributed yet. Jesteen says he couldbn't find sources. Yani doesn't feel well. The world... Doesn't want to cooperate.

...I should be starting my chemistry paper next. I should be in the library, looking at the old chemistry books and smelling the tang of their old pages. But I'm stuck here... Seeing if Yani could somehow be able to pull off a miracle and finish the remaining three parts of the dreaded bio paper. I hate it when things go like this.

...Yesterday I saw a couple kissing in the LRT. If you know me already, you should know that I'll repeat that in glorious bold underline: kissing in the LRT. And I thought the "NO PDA" near the AS steps were ridiculous. Not that I don't approve of it or anything... But couldn't they be a little more subtle, perhaps? I've seen people doing that in School Days. The anime. AN anime. People rarely have the guts to do that in real life. These people do.

...Maray is waiting for me to finish. This is brilliant, just brilliant. Just recieved a text from Yani that she's on her way. I need to get started on my chemistry paper, although I know it'll take me only a good half hour. But still, I want the thing over with.

...Recently I recieved a text from the collegian. They said I was accepted as a probationary member. Wait...What? Probationary member? I thought they hated my work. I thought my ignorance was the crux. I thought I couldn't write (and so the dryness of my blogs nowadays).

...Last night I had a dream. I kissed a pretty girl in her house. Must be the effect of that LRT couple. But man, this would be the second time in a year I've dreamt of kissing someone. rap, the world is telling me that I need a girlfriend.

...I'm emo. So what.

BiochEM07. LOL

Okay... wait... What?

2008-09-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

I ganked this from someone down the multiply grapevine.
WHO IS YOUR INNER CLAMP CHARACTER

I thought to myself... This should be interesting (seeing as I am pretty much a big fan of CLAMP and all). After 66 agonizing questions, I clicked the "next" button and said to myself "I am so not going to like this..."...I LOL'ed.

Who is your inner CLAMP character?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Chii

According to results, you are most like Chii from Chobits. Innocent, adorable and fresh, you love learning new things and exploring the world, even though it might get you in to trouble from time to time. You are happy in your own little world, and you feel best when you are able to show those around you how much you care. Just remember to "recharge" yourself from time to time and you'll be just fine.

Chii

96%

Watanuki

92%

Miyuki-chan

83%

Hokuto

83%

Seishirou

83%

Kamui

79%

Kurogane

79%

Fai

71%

Yuuko

63%

Sakura

58%

Kero-chan

54%

My initial reaction was "WTF CHII?", but then I realized that Watanuki wasn't far behind... WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN HIM??? (I blame the "I want to find someone for me and only for me" question) Great. Just great. Kamui wouldv'e been great too, but it looks like I have a bigger Seishiro score than him. Wait... does that mean I'm a bloodthirsty sakurazuka? ~~And yaoi bait for Subaru, who happens to be paired up with him in 2/3 CLAMP universes.~~The point is, I don't disagree with the result whatsoever, but I have this chobits stereotype at the back of my head. I don't dislike the series, but wit... okay. I'm chii. I have persocom ears, cosplay, and go "chii" sometimes (hey! two out of three ain't bad). But quite frankly, I could've been Watanuki (who everyone knows is my favorite character XD), but instead I got the original owner of those ears you see in xxxHOLiC volume 3.Now excuse me as I go seduce my master with my moe-ness.

My Life according to google [taken from Malic]

2008-08-17T16:55:00.000+08:00

I have no drive to write and pine for the moment, so here goes a random meme, taken from Roland Andre Malic...

My life according to Google:

Type in the following and choose the choice (that makes sense) that
appears on the list.

1) Type in "(your name) needs" in Google search:
Bernard needs to pee-whatthefuck.

2) Type in "(your name) looks like" in Google search:
Bernard looks like he needs some asian hooker pee in his mouth. Amen. -WHYYYY.

3) Type in "(your name) loves" in Google search:
Bernard loves music, movies, reading and enjoys traveling.-50% ain't bad...

4 ) Type in "(your name) says" in Google search:
Bernard says being an artista is more than just walking around, smiling, and looking pretty. - I LOL'ed.

5) Type in "(your name) does" in Google search:
Bernard does not license or sell your personal information to third parties - of course I don't!

6) Type in "(your name) hates" Google search
BERNARD hates the world and never leaves his bedroom... -no comment.

7) Type in "(your name) goes"
BERNARD GOES TO SCHOOL-and that school's name is U.P.

8) Type in"(your name) is" in Google search:
Bernard is Unwell -ahuh.

9) Type in"(your name) wishes" in Google search:
Bernard wishes to thank everyone who voted for him in THE SOFTIE AWARDS!. -O_o

10) Type in"(your name) wants" in Google search:
BERNARD WANTS A BABY - hellzyeah.

...This just goes to show that the internet is a messed-up place.

Allow me to spazz...

2008-08-14T17:57:00.000+08:00

I just finished writing an exhastively long schematic diagram for chemistry lab. Ugh, qualitative analysis. Just like in chem 18, I'd have to identify yet another unknown compound (this time I'm pretty sure it has carbon. LOL). Not that I mind it, it's quite exciting and fun. However, Chem lab is very, shall we say, hypertension-inducing. I always find myself exasperated at every single moment during the course of the analysis, mainly bvecause of the fatigue, the sheer lack of mental faculties remaining after spending hours at the lab, the competition for chemical reagents ,the centrifuge and the pH meters, and the dissapointment of having yet another negative on your unknown. I live in the hope that this would be the last time I'd have to do qualitative analysis (NOTE: Hope). Chemists rarely do it in real life, mainly because they hve spectrometers and all that shiz (yeah, as if UP has a spectrometer).

In other news, I have two exams this weekend: Both of which are chemistry. Oh joy, I have yet to read Ma'am's immaculate notes eight times as directed. I do hope that I'd pass these exams (both of these written by Sir Robi. and we all know how sadistic Sir Robi can be).

The collegian contacted me a few days back. It seems my "test" for them is tomorrow. Intriguing...

どんな運命が待っているんだろう。。。
Donna unmei ga matte irun darou...
I wonder what fate awaits me

Some things I noticed...

2008-08-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

I was going through my code geass collection earlier when I noticed that I failed to point out how sunrise managed to neglect something apparent in world history:

The red areas are the ones under the territory of the Chinese Federation, one of the three superpowers in the code geass universe (the other two being the Euro Universe and the Holy Empire of Britannia). Having said that, it would seem that the Philippines is part of the Chinese Federation (it was also revealed in season 1 that we had a Britannian military base). Now, those dots represent areas of Chinese Federation which are revolting due to the corruption of the Eunuch Generals at the Forbidden City. Manila, does not have a dot. We are not revolting.

WHY SUNRISE, WHY???

It would seem that the fact that we are a race of freedom fighters have been neglected. Why are we part of the chinese federation? (Though I would understand that we are not a superpower to be able to create knightmare frames and all that shiz, although that would be so cool). Also, We are not revolting for our freedom. Now I would like to attribute this to the fact that the revolts were inspired when Zero leaked out his conversation with the Eunuch Generals where their evil was exposed thoroughly in a way only Sunrise can come up with (CLAMP does it close). If I were a Filipino in that situation, I'd be "The hell I care. It's in the forbidden city" etc. etc. But still, as a student if UP, I'm quite disappointed.

Moving on, earlier yesterday, OMAKE had yet again another GA. They said that Friday GA's would be common from now on [As of now I'm going to be relaying my absence in advance for next week. I have a chemistry exam on the time. sorry]. Then I mentioned that most of the people there liked X/1999 because the *ahem* canon was yaoi. They quickly pointed out that it wasn't the case, and even cited that their favorite pairings there were het (For a series with 14 main characters, I can only think of three or four het pairings). Then I said I liked Kotori. Then, ARMAGEDDON: ten seconds of kotori bashing.

WHY CLAMP, WHY???

On the right of the image is Monou Kotori, possibly the most hated girl in the fandom (The one on the left is Shirou Kamui, who is supposedly the other half of the "canon" pairing. I have another image but it's Not Safe For Work). Now, I came to think. Why do people (especially girls, the demographic doesn't stretch to the other half of the species, I think) hate Kotori so much? I mean, she hasn't done anything remotely evil (compared to some people out there *cough*fuuma*cough*), and the least bit she did wrong was to flirt with Kamui here and there (heck, I don't even remember the flirting). She is killed in the most gruesome ways imaginable (both in the manga and in the movie), and the least bit I can think of her is that she is a bit annoying (okay, I don't remember her being annoying, at all).So why the hatred? Is it because she stands in the way of the love *barf* between Kamui and Fuuma? Or Subaru? Or Fuuma? Or Fuuma? The point is, there is much misdirected hatred towards her, and I think that's hardly fair.
_{meh, this is my blog, my opinion.}Moving on... another thing was the fact that bento fridays were introduced. Am I coming out too strong by saying I want to participate? (I would like to commend Ate M's cooking. XD). Anyway, that would be a problem for me. Meetings end at 1, I have orgchem, I can;t ask my mother to cook so I would have to cook the damned lunch by myself Thursday nights lest I wake up earlier than my parents (who wake up insanely early). Having said that, I'd have a hard time (because it may turn out that I'd have to buy my own ingredients as to not put much strain on the homeostasis of the household). *sigh* me and my idiosyncrasies.

The day my writing died., among other things.

2008-07-30T16:51:00.000+08:00

And so it seems that my supposed prodigious skill in writing has declined over what has been two years of writing naught but technical papers for Comm, Chem, and lately, Humanistic Studies. I miss my journalism days, where I was brequired to write again and again and again to please my picky editors (which, aside for some required articles such as my column, they rejected again and again and again). I don't even know why people say I'm good at writing in english. I find my writing mediocre, even remedial, especially when compared to *ahem* TRUE geniuses like Allan, Gidget, and Angelita (who, for want of a link I have been in vain).LOL, inferiority complex, much?
This has been what was going through my head when I woke up from bed after a rather long siesta from my apparent exhaustion from the past days at the University. I was going to find my old copy of the Nucleus (the dear alma mater has failed to furnish me with one when I checked due to some err... things) but was as usual, too lazy to look for it. I wondered that if I couldn't find it, I couldn't send my particulars to the collegian, and therefore, fail to enter the publication. Why I want to, I'm not really sure. I just want to write again, I'm afraid.

But yeah, I found it in my underwear drawer. *facepalm* When in doubt, answer "storage".

So Physics and Biology exams are next week. Since I'm most brilliant in the restroom, a little song came up my mind while answering the call of nature.

Exam nanaman
O kay tulin ng araw
Exam nagdaan di alam kung kailan lang
Ngayon ay exam tayo'y magsiaralan
Ngayon ay exam lahat tayo ay mag-ca-cram!
Exam, exam, exam nanaman muli
Tanging araw nating HINDI MINIMITHI.
exam, exam, exam nanamang muli,
At sina ~~Gumbee~~ maghahari!

Why yes, I am on crack. How did you know?

This I got from Pasty. WHY AM I SO CONSISTENT?!?
Is an AT. Whut.

UP survey (taken from Jorge)

2008-07-24T17:13:00.000+08:00

1. Ano ang student number mo? Gusto mo ba ito?
2007-00697. Ayos lang. At least madaling maalala. Angas nga eh. Nakalagay sa vandal.

2007-00697
BJ Sucks.

2. Magbigay ka ng tatlong course sa UP Diliman na hindi mo talaga alam kung ano ang pinag-aaralan nila. Pwedeng magbigay ng rason kung bakit.

BS Computational Science
BS Clothing Technology
BA Linguistics.

Bakit? Kasi di ako taga-diliman (Linguistics pa naman yung first choice ko. wahahaha)

3. Meron ka bang araw na wala kang break? Anung technique ang ginagawa mo para makakain ka?
-Monday and thursday. Sunod-sunod na Physics 71, Chem 18, at Chem 31. Di ako nakakakain. bumabawi nalang pagkatapos. (By that time 1% na lang ang takbo ng pag-iisip ko at malaki ang posibilidad na matapon ko ang carbonarang hawak ko)

4. Alam mo ba kung saan ang Teletubby Land? [Yung totoo, bawal bumase sa pinagkuhanan ng survey na ito]
> Hinde. Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?

5. Nakakita ka na ba ng nagpi-PDA? Sa AS? As in sa AS Entrance? In Broad Daylight? In front of many people? Ikaw ba yung gumagawa nun?
- di uso PDA samen. pero may nakita na akong naghahalikan. Hindi sa RH (wala kaming "AS", "RH" lang) pero sa old NEDA building, sa may student council office... mga alas sais na ng gabi yun.

6. Naranasan mo na bang dumaan sa Beta Way? Kahit madilim na?
- Beta Way hinde. Eskinita sa PGH oo. May mumu! XD

7. Alam mo ba na may 4th Floor ang FC?
- Ano ung FC?

8. Within the UP Campus, ano na ang pinakamalayo mong nalakad?
- Mula RH hanggang SSWC pabalik ng RH tapos punta sa old NEDA building. 1.5 kilometers yun. Pano ko nalaman? Binilang ko hakbang ko.

9. Meal?
- Carbonara+Sopas+Earth&Sky c/o Makel's.

10. Sa tingin mo, bakit concealed ang profs sa Math?
- ewan ko. nagtatago ata sila baka kuyugin ng mga studyante.

11. Nakakuha ka na ba ng Math prof na out-of-this-world?
- Masasabi bang out-of-this-world si Sir Mong? (Out-of-this-world sa vanity, at sa unique style ng pag-interrogate habang nag-eexercise sa Math 73). Tapos Out-of0this world ang bait ni Sir Villaflor. Out-of-this-world din si Ma'am Rubio... ewan ko lang kung bakit.

12. Natatakot ka ba sa tumutunog na kuryente sa tabi ng EEE building?
- ha?

13. Ilang individual libraries na ang napuntahan mo within Up Diliman? Isa-isahin.
- wala. Di ako taga-Diliman eh.

14. Nakanood ka na ba ng Oblation Run? At namukhaan na isa doon ay kaklase mo?
- Hinawakan nga ako nung isang runner eh. ayun. nasapak ko tuloy.

15. Nakakita ka na ba ng Atenean na nakatambay sa UP Campus? At naki-sit in sa klase niyo?
- Ewan. Mahirap kilatasin kung sino ung taga-Arneo eh.

16. Nakakita ka na ba ng artista na nag-aaral sa UP? Saan?
- AKO!.

17. Sa tingin mo, ano ang pinakamahirap na subject sa UP?
- PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY. San ka nakakita ng exam na 4 questions, 20 points each, open notes, open books, tapos 6 na horas bago mo matapos?

18. Alam mo ba na tumutunog ang Carillon?
- Wala kaming Carillon eh. "Suckiest Branch" daw kami eh.

19. Nakapasok ka na ba sa College of Music? Kwento mo naman.
- Hindi pa. College of Medicine, oo.

20. Nagpapic ka na kay Oble? Kung oo, confident ka ba na gagraduate ka?
- I take the pictures of the naked guy.

21. May College Shirt ka ba? Anu design?
- Wala eh. Ayaw ko kasi dun sa design ng "Batang CAS" eh.

22. Naranasan mo na bang mag 1vs100 sa CRS?
- walang ganyan sa CRS namin.

23. Naglalaro ka ba ng Guess the Course/Spot that Freshie kapag wala kang magawa habang tumatambay sa AS? Isinasabay mo ba ang Girl/Boy Hunting sa larong ito?
- hinde. Para sa akin, perpetual freshie ako. ewan ko kung bakit.

24. Nangungulekta ka ba ng Kule? Ano ang favorite section mo dito?
- Hinde kasi lagi akong nauubusan. Pero favorite ko ung kay Lola Patola.

25. Sino ang pinakastriktong guard sa UP na nakilala mo? Yung hindi mo talaga matakasan na wala kang ID?
- ung sa RH... ata.

26. Nakukulangan ka pa ba sa ruta ng Ikot at Toki Jeep? Anung gusto mong ibahin sa ruta nito?
- Walang ganyan samin eh. Lakaran lang at PGH adventure ang means of transportation.

27. Natatakot ka ba sa mga tingin ng mga nangangampanya tuwing Elections? Bakit?
- Hinde. Kasi hobby ko ang gilingin ang mga pulitikong iyon

28. May bura ka na ba sa Form 5 mo? Anu yon?
- computerized form 5 namin eh. Pero nagkakamali ako ng lagay ng "Student's Signature" at nalalagay ko sa "Other Scholarships"

29. Nagkaprof ka na ba na laging wala sa klase tapos tinadtad kayo ng make-up classes sa end ng sem? Sino?
- Si Prof._____________.

30. Alam mo ba kung saan ginagawa ang Blue Book? Gusto mo bang magventure sa business na ito?
- wala akong paki-alam kung saan yun ginagawa as long as mataas ang score na malalagay dun. Besides, bat ako makikipag-kumptensya sa NUTRILICIOUS?!?

yesterday happenings

2008-07-08T08:00:00.000+08:00

Okay... so right now I'm at CAS cybernook waiting for Bio lab to happen... So I figured since I forgot to blog how epic yesterday was last night (due to the epicness of it all), I decided why not do it right now? *is addicted to internetz*

Yesterday, and all this week for that matter, Mr. Baclig would not be teache\ing Physics , so I went to school at around , instead of the usual 7, carrying with me a heavier-than-usual bag full of my MTh stuff and my Eriol outfit and my shihakusho. The reason for this was DM was going to borrow them, and our org would be shooting its Handog film in the afternoon so I figured I'd bring a costume or two along in case I could participate.

So my first class for the day was Chem 18 with Prof. Robidillo. I sat next to Timmons, an old high school classmate, and I decided to teach him Nuclear Kinetics, Absorbed dose, etc. Then, since I was in a very WTF mood at that time, I decided to pull my glasses down the bridge of my nose and mirror whatever Robi was doing. Sir didn't find my antics amusing as I did, and so he silenced me by saying that if I imitate him further, He would have me teach Chem 18. Although, he didn't SEEM that mad with me. ahaha.

Then came Chem 31 in the exact same room. There wasn't very much to talk about there, since it was all about isomerisms. I understood the lesson, Ayn was sleepy although I fell asleep and she didn't. Then May and I did the same battling-for-recitation-points again, with nothing really happening to our standing... Haha. I will emerge victorious!

After that, I dashed to RH for the filming. Although it didn't go as planned and we had to start at around 2:30, the same time my Biology 10 class was about to begin. And so I went to Biology 10 promising to help out after class.

Biology was all about cvell respiration and photosyntghesis. It kinda reminded me of high school and mam carte screaming her white hair off, to tell you the truth, but I understood far more from this discussion than back in those days. Haha. Ma'am DLR topld us she could teach photosyntehsis with her eyes closed. She didn't of course, with all the diagrams she had to draw... But then again, we were treated like Kinder students since she went "Ms. NADP had a date with Mr. Hydrogen, making them NADPH"... I mean... WHUT?!?

After Biology, I went back with OMAKE and had our costumes fitted. I went as Eriol, Ate Han went as Enma Ai (so cute~ :3), Ate M went as Misa-misa, Ate Noelle went as "Random Nyao-chan", Ate Frances went as "Random Day Class Student" (partly because she doesn't want to admit she's Yuuki), Ate Aya went as that flower girl from FF7 (forgot the name) Michael went as Sakura cosplaying someone from Lillian High School (XDXD). Haha. People passing by were saying "Wow, may cosplay". Haha. It was like a con.

(Right now I'm at home. I didn't get to finish the blog entry before Cybernook closed for lunchbreak)

After that, I went home by means of LRT. The LRT got stuck at Pedro Gil Station because of some code yellow. and so I had to take the bus home, which coupled with my cosplaying and chemistry, doubled my fatigue.

When I went home, I went to work on our Biology lab report. I didn't have to add a lot. I just needed to improve on Gumbee's and Yani's work and insert some random things from Jesteen and Christian. So while doing it, I downloaded the latest episode of Code Geass: Lelouch of the Revolution R2. It was so epic, and the new opening theme by FLOW rocks!

My reaction:

The Opening moved me to tears. There was Lulu floating... and then he takes off his contact lens... haha... It made me so gay for lelouch. Then there was the ransom Lulu-CC-Suzaku-Nunally-Schneizel flashing, then "Code Geass" flashing in a very, very nice manner.

The floating Kallen, Gino and Anya was beautiful, although Nina kinda ruined the moment. Then the sword of Akasha thing with the Knightmare taking off started making my eyes misty and all... haha.

...Nunally with that crane is pretty WTF.

...Everything is heart. <3 (at least that's the eclipse transliteration)

...looks like Lancelot's gonna have an upgrade with things from Guren. haha. Lloyd must be pleased with himself.

...The random black knights... flying was so epic. Although they were moving too fast to notice. Then Kaguya in all her cuteness flies by. Then come the chinese federation folks all winking at us, then Cornelia looking at Guilford (I smell pairing), and then Cecille and Lloyd, smiling! *dies*

...Then next comes Milly, and Rivalz and Nunally's guardian (forgot the name). And then there was Orange-kun looking at Viletta, and Viletta looking disgusted, by the way. Kanon and Nina (What, no Schneizel?!?), and finally, Loli Anya flight. Rolo drops in, and then Sayoko gets squished by Cheese-kun and that other plush Kallen was wearing and turns into a super ninja maid. lol. Arthur zooms by for half a second and Gino flips his cape... and then, CC smiles from a building. :)

...the ending theme was also great. the song was by Ali project, if I'm not mistaken (I just judged from the style) and the illustrations were done by CLAMP.

lolwhut... :D

2008-06-30T17:34:00.000+08:00

Well, this happens to be one of the silliest days I've had recently, all thanks to ~~my favorite subject in the whole wide world,~~ chemistry. Well, that and a few other random things that made me so sure that the world just wanted me to LOL.

First up was Physics 71. We started our lessons on kinematics after finishing vectors, but not before Mr. Baclig returned our bluebooks. I got a perfect score. Yeah. But in the instructor blank in the front of the bluebook, Sir encircled his name and added a "?!?". Upon closer inspection, I mispelled his name to "Badig", the c and l glued by my nasty handwriting.
Then came Chem 18. I had some trouble looking for a seat (even if it was in the same room as Physics 71 LOL) and settled for the back, hoping that I can hear Mr. Robidillo's voice from there. I sat real close to master Blessie and still managed to hear the lecture. Then, I saw the vandal on the chair that changed my life...

2007-00697
BJ SUCKS

If you must know, 2007-00697 is my student number, and "BJ" is my nickname, though I hate using it.

Wow. people must hate me that much.

Chem 18 went on as usual, then came Chem 31. Ma'am delos Reyes is so full of whut and crack. She was explaining how ethane had stereoisomerisms in a very WTF way, like we were elementary students studying porganic chemistry. She was like, "this is a carbon atom, and it is sp3-bonded to another carbon atom, and it revolves like this *shikshikshikshik*". LOL. I wrote down some nomenclature on the board while May weas writing down structures. May said it was unfair that I had at least 6 recitations under my name and on her part, only 4. Then, she found a minor mistake on my nomenclature. Thankfully, she wasn't THAT evil to report it, and it went unnoticed. :D

Right before Bio 10, the whole area was covered in a blackout. And so, all the classrooms were plunged into ~~semi-eternal~~ darkness, dorcing classes to be suspended left and right. Gumbee suggested we study by flashlight, seeing as he brought a flashlight to school (LOL Gumbee. You're a super atenean boyscout). But we were left with an advanced assignment.

After our dismissal from Bio 10, I went to RH lobby to hang out. There I met Ate Jeun, talking to some OMAKE peeps, probably with FBC or SA business. Then, she asked me to braid her hair (WTFLOL) . And I did. Haha. It wasn't perfect, but she still wore it a full 30-something minutes after.

Then came Chem 18 make-up class. Which is probably the most whutlol class I had. Mr. Robidillo told us that the previous prof said we were noisy. Then the Biology people gave the most epic excuse EVER: "we were trying to organize our seating arrangements". ROFLMAO. true, Mr. Robidillo DID ask us to sit block1-block2-nonblock. Sir Robi rode with it. I sat next to master Blessie, who ws all giddy because Karl gave her a ~~date~~ ~~engagement ring~~ lesson. Then, we discussed reaction mechanisms, which was real nice and all. I kinda fell asleep for around 5 minutes because I already went through it. When I woke up, we were told to propose a really tough mechanism. Nobody seemed to get a cear answer from it, until Sir Robi hinted Occam's Razor. Then, epic inspiration struck. And I solved the problem. Oh yeah. I got a "Very Good" from Sir, which, I think is rare.

...then, epic win.

In our silence discussing Steady-State approximation, someone from the front in a seriously apocalyptic voice "OH MY GOD". Then, she looked like she was crying. My first impression at the spur of the moment was that Sir Robi collapsed. But he was still standing there ~~in all his bishounen goodness~~. Then, I thought a member of her famiuly died or something... but the truth was the most epic of all...
...She saw a cockroach. Sir Robi killed it and told everyone that was an example of "unsteady-state approximation". LOL.

After the lesson, Mr. Robidillo asked me if I was following the lesson well, and asked me if I still wanted to continue with my course. I told him yes, and he told me that I should work harder to avoid my mistakes...

...When I was walking to the LRT, I bumped into my old economics teacher (I forgot her name, sorry). Then, I remembered her cracktastic words back in highschool. "The more picha, the lesh robots."

While walking home from the station, I happened to chance upon this Korean schoolgirl. She had curly hair, and a seifuku-ish attire. I found her cute, walking my way, and I watched her from the distance as she approached her korean friends, who started speaking loudly in korean as I passed them.

...WHUTLOL.

An Odd sort of Will.

2008-05-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

Earlier today I started questioning my existence, trying to figure out who I really am, and how this good-for-nothing person who has not contributed much to the world possibly have given existence. As I have written in kuroi Tsubasa, "A life without purpose is no life at all". So what is my purpose? Why does God want me alive?

So earlier, I imagined a scenario where I met God, and then I gave up my soul to Him, died in my sleep, but my spirit was to be distrubuted like my wealth to certain "heirs". So then, I drafted a will of this "wealth" of mine.

My health I give to my parents, so they will no longer suffer.
My patience I give to my sister, so she may be able to weather more storms.
My resolve I give to Christian, so he may never give up.
My knowledge I give to Patricia, so she may hang in there.
My hope I give to Iris, may she find her way with it.
My faith I give to Fame, so she may trust those who trust her.
My talent I hand to Blessie, may she use it wisely.
My kindness I give to Laurence, so he may make more people smile.
My courage I give to DM, may he be strong.
My happiness I give to Nina, may she shine with it.
My purity I give to Deniss, why I gave you this, I do not know.
My sincerity I give to Krissel, may she find strength with it.
My love I give to Nikki, may she find comfort.
MY mind and thoughts I give to everyone who has made me smile. May their kindness be repayed.

... Now in a less emo mood than before XD

adventures in USTland.

2008-05-22T16:31:00.000+08:00

I officially fail at making blog titles.
I tripped and fell ten steps of stairs this morning, resulting in the immobility of myn right arm for the better pat of the day. Still, I decided to push through and go to UST anyway to get the skit practice over with.

I didn't have the slightest clue on how to go to UST, anyway. Krissel told me to get a jeep at UN going to Espana and I couldn't miss it. But being me with my I-don't-know-where-the-hell-I'm-going attitude to commuting, I panicked every time the jeep steered into unfamiliar territory. Having said that, it was a miracle I made it to UST in one piece, after half a dozen times asking for directions.

I was told that Michael was already there. Then I met him, then came Byakuya, Aizen and Kyouraku, followed by Tamaki and Renge, and then by LIfe, Rue, Hinamori, Yoruichi, and the otehrs. Not necessarily in that order, but you get the gist.~~crap you Filipino Time. They were supposed to be there at 10. I came at 10:30. The last of them came at 12.~~We then went to the Quadcentennial (sp?) square. Wow. it was cool. I wish UP had one like that. Oh well, I'm content with the oblation garden, but that's a different point. And we spent bthe time waiting for Tamaki to fotox the scripts, which were, unsurprisingly full of crack. Wahaha.

So we decided to eat first. They had some sort of mini mall near their hospital. A row of restaurants. Come on! alskdjfhalskdjfh. Inferiority complex kicked in. :< *so sad*

After that, we decided to start the practice. However, there weren't any live outlets so they went to the grandstand. Wahaha. Stage XD. I couldn't dance because of my arm, so I slept through that bit. However, I needed to dubb Ukitake ~~and all his coughing tuberculosis goodness~~ for the skit. Haha, it was fun. Seiyuu ness. Michael kept putting a hell of a lot of creative input, but due to his lack of knowledge of the series, his voices were somewhat off. Yeah, the dubbing, then the stage practice were then ensued. Haha, it was pure crack and win.

Then I went home with Byakuya, Kyouraku and Aizen. They went down at taft and I decided to show them to Rob, since they needed a meterstick. Oh well, pride to my Alma Mater was restored when I showed them Oble. Haha. ILU, Oble. Once at national, I decided to go ahead and ~~ditch them~~ say goodbye since my mother was already looking for me. So LRT, Jeep, Walk, home.Ugh. Bioled pork for supper. But Caek~This is where I epicly fail at ending a blog entry.

happenings yesterday...

2008-05-20T16:21:00.000+08:00

Okay, since nothing really happened today, I'll tell my dear readers (or lack thereof) what happened yesterday. wahoo! XD XD

Okay, so first was the dreaded Chem 18 finals. To tell you the truth, it was passable. It's easy, and I managed to solve all but one of the problem-solving...problems.~~Damn you Nernst Equation, I hope you burn in hell for being so difficult to memorize.~~ However, due to the fact that I have a ridiculously high cutoff grade to pass the subject, It's highly likely that I will take the removals.
After this my mother and my sister tried talking me into reevaluating my career option, seeing that being a chem major, in their opinion, is not right for me. However, I am determined to prove them wrong, and finish what I have started. I will stand in heaven, and become the god of the new world,~~and destroy the Emipre of Britannia~~

After that, I met up with Pat-chan at the oble garden to return her labkit, and I bumped into Francine, the OT block head. She got excempted from her chem 14 exam and went all the way to tutor and cheer for her classmates. Well, righteously so, since she just repeated the subject. Anyway, everyone left, and we and francine went Saiyuuki music tripping. Wahahaha... Saiyuuki songs are so nostalgic. Shiro no Jumon and For Real got stuck in my head. Oh well, *downloads*.

We decided to go to Rob. On the way out, We bumped into Mila, who also just finished her chem finals, and she wanted to come with us, but not before an insanely long bathroom break.After that we headed to Rob. Mila and Francine smoked while I watched them. For some reason I like watching pretty girls burn their lungs. Haha. So when we went inside, Francine dragged us to Comic Alley, where She and I were oggling over the stuff while Mila looked at the trivialities. Then we went to, of all places, the hardware store. Mila started looking for weird odds and ends to turn into accessories, and she fawned at the cute door handles.

Then, Mila dragged us to do some karaoke. When we got there, they decided to do three songs, one for each of us. Mila sang "Call Center". I forgot what Francine sang. Haha. Then, they forced me to sing, so I had no choice. I decided on either Vincent or You're Beautiful, so I had a coin toss with myself. You're Beautiful won, so that's what I sang. Francine Commented that it was a stalker's song and I was so very emo. Haha... We ended up singing, a lot.

I went back to CAS to submit my HS20 project. I saw Ma'am Miciano in her desk and she smiled at me, sporting anew haircut with orange highlights. She asked how was I doing, and I answered that I was still suffering. She chuckled as I left my project on Prof Odal-Devorra's desk.

Basically that was the gist of my day. I still don't know if I'll be taking the removals. Oh well, removals would be better than outright failing, I guess.

Kisa's cosplay profile

2008-05-09T18:10:00.000+08:00

name: Bernard.
nickname: fuyu-sensei, megane-sensei, kisa
bday: 5th December
blood type: A
height: 171 cm
weight: 82 kg
hobies/interest: Reading, writing, art, cosplay, far eastern culture

music: Aqua Timez, YUI, Orange Range, Asian kung-Fu Generation
movies: not a lot, really.

3 words 2 describe yourself:
One unsolvable riddle.
fave anime: Bleach,Blood+, Card Captor Sakura, Code Geass: Lelouch of the rebellion, Fate/Stay Night, Harukanaru Tooki no nakade: Hachiyosho, La corda d'Oro, Maria-sama ga miteru, Saiunkoku Monogatari, Tsubasa: RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE, Ultra Maniac, xxxHoLiC
hated anime: yung mga pacute na anime! xetness!!!! Gotta throw them all!!!! ex. Pitchie Pitchie Pitch.

fave anime character: Aizen Sousuke, Hiiragizawa Eriol, Lloyd Asplund, Diva, Abe no Yasuaki, Himemiya Anthy

hated anime character: Miyagasuku Riku, Himemiya Chikane

fave seiyuu: Jun Fukuyama

first cosplayed character: Hiiragizawa Eriol

cosplay plans: Lloyd Asplund, Kimihiro Watanuki

WHAT DO YOU FEEL WHEN PERFORMING IN STAGE: I have yet to perform on stage.

LASTLY, IF I INVITE YOU TO COSPLAY LUPIN (for GIRLS) FUJIKO (for BOYS) WILL YOU ACCEPT IT?
Frankly, no.

Qualitative Analysis: Determination of Unknown (Part I)

2008-05-05T16:34:00.000+08:00

One of the reasons I choose to remain a chem major.

This is unknown sample number 19. It belongs in my hands and it is my task to determine what chemical this is, otherwise, I fail Chem 18.1. It is a dark blue (almost black) liquid, with little other physical properties. Its color suggests that it contains copper or cobalt, but that assumption has yet to be tested.

Upon addition of hydrochloric acid, no precipitate was formed. This suggests that there are no Group 1 or chlorine-insoluble cations in my sample. This means that this sample does not have any mercury or silver, and the possibility of it containing lead has decreased by at least half.

When 2 ml of 5% Thioacetamide solution was added, and then the resulting mixture was boiled for ten minutes, no precipitate formation was observed. This definitively removes lead from the list of possible ions in the substance, as well as copper and cadmium.

With the addition of more thioacetamide, and after five minutes of heating the addition of ammonia, it becomes clear that this solution contains a group 3 cation, which would support my hypothesis that my sample contains cobalt, although that would have to be confirmed with further experimentation.

various tags

2008-04-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

was tagged by heidie.
basically, you will be assigned a letter and then think of ten things that start with that letter.
N...
1.) nachtmusik - german/austrian for night music.what I'm currently listening to.
2.) Natsu - japanese for summer. The current season. Also an orgmate whom I miss.
3.) Nunnaly Lamperouge - a code geass character whose whereabouts I wonder.
4.) Natta - I think that's what Tamaki bought me.
5.) nighttime - the current time (I fail at this meme)
6.) nana- japanese for seven, my fifth favorite number, and the number of sides of my star
7.) nevermore - the name of the raven in my favorite edgar allan poe poem
8.) nai cha - chinese for milk tea, something I'd like to have.
9.) nori - basically seaweed. Dunno why I put that.
10.) Nauseous- what this meme is making me feel

I tag with the letter "L":
Xtian, Pat-chan, RJ, Miss Han, AJ. Nikki, Life, Tamaki, Renge, Mila

was tagged by han.
RULES:
- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut. (but this is mutiply! D: )
- Tag 5 people

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. ~~Sexy.~~ Patriotic. ~~Active in games and interactions.~~ Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. ~~Influential in organizations.~~ ~~Fun to be with.~~ ~~Loves to socialize.~~ Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. ~~Not egotistic.~~ Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. ~~Loves to joke.~~ Good sense of humor. Logical.
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JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

-FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

-APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

-MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

-JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

-JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

-AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

-SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

-OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

-NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

-DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Tagging: ALL who reads this.

weirdness...

2008-04-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

seeing as summer at the University has officially robbed me of any remaining freedom
and sleep I had in mind after the second semester started, I've started having... hallucinations.

...wait. let me say that again ~~in glorious bold underline.~~ HALLUCINATIONS.

needless to say, I have totally lost it. I find myself daydreaming (both in the sense of my mind wandering off and sleeping in class). Yes. Basically, I've been thinking, as my friend meicdon13 would say, thinky thoughts.

That aside, here are some of the weirdest ideas/hallucinations I've had over the past week.
First up is probably the most disturbing. You see, I was "invited" by my friend Life to join in an xxxHoLic cosplay because she went as Kunogi Himawari and I was planning to do Watanuki Kimihiro. Then I found out that another one in our group would be doing Yuuko Ichihara. I immediately sought for a Shizuka Doumeki. But then, as I was listening to 19sai, a thought for a cosplay skit came into my head. With everyone torturing Watanuki. It just so happened that I was also very rational at the time and figured that to please the fans, there had to be yaoi. And so I imagined me yaoing the doumeki cosplayer... Wait, let me say that again. yaoing the doumeki cosplayer. How low will I go?

I had a dream about GunXSword. I'm not really a fan of the series itslelf. I like the characterization, the plot, the music, all that jazz and all, but I haven't watched each episode in order *shot*, don't know that much about the series *double shot*, and all in all, although I like it, haven't been attracted to it to watch out for it *triple shot...dies*
anyway, I had this dream about one of the characters, Wendy Garret, who gets shot by this big, fat (presumably) bad guy. There was someone who was trying to wrench the gun from his hand but he failed. anyway, all the major protagonists of the series gang up on the guy, and then Joshua manages to get hold of the gun and he shoots the bad guy. I had the impression that he was aiming for the shin but deliberately missed and hit the chest instead, mainly because I saw it through his eyes. So yeah... But then again, I woke up as Van came into the scene. What's weirder still is that it happened in RH. it would have been so cool if dann or some other armor swooped down and broke through RH or something (so UP can have an excuse to renovate it XD).

While going home, I do my impression of Lloyd Asplund from code geass because I so want to cosplay him (and so with Van Argeno of BLOOD+, and I'm supposed to be Jushiro Ukitake for HCC. Is it the curse of white hair upon me?). Anyway, I just have to say his famous line "Omedetou!" while walking. Then I would imitate his pose, which makes everyone stare. *ahem*, as you were.

I've been memorizing and dancing hare hare yukai endlessly nowadays. Crap, I've caught Suzumiya. XD. Seriously...

~This just goes to show that I have been watching way too much anime.

Chemistry Exam + The HCC incident

2008-04-20T07:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, we took our first Chem 18 examinations. Since Ma'am Martin failed to reserve the LT, we had no choice but to take it on the roof deck. I later heard that Ma'am came there at around 7 AM and found the place in a complete mess and had to arrange the place by herself. Poor Ma'am.

The test itself wasn't really that difficult. The multiple choice part was passable, I think. But the problem solving part was a killer. I mean, the problem set and the nondep were easy. And they were "designed to help us expect the test." but... come on! The problem set had nothing about nuclear binding energy and so on. Crap. I had to use common sense. Common Sense! I rarely use that. LOL. :p

After that I had a talk with my Chem 18.1 teacher, who was weirded out by what I was wearing (I was costripping at school at that time). She told me about the oral report and the deadline for the accomplished manual forms.

Then, came the HCC incident. I went to SM Manila to go with HCC on their photoshoot. Since I had no means of getting recognized, I wore the clow hat. Hikaru immediately pointed my way. And so we went to Tokyo Tokyo to get something to eat and to wait for our art director. After doing so, we started the photoshoot. We all went to intramuros to get started on the walls which were very picturesque against the skyline. Rukia almost looked like a real shinigami (save for the fact that I vut off too much from her hair). The kids were annoying, and as much as I wanted to shoot them down with soukatsui (correction... I was Hiiragizawa, so I wanted to shoot them down with Arrow), I couldn't.

Then we went to wildlife. Where I can definately say was one of the best places to shoot. Oh yes... The craziness and Uncertainty of it all >:) No wonder hellgirls and ninjas come here. We took a heck of a lot of pictures. A lot of more than necessary, I might add. And to note: my parents knew none of this. I just said I was going to intramuros after school. Oh yes, I recieved quite the sermon afterwards.

Anyways, I had fun with HCC. Those people are a boatload of fun. XD

An exhaustingly long meme

2008-04-13T18:23:00.000+08:00

I got this from Xtian.
It's real fun and full of love.

Name 10 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 10 people.

To protect the identities of the people in question, I opten to use codenames. You may kn ow who you/the others are. Just zip it and keep it quiet. I will only answer who they are given enough motive to do so.

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10 people:
=============================
1. Natsu
2. Aki
3. Haru
4. Genki
5. Tadpole
6. Hana
7. Pink
8. Captain
9. pompoms
10.Haruhi

1.How did you meet number 9?
- Highschool classmate

2. Do you have a crush on anyone up there?
-yep.

3. What would you do if you hadn't met
number 1?
- move on with my life, I guess.

4. What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
- FREAK OUT

5. How did you meet number 8?
- Highschool Classmate

6. Is 2 one of your best friends?
- Not really

7. Whose number 9's best friend(s)?
- uhm... nursing students?

8. Have you ever dated number 1?
- I WISH XD

9. Do you miss number 10?
-sortof

10.what do u think of number 6?
- She's very sweet.

11.what do you think of number 7?
-She's adorable.

12. who does number 3 like?
- would it be a crime to say number 2? XD

13. Have you ever been inside number 8's house?
-yep.

14. Do you love number 4?
- err... next question.

15. Ever been in the same bed as any of the numbers?
-technically, yes.

16. What about no. 5?
- again, technically, yes.

17. Do you trust these people?
-most.

18. would you date no. 5?
-WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM WITH TADPOLE?!

20. Love them all?
-not all.

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21 naman
==========================

1. Natsu
2. Aki
3. Haru
4. Genki
5. Tadpole
6. Hana
7. Pink
8. Captain
9. pompoms
10.Haruhi
11.Gameboy
12.Energy
13.balloon
14.Chemist
15.Fashionista
16.Lexlen
17.Meow
18.Nervous Breakdown
19.Oxygen
20.Alien
21.Jacket

Where did you first meet 17?
- random sit-in in the OMAKE games XD

Do you know any of 8's secrets?
- err.. maybe?

Did 3 ever hurt you?
- emotionally. *sniff*

Do u think 5 is good looking?
-there's a reason I call her tadpole... But she is pretty. XD

What would be ur reaction if 9 fought with 20?
- GO POMPOMS!

What would be your reaction if 11 went out with 2?
- WTF YAOI?!?

Would you ever date 13?
- HELL NO!

What would be your reaction if 14 made out with 15?
-that would be the weirdest thing I'd see. *erases mental image*

Name at least one fact about 4,9,14 and 19.

4: Siya nagpa-uso ng famous quote ng org namin
9: Ako gumawa ng ilang assignments niya
14: looks good in a yellow gown.
19: Masci and UPM Alumna

Did 7 ever lend u money?
-nobody lends me money. And no, she won't.

Describe 21 in one word.
-SCHOLAR

Do you think that 12 is funny?
-in a cosmic sort of way, yes.

Would you ever kiss 11?
- WTF YAOI?!?

Do you think that 20 is goofy looking?
- There is a reason I call him 'alien'.

Ever had a pillow fight with 1?
-I would like that, but no. XP

Ever slept over in 15's house?
-somehow the notion was weird beyond belief. :S

How old is 6?
-> Turned 17 a few months ago.

Have you ever seen 9 and 8 make out?
- That would be the most gripping sight in my life. It makes Hot yaoi, though.

Name one funny event you had with 18.
- She was panicking about chem and I was there trying to comfort her to no avail.

What's the funniest thing about 13?
- nothing.

What if 16 was your twin sibling?
- WHOA XD.

Did you ever hug 7?
- yep.

Did 2 ever make you really furious?
- not really.

Whats the craziest thing 11 ever did that you know of?
- sleep during Chem 14.1

Have u ever seen 10 naked?
- No. And I respect her enough not to fantasize about that.

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30 naman daw
======================

1. Natsu
2. Aki
3. Haru
4. Genki
5. Tadpole
6. Hana
7. Pink
8. Captain
9. pompoms
10.Haruhi
11.Gameboy
12.Energy
13.balloon
14.Chemist
15.Fashionista
16.Lexlen
17.Meow
18.Nervous Breakdown
19.Oxygen
20.Alien
21.Jacket
22.Cancer
23.Sei
24.Spike
25.Juno
26.wavey
27.Ostritch
28.Divine
29.Chairman
30.umbrella

How did you meet 10?
- BCS/OMAKE christmas party

What would you do if you had never met 6?
- I'd be a sad, little wreck

What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
-that would be so weird. Not to mention so yaoi.

If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
- Si Hana nalang XD

Did you ever like 9?
- Nine is a very special person.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
- There is a reason I call her 'genki'.

Would 4 and 17 make a good couple?
- Let me just scream... YURI!!!!!!

Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
- ...pwede. XD

Describe 8.
- He will become god of the new world.

Do you like 12?
- not really.

Tell me something about 17.
- she's mean when she's stressed.

What's 7's favorite color?
- uhm... pink? XD

What would you do if 1 just confessed he/she liked you?
- I would die happily. Haha.

When was the last time you talked to number 15?
- Friday. When I was asking about Chem 18.

How do you think 19 feels about you?
- that I'm an underachiever.

What language does 13 speak?
- tagalog. english.

Who is 2 going out with?
- no one.

What grade is 16 in?
- First year Master of Science in Mathematics

What is 5's favorite music?
- hmm... emo music?

Would you ever date 13?
- HELL NO!

Is 11 single?
- oh yeah.

What is 10's last name?
- ...Suzumiya XD

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?
- hmm... maybe. But that would be impossible.

Where does 18 live?
- I forgot. TT_TT

What do you think about 20?
- He's a pain in the neck.

What is the best thing about 30?
- She's a cosplayer. A really kind one at that XP

What would you like to tell 14 right now?
- "Paturo ng Chem 18" XD

How did you meet 9?
- redundant ito ah.

What is the best and worst thing about 2?
- He's emo sometimes but he;s reliable.

Are you going to know 3 forever?
- We may never know.

How long have you known 26?
- since the medical exam for UP.

Who is 24?
- gitarista.

Do you have a crush on 27?
- not really.

Would you kiss 25?
- define kiss... But why not?

Have you hugged/kissed 22?
- I don't intend to do yaoi.

Would you like to hug/kiss 21?
- again, do not do yaoi.

Is 29 your GFF?
- HELL NO!

What do you hate about 23?
- She's too picky.

What's your relationship with 28?
- blockmate.

CLAMP, why do you have to like big hats? + tag

2008-04-05T18:14:00.000+08:00

Event: Ozine fest 2008
Venue: Megatrade Hall 2, SM Megamall
Went As: Eriol Hiiragizawa (Card Captor Sakura)
Status: phail.

So, CLAMP, you think giving Eriol a ridiculously big hat is a good idea? I mean, it's big, it doesn't give much ventilation and well, my rendition of it is heavy. Haha. Yeah. I so looked like a dork back there. But enough about that first, on with the con story!

So It wasa actually the second time I rode the MRT by myself. I rode it to megamall, then I went up to the megatrade halls. Damn, there were so many ~~hot~~ cosplayers around. So, I got insecure with myself. And so, I decided to put on my costume. Thank goodness I didn't bring a camera, otherwise, you'd see me and lots of random fannage. LOL. Moving on.

I went and got a ticket for two days, went in and lurked. The moment I got in this persona cosplayer asked to take a pic of me. ahaha. I'm a star. JOKE. But seriously, A lot of people wanted my picture taken. The hell, I don't even like taking pictures of cosplayers! It was flattering, but weird nonetheless.

I met a couple random people, including GJ, Xtian, Ate Az, Ate Han, Ate Uretz, Ate KA, Ate Frances, Ate Via, Ate M, Kuya Geonard, and some more whose names I forgot TT_TT

I got a Kannazuki no Miko CD! Hurrah! 390 minutes of maho shoujo + yuri...

...did I say Yuri? XD

Ate Han said I wasted my money. (IF you see a picture of her as Miwako from Parakiss, would you agree that she was so adorable? And Ate Az as Isabella, and Ate M as Yukari Hayasaka? Aren't they so cute?) Okay, I just weirded myself out.

Tomorrow, I'lkl try to bring a camera to add random fannage.

Tagged by Bea.

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it!) and to read your blog for instructions. You can't tag a person who has tagged you. Since you can't re-tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can read the answers!

I hate dogs. I like cats better.
Dogs are noisy, stinky and they lick you. I tend to find that disgusting. Hate me if you will for this. haha. But I really can't stand dogs. Cats, however, intrigue me.
I feel uneasy around people I don't know who are around people I know
When I hang out with friends of friends, I seem to always get left out and out of place. Heck, I'm out of place everywhere.
I'm a pyromaniac, sortof
I like setting things on fire. Just matches and random dry things people, not houses. I'm not an arsonist
People often misspell my name twice before getting it right
I'm addicted to strong odors, no matter how pungent they are.
yes, even if it's manure, if it's got a strong odor, I'm there.
I "trace" plushies of people I like.
kind of like how Shirou Emiya traces swords, I trace plushies. Of people I like/adore/want to take care of/find cute. Then I hug them. mentally. tight. You have been warned.
There are two people living inside me, sortof
Their names are Keisuke and Sayuri. Sayuri is my Yang, feminine, emotional side while Keisuke is my Yin, masculine and rational side.
I can pull random, but cool quotes out of this air
now you know where I get stuff like "A life without purpose... is no life at all" comes from. I call it crap. Some people find it cool.
My spontaneiety is dangerous

most of the time, I can't watch my mouth. And I end up being tactless. Like for instance, I shouted "Yuck, polsci" after discussing shifting possibilities. Sorry polsci people, Freudan slip.

I glomp cosplayers (watch out)
correction: I only glomp cosplayers I know. Otherwise I'd be kicked out of the convention. ahaha. Fellow Cosplayers, you had been warned.

I tag: Pat-chan, Mila, DM, Deniss, Dyosa, RJ, Heidie, Malic, Leya, Clarice

Kagerou (Mayfly) ~Music Meme

2008-03-31T16:43:00.000+08:00

Stolen from Mila.

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
"Raion" by JINN
uhm... "rar!"

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Shooting Star by Kotoko
I'm bright and spontaneous! Yay!~

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Rewrite" by Asian Kung-fu generation

"Erase this depressed heart, this dirty lie
And rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being"

haha. down to earth?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Itoshii Hito no tameni (For the sake of my beloved)" by Satou Akemi
For the sake of my beloved, what can I do right now?
Hell yeah!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"Yuragu Koto Nai (Unshaken Love)" by Tamura Naomi
Why are my answers like this? haha.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Dual" by Yellow Generation
"Whenever I feel crestfallen
I can wave it away because
your heart always
provides me with strength"
I love you... Haha XD

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Siren Song" by Kajiura Yuki
whut. I'm a siren song? What the hell is that supposed to mean?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
"HIT IN THE USA" by Beat Crusaders
Well, my mom IS an english teacher XD

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
"Colors" by FLOW
I think about the things that add flavor to life :p

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
"Sonata Blue" by Mikiya Katakura
you are peaceful, just like the calm ocean... ahuh...My best friends do not fit this description. Especially Xtian

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"moebius" by Kajiura Yuki
O______o What?

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"Colors of the Heart" by UVERworld
" “Feelings continuously filled with wishes will someday create colors”,
that’s what I’ve been taught
To be a person who continues to live with this in the heart
Because COLORS are born within anything and everything inevitable
I will paint tomorrow once more with these hands"
Oh yeah... I've been taught to paint life XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Alones" by Aqua Timez
=)) ahahaha... I want to be alone?

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Nightmare" by SNow
Ohh... courting her will be a nightmare XD

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Strange names" by Kajiura Yuki
They think I'm THAT weird :p

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Reason" by Nami Tamaki
"The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you."
Eternal Love, much?

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"BLAZE" by Kotani Kinya (aka RJ)
" I yearn for an endless dream in a guideless future
Even if I lose my light someday
The sparkling blaze in my chest that you lit
Is the fragment of hope, which will turn into my wings"
I will die happily... knowing they played Jpop in my funeral XD

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Sadame" by Naoki Sato
So I like fighting for the end of the world? O.o

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
"Haruka Kimi na Moto e (To you in the distance)" by Momimura Tenma
" I gaze at you, without yet knowing the meaning of love,
At those very naive yet also exceedingly beautifull eyes"
...I don't want to lose you... aww... this is so emo.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
"Shoujo Meiro de tsukamaete (Seize with a Girl's Maze)" by Aki Misato
That was... weird

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU POST THIS?
"Kagerou (mayfly)" by BUCK-TICK
"smeared in pale lipstick, a midsummer night's dream"
...try it, it's fun

Toxic maxado!

2008-03-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

Wala kayong magagawa. Trip kong mag-tagalog ngayon... ngayon na dapat marami akong ginagawa kaso nga lang kailangan ko talagang mag-pahinga. Marami talaga akong kailangang gawin, aralin, bilhin... nakaka-asar. Ang mas nakaka-asar pa, may klase pa sa gitna ng tag-init ng pilipinas. Grabe... Woohoo! Buhay Kolehiyo... nakaka-culture shock.

So ayun... ano ba ang mga dapat kong gawin? Una, ung pesteng final paper sa comm na yan. Bakitt kamo peste? Peste siya dahil mga ilang walang kabuluhang mga pahayag ang kailangan kong ilagay para lang maka-abot sa specs ni ma'am. Hay nako... Susmaryosep... nakaka-stress.Aasikasuhin ko din ung punyemas na PE tarp. Oo nga't nagpapasalamat ako na hindi na namin kailangang tumakbo sa acad oval ng diliman, pero grabe, ang toxic naman ng schedule ng SSWC. Nakakahibang talaga. Tapos, kailangan ko pang i-atupag ang pagiging otaku ko. Siyempre... yun na nga lang buhay ko sa labas ng eskwelahan eh. Gagawa pa ako ng sumbrero na sobrang kataka-taka ang hitsura tapos isa pang susi na malamang di makikita sa litrato...

Tapos, mag-aaral pa ako sa Chem 14. Kailangan kong maka-77 sa susunod na exam para di na ako mag-finals. 77? Tapos thermodynamics, kinetics at equilibrium ang kausap mo? Patay. E may lima pa akong finals na kailangang pag-aralan... Ipagdasal niyo nalang kaluluwa ko...

Ayun... So bibili din ako ng mga supplies para magawa ko ang tila walang katapusang pag-gawa ng mga proyekto... Haynako... andami kong nasa-isip... Sana man lang may gustong tumulong sa akin.

WHAT HAPPENED?!

2008-03-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Whut happened?Instead of studying for the NatSci exam tomorrow, I'm here blogging. Why? Because I can. Well, I just had this really bugging feeling on the back of my head to relay whatever happened ~~in the most sarcastic way possible.~~So, If you really care for a few laughs, or you's like to see what happened today, read on. Otherwise, feel free to continue on with your business.

Math Lab
As usual, sir Mong came in late today. Not that we're complaining. We NEED math lab. He introduced us to his favorite expression, "choosy". I myself don't know what "choosy" means, but he says it. A lot. For example...

"Hoy! Ang CHOOSY mo!"

Like that. and it spread through our class like a virus. Now everyone's choosy. Michael even came up with a song.

I'm a choosy girl, it's so fun to be me...I'm a choosylicious, choosy girl...

If you don't get it, don't.Either way, while solving for integrals, Sir Mong planned to interview us while we were busy with antiderivatives... His topic of choice? Birth Order. Then he ranted about Death Note. Apparently, he's an L fan. He even claimed L is smarter than He is. Whoaz...moving on.

Chem 14
As usual, I slept through this class. again. The lesson was about chemical kinetics. Yet I couldn't help but fall asleep. When I woke up, we already started on chemical equilibrium. To make up for dozing off, I just recited a lot because I researched on equilibrium. Haha... The power of research

*evil laugh*

Somehow I'm not really funny nor sarcastic today.

Natsci was a bummer. All we did was watch some film about water... It was really repetitive, and the british narrator accent lulls you to sleep. I just spent the period eating... nyahahahaha.

After that came Math 73, which was spent harassing Ma'am Rubio again with Mr. Villaflor puns. I tried to put some wit into my discussions, and surprisingly, my jokes got sold. Matthew, however, had this urge to imitater me and make me look like a total dork (an autistic one, at that), which got the class going. Oh joy... I love this block.

After that I lurked. I went to the OCS to get our enlistment straightened out. The college secretary told me it was okay if we submitted our petitions by monday. Ma'am Martin liked the idea, too. Then I got out for a bit of a stroll, returning to watch Gumbee and Friends make that giant trilobite dubbed the "Vitriolobite" (five peso coin actual size :D). I failed to help Cygne fix her ex's phone, and I feel a bit guilty about that. Oh well.

Kono Bangumi wa GURANDO SUPONSAA no seikyou de okurishimasu
It's probably the coolest phrase in Japanese, because it appears in almost all anime (dubbers drown in out, though). It means something so meaningful that they just HAVE to put it in the beginning of the episode.
"This program is brought to you by the following Grand Sponsors"

*cue ROFLMAO*

Somehow, that phrase got stuck in my head, and I SO wanted to see the reaction of people when I tell them that. So I decided to walk around and say it to the first OMAKE member I meet.
The unfortunate one: Ate Via.
Me: Ate Via!~
Ate Via: :3 *waves*
Me: Kono Bangumi wa GURANDO SUPONSAA no seikyou de okurishimasu.
Ate Via: *hits me*

Nice reaction.

Oh well, that's all for now.

Sources, Sources, Sources

2008-02-27T16:48:00.000+08:00

If I learned one thing from Comm, it would have to be the fact that Sources are everything. Majority of the time, you cannot supply your own information, unless you discover, observe, and infer from the things around you. Having said that, it's important to have all the right sources...

...or people could have the wrong idea.

Take this instance for example:

Masci Gets New Van
any Mascian would immediately be elated at the fact that li'l old MSHS has a van. That is, of course, when you look at the source.
Source: The Nucleus (Sept. 1990) [BASED ON A TRUE STORY]
Having said that, the van is a couple months older than yours truly. And it's just about as new (and fully functional) as a lot of cars you see in a scrap heap. It just goes to show how sources are powerful. And how corrupted the Philippine Government is regarding the state of education in the country.

another problem with sources is its reliability. Mr. Taylor once told us the value of this (citing the example of a crazed scientist yelling to not smash a copper projectile at a comet because comets, according to him, are made out of antimatter, which of course, would annhialate the projectile in a burst of pure energy which could destroy the neighborhood).

And then, there's the problem with the degree of your source. There's the primary, secondary, teriary, quaternary, etc. source. So, any examples?
PSYCH 10 EXAM Tomorrow!
primary source: Ma'am Valbuena (?)
secondary source: Elias
tertiary source: Fame
quaternary source: Grace
5th degree source: Bernard.

With that in mind, the information Bernard held is under question. For all we know, the message may have been twisted and mistranslated along the grapevine. And we're not really sure if Ma'am Valbuena really said that.

Sources are powerful. Never underestimate them.

Mindless ramblings

2008-02-26T15:39:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school today because I was sick.The doctors at Makati Med said it was something with my inner ear. Those at PGH said it was systemic viral infection (which would be the second time they've diagnosed that on me, by the way). I attribute it to high levels of cortisone. Wow, I'm barely into pre-med and I'm already an expert in diagnosis! So I had to miss Chem lab, Chemistry, Nat Sci 5 (Which I don't really mind missing), and Math 73. I also missed the 73 depex, and the deadline for the COMM2 project (which I'm working on right now).

In case you're wondering why the hell I am writing this instead of working on my COMM2, and why have I just thought of the two-level sentence outline just now, it is because one, I am incredibly lazy and slept the entire afternoon, and two, I am incredibly lazy and played StepMania on the PC instead of being productive.
Hooray for me.

As usual I had to try to have the least semblance of being responsible for my block in my absence. I instructed everyone to immediately tell me if something's up, which I doubt they would do in a thousand years. They would be too busy with the depex to worry about little old me, anyway. There's also this issue about Fame's Physical Examination; I told her to resched with OSAD and get an Xray today. But I doubt she really did it, seeing as she alredy promised three times but ended up not doing so. Ugh... Give me a break!

Tonight I cannot rant because frankly, I ran out of things to rant. Michael wants me to join Nihon Nights at UST on Saturday (from what I heard Han-sama and her group will perform there, too), for want of a costume crew (He's going as Shippuden Sasuke). But as always, I have this problem of not having a costume. I really need to get that Cross Private Academy uniform stitched up in case of emergencies like this. Ah, the life of a budding cosplayer.

So now I will leave with a thought. Shouldn't we refer to a glass of water as half-empty only if we are emptying the glass, and refer to it as half-full when filling it; instead of basing the conviction on our level of optimism? Just a language thought.

Vanity of the Unmasked

2008-02-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

Yes... I'm ugly. I've known that for quite a while now but never got into the business of describing my sheer lack of looks per se.So now, I'll be completely vain and point out my obvious blemishes as I try to come to terms with why I deny this inevitable fact.

First of all, my size. I'm obviously overweight, my body mass index being 28 (The normal body mass index for a person my age would be 25). That aside, I have this large stomach which annoyingly peers through even the most loose of clothing. what's more, my chest will pass off as that of a small a-cup. And my bottom is well... huge. I'm pretty much a borderline behemoth. Not obese, just real fat. Or is it big-boned? nyahaha, enough of the political correctness of the issue.My posture, as a result, differs too, adding to my misery and discontent,

My skin. It is not of a lack of hygene that I have really bad skin. It's normally dry and rough. And to take all that care to moisturize it and whatnot will take up too much of my time, and gain me the title of honorary metrosexual (not that I am against any metrosexuals out there; but I seriously do not fit under the descriptions entailing you). Plus, I have this obvious remnant of a large pimple of my nose (which if in the absence if facial scrub is filled with ugly little blackheads, which would be a very humiliating pun on my University position), and some tiny bumps just below my hairline.

Which brings me to my hair. It normally is great when it's long (unless of course immediately after I wake up, which would give me the look of some failed saiyan cosplayer), but the back really ticks me off sometimes that I cant to cut it myself. Oh wait. Maybe I will :D.

If in the remote chance I would re-shape my body, I'll make it skinnier. Period. I just want to remove like, half of my waist, a third of my bum and a nice quarter off my thighs, and that;s it. I'll be content. People cmment that I'm getting slimmer (maybe because it;s the university), but it maybe the striped shirts I normally wear. As for my skin, I was born in these. I would also probably remove my toenails for good, but that's a different story.

Behind this mask... lies a very vain man.

Infatuation, Insanity, Incoherence

2008-02-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

Nigatsu Daikirai! (I hate Februaries)
Adonai...
I lift up my head, and I cried...
My Adonai...
The maker of this moment...
Author of my hope and freedom...
It has almost been two years since the first and currently only time I've heard that song.It fits the theme of the moment, Lent having started yesterday."Adonai", of course, is hebrew for "lord". I'm feeling my faith in the Divine coming back, for some reason. I remembered the song a few days ago, after having accidentaly broken my zen. Now I think I'm suffering from earbud music widthrawal and am slowly going insane.
Yes, lately I have been suffering successive waves of sadness, depression, and bouts of insanity, again because of an unknown reason. probably because of the february atmosphere, hence, my opening remark. It was also almost two years ago that I created that February Mantra "Love? Love? There was no love! love is just a myth.", twisting a quote from a cartoon character which referred to ice. Come to think of it, those two februaries have opened a new door of biterness within me. Yes, it's probably the February atmosphere, with all these sweethearts going around. As Jeun had asked me this afternoon, yes. I tend to get jealous real easily.

Sadly, today was yet again, another bleak and cold February day (and no, this is not an emo exaggeration. It really felt cold, my legs really shook, and the sky was not exactly bright). The fact that we had no geology (Sir Tabin was Late) didn't help the cold. My idea of staying warm was to curl up in the corner near the door and sing what my hazy memory remembers of song lyrics. Christian thought I was going nuts. I agree with him. I tried to hold on to our Geology attendance sheet for as Long as possible until Cygne came to school and had time to sign it (She is, after all, at risk of dropping Geo 11). But I failed. Mr. Tabin came to our room after psych and demanded the sheet immediately. I had to oblige. he told me to give Fame a warning (Apparently, she woke up in the middle of psych, and managed to get late into Math 17). Cygne has proven to be a challenge of a blockmate, albeit not a full one at that. She's very nice and considerate, but has trouble setting her priorities straight (either that or I just misunderstand her). I just want to return the favor for her kindness. You can take it the wrong way, if you like; it's no big deal for me, really.
We didn't have any Communications 2 today; Ms. Miciano gave us a writing break. I did saw her going to PGH after psych. She goes there a lot for some reason. I spent my lunchtime trying to complete my NSTP. And I did. But with only three hours, all I could do was rearrange the files and read the entire time. I finished "Many Waters" already. Truth be told, the ending, like most novel endings, was really bad. Okay, maybe unsatisfactory, but you get the point.Kind of like the ending of Harry Potter and The Alchemist. It was more of "For want of an ending", not a very good one where a glimpse of the past events in the book were revisited. Anyway, I spent the remainder of my time at the University library, where I used the OPAC to get the call numbers for some of the books I'll be using for my COMM project. There were a lot of pharmacy students in the University Library, maybe because it's the closest library to their area of the University and the CP lib is lacking. I'm not really sure. Maybe I should stop viewing things in a CAS point of view.
Have I mentioned eating lunch? I didn't eat any lunch. Ha ha.]
Moving on, I went back to CAS to get my ESF ready. I forced fame to meet up with Jeun, but not before pouring my heart to Jeun about my love sickness (ugh! I really hate Februaries!). Anyway, I found out that Cygne is like that because she's really busy. I don't know what she's busy about but I'll have to take her word for it. I have to trust her; She's smart enough to run her own life, after all. I just want to help and have a purpose (In my psychology values thing this morning, I said I'd trade my happiness to get a purpose). Ma'am Gonzales was not in the OPD, so I guess the end of my NSTP would only be official tomorrow. To think I spent 54 hours in that clinic... whew...
So to end my day, I had another wonderful class with OMAKE. I love this org, as it really makes me forget my worries. I repeated Az's tuesday lecture with a little help from DM, who became my assistant (He actually gets Az. I just teach because I know already). I ordered Dennis to get me some "cha" or "kohi". He went back saying there's none, and when I came back, there was still coffee and tea. That sarcastic little twit...
That's basically my day...I would still have to translate "UP ang galing mo" and "Cleaning out my closet" into japanese. THe OMAKE people really liked it when I made an impression of a japanese eminem going gomen nasai okaasan... Ha ha. And then I'm helping DM< and Deniss in their fantasy of "Obure-sama", where the oblation is this uber-powerful mecha that destroys monsters called "Tofi".
She's like drugs... I go insane if I don't get even a whiff of her but I convulse when I get too much...

Series Review: Code Geass ~ Lelouch of the Revolution

2008-01-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

series review: Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion

ah yes... another series review. Good to know I have something to fill my blogs with. nyahahaha... anyway, on to business!

Thanks for the random info circulating the UPM anime underworld, and that CLAMP adventure game Patricia Zulueta coerced me to partake. :D

Plot: Lelouch Lamperouge for some reason, wants to take down the Holy Empire of Brittania, an empire encompassing a third of the world, and one that has recently invaded Japan, renaming it Area Eleven and its citizens "Elevens". Although he planned to do so when the time is right, that time abruptly came when in a supposed terrorist attack involving "nerve gas", Lelouch meets CC, who grants him the power of absolute obedience, Geass. The story revolves around the Genius Lelouch's exploits to completely destroy Brittania, and gives us glimpses into his dark past as to why he intends to do so.

Why I care: First of all: This series was designed by CLAMP, probably the best manga-ka group who ever existed. Also, it is produced by Sunrise, famous for its gundam metaseries. As such, it is interesting to see what sort of collaboration this unlikely npair would come up.

Review: The plot is extremely fascinating. The world that the writers have woven is so intricate and complex that one just HAS to know all its intricacies. Every episode has a pack of awesome goodness I'm sure evryone will love. The plot devices (such as geass, knightmare frames "Yes, My Lord", etc...) are really great too. The music is rich and enticing, although the animation lacks merit to itself. The episodes have you craving for more as intense fight scenes, psychological battles and inner conflict add essential spice to the series. ALL episodes end in cliffhangers, even the last one :D. The main characters are not sues AT ALL (unlike similar anime I know *coughcough*deathnote*couchcough*).They retain their human element, not succumbing to power without paying seen consequences (as referenced by Lelouch's anguish near the end). The characterization is consistent, but not at all flat. The plot itself gives good room for character development and as the series goes on, even what seem to be menial people become main points in the storyline. the entire mix is fairly well-balanced, not being overly good to be bad.

I gove it a 5 out of 5.

Tagged

2008-01-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

I got this from tricia. Haha... Okay...
I'll answer this as bluntly/sarcastically as I can.
Sarcasm is a sign I've been watching Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu
it's love.

Have you ever been kissed?
No. And I doubt it won't stay that way...

Have you ever been hugged?
Yes... A particular instance would be the breakup of Linnae. :(

Have you ever been courted?
I'm a guy. I do the courting... So the answer is no. Sort of.

Have you ever been crazy about love?
Emo, yes. Crazy, no.

Have you ever had a celebrity crush?
none that I could remember.

Have you ever had a crush on a friend or friend's sibling?
I had a crush on my friend once (or maybe a couple times :D)

Have you ever had a crush on a shcoolmate?
I have studied in co-ed schools all my life. Yes, there are a lot of pretty girls. Yes.

Have you ever been dumped?
Depends on your definition of "dumped" :D

Have you ever been backstabbed?
LOADS OF TIMES. especially in highschool and college.

Have you ever been slapped on the face?
Loads of times. Most of which from my sister. :D

Do you ever want to get married?
I think of getting married on a daily basis. LAbel me as a freak if you must D:

Do you ever want to have kids?
I already have a name for my eldest daughter... So, yes.

Who do you want to tag?
All those who opened this!!! >:))
~ yeah... what she said.

2008-01-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

Now I feel like blogging... I'm so freaking emo right now

Quoteth Czaren: "Telling others you're emo doesn't make you one. It just makes you a wannabe."

It's just that I wanted to pour out my sarcasm tonight... let me write. Please.

NOTE: As always, I always write to make points entirely clear. Not because of what I feel... Got that? Good. Otherwise, close this window now...

Aigh't let's go!

Okay... So today was well... effing long. I had to wake up at 5 AM to participate in the totally abhorrent "Fun Run" the SMIIC is holding... and the guys back at SSWC wanted us to join in on the fun. Otherwise they'd drop us of PE. Oh joy...

So yeah. The sun still hadn't even showed signs of wanting to peek at the horizon when I arrived at Rajah Solayman square ~~With lots of fanfare, red carpet and sakura confetti~~. Good thing my blockmates were Within Visible Range and were easy to find. After spending a useless and youth-consuming couple of hours, we were told to cross the street for the err... program.

Yeah... prayer, national anthem, the obligatory "allegiance to Philippine Science High School" the Bicol people were reciting (Which I countered by my hazy rendition of the MSHS vision... did I say Hazy?)... Yeah.That sort. The entire freshmen population of the SMIIC was there... great. Big crowd... What can possibly go wrong?

Suddenly, my blockhead senses tingled... Not really, it was my phone. Miss Cygne Fame was lost. And I had to find her ~~AT ALL COSTS~~. And so, with some effort, I did. And I dragged her to our class. Incidentally, she didn't get to secure her form with SSWC. Therefore, she didn't have a number, baller, running rights... Oh joy... and the morning just began.

And so we ran ~~like teh wind~~... Actually, most of us walked. But miss fame was so athletic and energetic besides the fact she was informally there so she started jogging. AS fate would have it, I'm stuck with her. And so we made our way through the streets. Three kilometers of asphalt, sidewalk, concrete, an more asphalt. Miss Cygne was so hyped out that I had to stop every hundred meters to catch my breath. But I thank her for pushing me.

When we made our way to the finish line, I had to make sure cygne was recognized for her efforts. LOL. I just made her sign the back of my number. i'll let panganiban do the dirty work... sigh, the obligations I have to go through...

Basically, I really don't like to expound further on my journeys right now... It's sort of ~~My personal thing that I would know some nosy someone would eventually read and discover~~ So I'll leave it at that... That is, if you know the life note... Sakujo!: LJ

見つめていたい　いつも　泣いた　顔　も　全部
差し出す　物　は　ないん　だ　ただ　手　を　つなぎ　　あう。

there is absolutely no way that jap can be right ^^

The truth is inconvenient

2007-12-31T17:25:00.000+08:00

This here is an essay I wrote about the Film "An Inconvenient Truth" for my geology class...

The academy award-winning documentary film An Inconvenient Truth featured Al Gore in his crusade against global warming. It featured certain disturbing facts that are geared to change many misconceptions concerning the said issue.

Global Warming is the rise in mean global temperatures attributed to the rise of greenhouse gases (most especially carbon dioxide) that trap heat from the sun and prevents most of it from escaping. These greenhouse gases are - according the general consensus among scientists - is caused by human activity such as the burning of fossil fuels and deforestation. Another hypothesis that explains this phenomenon involve fluctuations is solar activity. However, the data concerning this theory directly opposes this hypothesis, stating that fluctuations in solar activity are far too small to have any effect on Earth’s climate.

What makes the film effective is the fact that it uses empirical data to back up its claims. First and foremost is the graph that clearly shows the atmosphere’s carbon dioxide levels. Normally, during the first half of the year, carbon dioxide levels drop because more trees absorb more carbon dioxide. However, the opposite happens during the next six months. Because fewer landmasses are below the equator, and that the earth is tilted, carbon dioxide levels increase. Many people would consider this a natural phenomenon, but the Keeling Curve suggests a rise in CO2 levels above the norm. It is horrifying to know that today’s carbon dioxide levels are much higher than in history. And as the years pass, this curve just gets steeper and steeper. This was then correlated to global temperature levels. This revelation alone makes this film scarier than any horror movie. I also liked the geological references such as the tilting of the earth and continental drift in this part of the film.

Another, more disturbing fact revealed in the film was the before and after pictures of glaciers. Glaciers are large, slow moving rivers of ice formed by compacted snow. In the pictures that were presented, there was a dramatic retreating of these ice sheets, attributed to rising global temperatures. Common knowledge tells us that if more of these glaciers melt, then global sea levels would rise, and many coastal cities would be underwater. This is already apparent in some islands in the Indian Ocean; homes of the islanders are slowly being claimed to the waves just like the mythical city of Atlantis.

The title of the film stems from the fact that some countries, namely the United States and Australia, have not joined with other nations in signing the Kyoto Protocol, a worldwide initiative to cut down on Carbon Dioxide levels. In fact, some people have been forced to alter the truth on global warming because this said truth is inconvenient. It is not surprising to note that George Bush, Al Gore’s political opponent during the last US presidential election, expressed his doubt on Gore’s statements, being entirely skeptical to the fact that the rise of greenhouse gases is because of human activity (also note that the film stated that the general consensus, covering around 100% of scientific papers on the subject, is that there is no other proponent to the rise of global warming than human activity). Also, Australian Prime Minister John Howard said that he will not meet with Gore or agree with Kyoto; stating that he doesn’t “take policy from films”. This has made the issue an entirely political issue, which leads me to believe that they are against motions to reverse global warming in lieu of political and/or profit (the distribution of oil, for example, is extremely lucrative).

The thing that doesn’t make the film more appealing is the fact that almost half of the film concentrated on Al Gore’s political motions and his exploits in order to address this crisis. Frankly, these parts were incredibly boring and contain the potential to lull even the most observant viewer to sleep.

All flaws aside, this film is a sure eye-opener. It presents us with insight into the workings of the planet and that we are affected by whatever we do to it. Like the Gaea Hypothesis discussed previously, whatever we do the planet equates into something we do to ourselves. And ultimately, we become the victims of our own actions.

Philosophical ramblings Part I

2007-12-30T08:46:00.000+08:00

Philosophical ramblings part one. Okay, so instead of improving that abstract I wrote for Chemistry 14, I'll write here because... Because I can! *evil laugh*. Okay. Back to business...

"The capable falcon hides his talons"

~Japanese proverb

Today I shall comment on that thing people call... talent. Yes, talent. For me, it's one whole load of crap... Stinky, bad crap. I'm a victim of talent, mostly because I have absolutely no idea what my talent is. There. Haha... Man, for some reason my writing is going horribly wrong.

No, seriously. I mean it. I have absolutely no talent in drawing. Though I pride myself with having better work than some people, I really, realy want to improve. But somehow my skills plateau and yeah... Really frustrating.

Then there's music. Haha. If any of you have heard me create anything which is a close semblance to music, you would rather hear the annoying and continuous baying of dogs to my work. Have you heard me sing? If you haven't, lucky you. My music teacher had commented that if she had a million years to teach me how to sing just one song right, I stil wouldn't get it... Yes, I'm that bad. Iric on the other hand, succeeded in thirty minutes.. Bravo. He should be a music teacher, if not a spech pathologist. I also play the flute, which apparently is the easiest music instrument to play... ever. However, my playing is really, really, annoying. In my freshman year of high schol, I served as a beacon of my section so that other sections can find me. Haha. If you were from Umali or Badillo at that time, you should know what Im talking about. okay, moving on..

Then there is the field of public speaking. Haha... This one's a killer. When I was a young boy (think third grade and whatnot), people used to comment that i had 'really great diction' (Which wouldn't really mean "choice of words" but rather "pronounciation" forsome reason unapparent to me). So they had me speak... all the time. which was good. However, in high school, As boys my age would mature and their voices would depeen as part of the development of their secondary sex characteristics, I was somehow... left behind. My voice was and is as high-pitched and annoying as the moment I steped into the sixth grade. Whop-di-doo. Haha. So now, anyone would hear me would either roll their eyes, shiver with exasperation and/or annoyance, or simply not listen at all. One of the comments in my recent Johari windows (as posted in a similar blog post, LINK ) "Nakakainis ang boses parang bading!" (Your voice is annoying like a gay man's). Ouch. That realy hurts my leadership skills, not to mention my pride.

And then there's writing... Haha... This one is really, really bad. People always say I'm a great writer... haha... that's nice and all. apart from my first journalism teacher (who referenced me as a complete nerd that would only play second fiddle to a bigshot sports writer *ahem*), my writing was "brilliant". Yet brilliance is often a dime a dozen, especially in a place called Manila Science High School. Where there are, unfortunately, fifteen dollar's worth of "brilliance" who are apparently more "brilliant" than yours truly. And so my potential "brilliance" is outshined by the other "brilliant minds" out there. So that's why I played second fiddle to a bigshot sports writer... I'm not as "brilliant" because I lost my edge (Do note: I wrote and edited editorials for that bigshot sports writer... whoever he is). So much for dedication to the truth. I was forced to rewrite every single article I have written because apparently the editors are better and I have to comply with whatever they say... Referenced that I lost in the last high school press conference I ever attended. Because I lacked 'sound facts to my opinion"... Stupid, stupid first daughter... Stupid, stupid journalist. (By now you should see why journalism was never in my college application forms)

The capable falcon hides his talons... Or maybe he doesn't have talons at all... That would make him less of a capable falcon.

2007-12-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

I know not what to write today... So I will just write what comes to my mind first...

okay... here we go...

It seems like an aura of doom have passed recently. I do not know why... Or maybe it's just the bleak weather. Anyway, I always feel that I'm forgetting something important, it could be my COMM homework, but that's in the back of my head for now... Where was I? Oh yeah... Ranting about doom. Well, maybe it's about the University. With absolutely no major upsets in the board of regents meetings and Senate hearings about the charter, things are looking pretty bleak.

Now on to other stuff...

I'm currently watching Code Geass: Lelouch of the rebellion and Harukanaru tooki no nakade: Hachiyosho on crunchyroll. They are really great series with amazing plots. Please, do check them out. I will be able to write a review soon after I finish watching the two. I'm also currently playing Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories on the Game Boy Advance. I really find the boss battles really challenging, frustrating even. I'm not that much of a gamer, so this stuff is really hard for me. Besides, I hate challenges.

I'm also starting work on my projects over the Holidays. I'm in the process of doing my psychology and geology projects. The chemistry project is done... The Communication project looms over the distance.

Oh well, I wish you all the best of luck... I really miss Linnaeus. Bye!

2007-12-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

Series Review: Strawberry Panic!
This is basically my first timereviewing an anime series, although I did plan to put up a review of Tsubasa Chronicle when I first saw it.

Thanks to Patricia Zulueta for coercing me to watch this...

Plot: Aoi Nagisa is a fourth year (that would mean first year high school in our world) transfer student who transfers (no duh) to one of three schools in Astrea Hill. These schools are Miator, Spica, and Le Rim. The moment she steps into Astrea, she is awestruck by the sheer beauty of everything: the surroundings, the aura, the schoolgirls... Anyway, she gets lost and is found by a beautiful woman in black with flowing white hair. The said woman kisses her in the forhead, and Nagisa passes out. Only to awake to find her future roommate and classmate, Suzumi Tamao of Miator.

Basically the story follows Nagisa's exploits and her developing relationship with the other girls, especially the girl with the White hair, Hanazono Shizuma, the beloved Etoile-sama.

Why I care: This is the first really hardcore lesbian series I have seen. By hardcore lesbian, I mean REAL HARDCORE YURI. Although I do have some yuri experience with titles such as Maria-sama ga miteru and, to some extent, Cardcaptor Sakura, this anime really shows no subtlety whatsoever. I mean, around 85%, if not all the students in Astrea are lesbian (As you might have guessed, they are ALL exclusive All-Girl's schools). It's as if men don't exist on this universe (a more realistic idea would be "men don't exist on astrea hill", but it's not as catchy)

Review: First of all, the story is very well-rounded. Even straight people will relate to it. The relationships are nice, but they mostly revolve around love triangles (or in Nagisa's case, a love trigonal bi-pyramidal). The seemingle innocent aura of the series will quickly be shattered in the first few episodes or so, referenced by kissing (innocent or otherwise), mild to hard groping, and in some instances, lesbian ionteraction (you don't really have to infer what I'm talking about here, let your imagination take you to the answer). But as the series goes on, it becomes more emotional, to the point of the plotline being dragging and only concerned about confusion . In one instance, Shizuma attempts to tell the whole truth of her dark past to nagisa (who asked everyone she knew all about THAT past) which ended up with both parties being emo for at least three episodes not doing anything but being emo in bed until a group of other girls bring Nagisa cookies (yes. Cookies). All in all, it's a great series. However, the sheer amount of confusion and lesbianism will kinda freak out straight people intending to watch this show. As I am a fan of mild yuri, there's just too much yuri fanservice going on in here. On a note, wiki lists this as a "seinen" series (by that I mean targeted at an 18–30 year old male audience). The definition of what makes seinen justify this, but... man...

I give it a 3 out of 5.

2007-12-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

Math is love.

Today was, of all days, a day dedicated mostly to Math. 4 hours out of 7 taken up Analysis, to be exact. It started with Math 73 lab with Mr. Llaneras. He began discussing about conic sections and how we are to apply and solve them. Pretty straightforward stuff, really. Just applications of what we learned back in Math 73 lecture three days ago. I really can't say much, except that it drained a good portion of my brain power. At least I learned something.

With around half of my brain for the day empty, I crept through chemistry. I didn't really understand anything since my head was spinning with numbers. Luckily I was able to compute formal charges and analyze some resonance structures. Wow, for the first time I finaaly understood Mr. Morphine's lectures (or lack thereof) back in Advanced Chemistry a year ago. We discussed Molecular Geometry, something that I have grown quite fond of especially since you hang out with Mr. Pilario and sit in front of Chemistry back in high school. Anyway, I never understood the thing about "invoking excited states" and whatnot. It barely registered. Good thing I have a, no, THE Handout. I still have to xerox it.

Next came NatSci. I spent most of the time not listening, but working on my equations. I've already read the lecture Professor was talking about... back in the third grade! And so I just "pretended" to pay attention by reciting. Haha. She even got sick of me reciting all the time. Said something about man being an "agent of evolution" and a "dirty animal". Well, the last minutes of the class were a wee bit interesting. It seems that the NatSci class of UPM would be representing the University at some event at Mall of Asia. *sigh* some cultural presentation...exciting, but... crap.

And guess what... Math again! This time we started limits. And the funny thing is, Mam Rubio's (whom Pat-chan and I call "Len the Levi's Kawaii girl") lecture was exactly the same as Mam Gumboc's lectures back in high school! Haha. Although only now did I understand why calculus was like that. She explained it in such a funny way, too...

"Habang si X, lumalapit kay A, si F(x) lumalapit kay L"
("As X approaches A, F(x) approaches L")

I immediately had an Idea.

"L? The detective?"

Michael responded. "Yeah. Kira is X. and Mam is Near."

I burst out laughing.

The exercises were very hard. And since my mind refused to whirr, I simply conceded to the problems. I'll get them... someday.

And, another note, the exams for Chemistry and Math are next week!
ごめん　なさい、歌姫さま。。。

2007-12-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

The Second semester is tiring <-how the hell did this get here?

That's why I've taken this opportunity to post a journal... hahaha... anyway, you get up at seven, go home at three, ride the train or bus everyday... and you go home *flomp* unto the bed... haha... real nice.

Plus, the people talk sh** on your back, nobody listens to you even if you're the block rep (what's new?) oh, and yeah... people say nasty things about you in the Johari window...

Sample of nasty stuff:
"Where did you come from? Planet Yekok!"
NOTE: If you don't get the punchline, Yekok is a fictional planet from which Autistic, Ugly aliens hail from...
"Baka Maubos Space!" (Space might run out!)
This is obviously a pun on my weight. May I clarify that more overweight people are getting more respect than I am?"
"Nakakainis ang boses parang bading!" (Your voice is annoying like a gay man's)
Well EXCUSE me for having underdeveloped vocal chords and late puberty!

well, enough of the excruciating talk...

I am currently addicted to the IME button...
there... hahaha... I hacked the IME into submission... and now,
はじめまして。
私は渡辺たくみです。
十六才です。
フィリピン人です。
どぞ　よろしくおねがいします。
わかりましたか？
そうか。
君はこれがわかりませんです。

Haha. Just in case it came out squares, question marks, or strange characters (East asian or otherwise), that was a "jikoshokai", or self-introduction. Haha...

OMAKE status as of the moment: 50%.

lol...

dusty blog i got here...

will update links later... XD.

*sigh*

私は歌姫さまを愛してる。

2007-10-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

Don't Blame the Government
Warning: Editorial ahead... Flames are welcome for insensitivity, ignorance, and 'suppressing the truth'

Earlier today a major explosion happened in Glorietta Mall in Makati. The explosion caused massive damage to the said building, killing at least eight while injuring dozens. Search and rescue operations are still on-going within the premises to recover survivors and/or bodies. Several theories have been put into consideration: One, being an LPG tank that exploded in a Chinese Restaurant stockroom; two, an act of terrorism by local insurgents who are either trying to prove a point, destabilize the government, or for other reasons; and the most popular theory to date: a government conspiracy to either to divert attention from recent scandals relating to graft and corruption or to justify a state of emergency (which some liken to martial law). The latter theory, is ludicrous and without factual basis.

Firstly, we are all at fault in committing argumentum ad ignorantiam (appeal to ignorance; being ignorant of the alternative does not confirm your belief) and post hoc ergo propter hoc (after this, therefore this; concluding from a past event that may be unrelated) when we say that this is a conspiracy. Why? Firstly, we do not know all the details of the blast. We do not know what caused it, and we do not know who planted the explosive, if it was. Therefore, does that mean the government is at fault? We will only know if there are substantial amounts of evidence pointing to the administration. Talking like this is what the courts call 'circumstantial evidence'.

If the rooster crows, and it rains, does that mean the rooster caused the rain to fall? absolutely not. Likewise, the administration has been suffering scandals relating to embezzlement of funds, graft and corruption, etc. Surely, they would be feeling the mounting pressure and mount a diversion... aha! "Let's bomb a mall and blame it on terrorists!": that's what the populace thinks. Surely, when you look at it, the premises do not support the conclusion. It's understandable to think so when the timing is real perfect for the occasion. Most of us have seen the administration get bad press and they need drama in the media for diversion.. But face the facts: it does not necessarily mean that the government is in the hot seat and they will plant a bomb to escape the heat. Who knows? Maybe the insurgents want us to think the government is behind it so they can destabilize the nation.

A more suitable choice for the government to bomb is a political rally (think plaza miranda during the time of Benigno Aquino). They can always blame the rebels for it... though the public would place suspicion on administration whistleblowers. Rather than divert attention, the government can always supress the media, erase their tracks... More subtle things that are better than like... bombs.

The timing is convenient. And that's it. Period. There's no more evidence the conspiracy theorists can throw at us. Hell, even the moon landing conspiracy has more evidence to back it up! Even Rizal's retraction controversy has more proof to its claim! Let us not rely on circumstantial evidence, heresay, and outright public mistrust to judge our administration into doing something utterly destructive to establish trivial goals. Furthermore, we should base our opinion on facts. Inferences may be right or wrong, but hard evidence does not lie. We can misjudge a situation, being blissfully ignorant of the evidence to the contrary. The point here is not to convince you that the government perpetrated this horrid, inhumane act, but rather to listen to reason. Don't blame the government just because you can. Blame the government because you know.

>> Not one of my better editorials, but I guess this should suffice the onslaught of conspiracies I keep hearing.

2007-10-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

I'm going to say this only once:
entanglement sucks.
I don't know why I said that...

Anyway, for the uninitiated, entanglement is the science of interconnectedness. It works on the principle that one thing leads to another. If you know one thing, it's not very difficult to find out something related to it, etc. etc.

Sometimes it's as easy as scrolling up and down an HTML page, or source viewing (good luck with that), or putting two and two together.
Okay, so maybe it's not that easy.

Anyway, I've used it to find out a lot of things. Most of what I've arrived at is mainly due to inference, and thinking like the person I'm trying to figure...

Now What I can't figure out is why I said it sucks.

Moving on...

I really don't feel like studying today... There's Soc Sci on Thursday, Math 17 on Wednesday, and the week after that I have Communications. Damn... So much to do!

2007-10-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

If you have been reading any of my work, you'll probably say I'm suicidal...again. Again my reasons are not justifiable, and like other times I would just wake up some day and be my cheery self again...blech.

So what was it now?

It turns out that my "infinite patience" has failed me. For some time I have been pondering on why I am always alone and to myself. And I have frequently convinced myself that "Because I want to be alone." And I do. But the truth of the matter is, I don't want to be with other people. I find myself a nuisance, and frankly I don't want to spoil the fun by joining them not with me being "imaginary" "crazy" or more often, "autistic". And so today, I see myself doing things on my own again. And quite frankly, it sucks. I really miss Taichou and Rishai and all the other people I used to hang out with during high school. But I'm no longer in high school! I think my ego is enough to tell me that. But there is more than companionship I'm after. I'm after genuine Kindness.

The fact of the matter is, I'm trying to immerse myself in any possible escape which I can throw my sadness at. However, one of my escapes, frequent philosophizing and thinking up of storylines, distracts me and further gives people the notion that I am autistic (which, by definition, I am not) and should be avoided. My other escapes, listening to music and watching things like Saiunkoku Monogatari and others, well... escape me because they are "wastes of time and energy". And So I immerse myself in my studies... but this too, fails because the pressure is enough to make me scream. I cannot grasp the concepts of inverse functions and ethics... I cannot understand the nature of culture and social stratification... I cannot begin to comprehend the complexities of the past! I pretend to do so, but I simply am not! I am not a genius, though I would want to be. In my dreams and fantasies I am but reality likes to kick you in the shin and rob you of the things you hold dear. It's ripping me apart worse than heartache and frankly my pain is so much to bear, and the burden so heavy that a blade right through my chest is like plucking a needle from my throat! I can't take it any more! But I'm too cowardly to kill myself. Not with the concept of death and the possibility of entering the gates of hell sounding eerily close. But come to think of it, hell seems a lot more comfortable than my life here.

Kanashii nara naite iiyo... When you're sad, you can cry...

I just want to cry myself to death. But I can't. I can't because society's so-called "norms" forbid me to cry. Otherwise I'd be branded as "autistic" again and I'll suffer more pain and sadness... I really can't take no more! Imagine having to live your life avoiding to start a conversation in fear of rejection, sharp comments, and thoughts that other people may have of you. Imagine having to live your life constantly trying to be someone you're not just because society dictates so. Imagine having to live your life being ridiculed and blamed for everything that befell everyone. Imagine being in my shoes... constantly having to defend himself in a dog-eat-dog world; where nothing is what it seems, that the slightest mistake will brand you forever... Where everything you thought you knew was thrown down the drain... Imagine seeing everyday people superior than you, happier than you... surrounded by friends while you sulk in the corner, basking in your loneliness.

But what can I do? My cowardice prevents escape. Society prevents escape. And ultimately, I am nothing but what society sees as weak...immobile...useless...

2007-10-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Bernard Jude Gutierrez
2007-00697
The Dangers of Origami

Origami is the Japanese art of Paper folding. Some practictioners of the art say that mastery of Origami can unlock the very secrets of creation. Truly, Origami is able to create beauty out of something as simple as paper. However, origami is also an art that contains many dangers one must be weary of.

First of all, origami has Physical dangers. The most obvious risk is the danger of paper cuts. This happens when you move your finger over the edge of the paper in just the right speed that the friction and sheer sharpness of the paper cuts a shallow gash in your flesh. Although not entirely lethal (except of course if you get a nasty infection), it may be painful and some bleeding may occur. It is also dangerous to become too engrossed in paper folding that you become unaware of the things that surround you. It becomes dangerous when, for example, you're trying to fold an otter at the same time you're crossing the street. Your attention may be too occupied to sense the approaching danger of passing vehicles.

There is a special type of origami which is technical origami; it is still paper folding, but with more intricate patterns consisting of one or more sheets of paper. Some works under this category are platforms strong enough to support the weight of a person. This too, poses a danger when the instructions are not followed to the letter. For example, paper platforms missing trusses severely weaken the structure. Any person standing on this platform will surely fall and scratch or bruise himself, if not suffering a minor concussion.

Another type of origami that can be dangerous is called action origami. Action origami consists of paper structures which contain mechanisms within, thus making the things move. However, there is a very real danger of these sculptures malfunctioning and hurting anyone nearby. Beware of action origami!

Aside from physical dangers, origami also has emotional dangers. The most dangerous of these emotional risks is obsessive-compulsive folding. This is a state in which a person is obsessed about paper folding, and is compelled by his mind to do so. This becomes really dangerous when a person who suffers from this paper folding menace is put in a place where paper is almost non-existent. In this case, the sufferer may show signs similar to to how drug addicts behave when in the absence of the substance which they crave. Conversely, one faces insanity when put in a place full of paper to fold into any shape desired. Another, though less dangerous risk is extreme frustration, anger and/or depression when one spent ages folding a piece of paper and not getting the desired figure. This contributes to high cortisone levels that may express themselves in the physical level.

Origami, too has dangers. Beautiful as this art is, we must all be careful of its hidden risks.

2007-09-23T13:01:00.000+08:00

Clearing the dust...

Youkoso watashi no sekai he

Warning: Content not suitable for bored individuals.

If you're wondering why I even put a warning up, simple. I don't want people to read this out of boredom (which would ultimately reduce the amount of people reading this). I would also like to deter people from judging me based on what is written here (i.e. I'm emo, I'm suicidal, etc.). The main purpose of this site is to make people sit up and take notice. That you cannot simply know me by my words, even if you read between the lines. I am not advertising that I am a complex being that is unreachable by the common man, but rather that I choose to be unreachable, complex, and secretive, to the point that it annoys certain peers (including some journalists >:). You have been forewarned)

Having said that, I shall continue on with this post. Which I am doing while pouring on the ethics of belief and some other nonsense being fed into my brain by the bane which is known as Philosophy. Of course I do like the subject, but having to read voluminous articles that my underdeveloped excuse for an understanding cannot comprehend. Furthermore, my attention span is relatively short, come to think of it, if faced with 39 or so pages of things that wouldn't really make sense.

I just had a talk with Leah about me not attending any rallies. She said that was so un-UP (for want of a better term, I suppose). I said that, I quote:

my education is not justified by whether or not I express my grievances; it is justified by my dedication to my work as a student and ultimately, as a leader.

and her response is something I would expect of her (literally speaking, as her style is already familiar to me as with her friend's)

do you know our cheer for the uaap? matatapang, matatalino? it just implies that up students, yes, our education is very well justified by our dedication. but, our education should also have the mix of expressing not just grievance but anything regarding the life of the community. we should have our eyes opened and our mouths ready to shout.

aha! I was at the ready to look for a fallacy. Alas, there is none. My mind was too preoccupied to think of another lesson before epistemology and ethics. So I let it slide. Besides, that would be rude (seeing that someone thick-headed used existential fallacies, how inappropriate and ill-informed it may seem, against me).

In a lighter tone, I'm beginning to like Saiunkoku Monogatari. No further details will be discussed. My head already hurts from the Philosophy.

And yet, another princess enters the court! And she finds a liking to her unseen retainer. What shall happen in the palace, then?

2007-07-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

Daikirai Math 17 part II

If you have not read Daikirai Math 17 part I, I suggest you read it first... So while my internet is holding up, (I might as well call this one Daikirai Internet connection as well), I shall rant about what happened to my departmental exam

As whoever has read this has heard, I took my Math 17 departmental exam last week... The tuesday after that, Professor Villaflor was absent... we were wondering if either he committed suicide, or simply didn't want to attend for fear that we would beat him to death >:)

Anyway, he came on thursday bearing our blue books... Three of us, Vivien, Danette and uhm... forgot the last one :p got near-perfect scores...

I got a 60%... That equates to a 3.0, which means I passed... Yeah, it's a miracle: I passed...

Anyway, I'm gonna post this now that my internet is still holding up, ciao!

If only our fates are intertwined...

2007-07-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

Daikirai Math 17

As the title says, I'm not going to rant about how I hate Math 17... or at least, its level of difficulty... Yes, it is time to laugh and mock Bernard's lack of understanding in the field of numbers and variables... so go ahead... I know you want to...

At first I was deceived by Math 17's simplicity. I was amazed that I can solve complex problems in a few strokes of my pen... I never knew that behind this rouse is a menace lurking with dangers far greater than Advanced Algebra and Analytic Geometry had in store... I was foolish to think it was simple... I was wrong...

You see, Math 17 has one of the highest failure rates in UP. To fail is normal... To pass is luck... To ace it, however, is an act of God himself... having said that, I was afraid that in my exponential inferiority to the Creator, I was unsure if I would pass the first departmental examination... And so I studied...

Yes, for the first time in my life, I studied math... I factored my heart out, cancelled terms I never knew could have existed, and derived equations that are simply mind-boggling... But alas, I still was not ready...

And so the departmental examination came... For starters, it was taken at night... after class hours.. without a dinner break in sight... And so it seemed more daunting to answer in the dark, starving, and shaking from the sheer fear that you will fail... Praying before exams to me seems pathetic, because it's implying that you have to call on Heaven to solve your problems for you... But this time, I prayed... Hard.

And so it began... Problem after problem I was pulled to the end of my wits... Question after question left me more mystified than confident... And, as my reiatsu plummeted, so did my resolve to live...

Finally, at the second to the last question, my worst fear had been realized: mental block... I was unable to factor this huge 10-degree polynomial consisting of like a dozen terms... This and that I tried to tweak the equation... trying desperately to conquer it within the whims of my mind... But the more I tried, the more my strength and knowledge lessened... Finally, I succumbed to its clutches in a heap of surrender...

Now, will my prayers be answered? May by some stroke of luck I managed to pass? Did the hand of God intervene and let me off this time? Or will I suffer the inevitable: saying goodbye to my dreams such as the Dean's List, Latin Honors, and a medical Scholarship? Stay tuned for the next installment of Daikirai Math 17

2007-06-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

First week... crap
Okay... in due celebration of surviving three days of college, another asinine post! *yay! everyone celebrate!* (aheck... Lui's zanyness is rubbing off me *groan*)
anyway, here we go.

Wednesday, 13th June 2007
Well, nothing much going on here; except of course for the welcome celebration... We had a mass (led by a Jesuit who happens to be an HP fan talking about how the Holy Spirit is kinda like a patronus), tons of speeches (including one from the chancellor which offered a bout of Diliman-bashing... hehehe) and one from the Student regent (it also featured a surprise protest that scared the wits out of me.. cool.. INSURRECTION ON THE FIRST DAY)
After that we had lunch and I was chosen as the Block Head (ZOMGWTF? What's that on my face?... Well, after another orientation (the third on my count) We were free to go

Thursday, 14th June 2007
Still nothing much to say here... Just.. another orientation... This was where I spoke the legendary lines...

I did not choose Biochem; Biochem chose me...

Damn, I felt like Aizen when I was saying that... lol...We had our first Math 17 (oh noes!) and we ditched out ID's to get them countersigned... moving on!

Friday, 15th June
Okay... Formal classes start. But first, another orientation! (number 5 from my count). This time, it was the CASSC talking about the orgs... Our block even won a cheering contest which gave us lots of dewberries (which reminds me.. I haven't eaten mine yet)... Also, the CASSC president made the block heads memorize a famous, yet utterly annoying quote

Palakang Kumakalakubab, kakakalakubab pa lang, kumakalukubab na

Yeah... I know... id made no sense to me, too... Anyway, after that I had luch at World chicken, and rushed back to CAS in record time... Then, we had social science... or did we? After thirty minutes of no professor showing up, We walked out... (At least me and a couple others... Some stayed behind beause of airconditioning)... We got our ID's back, and it was smooth sailing.. Until it was time for COMM I, that is.. It seemed that the RH bunch (me and some others being the GAB bunch) had no classroom save for a stockroom... Yes, a stockroom... utterly described in vivid detail as

May mga kahoy sa sahig tapos may pintura

Not very conducive to learning, is it? anyway, while that was being sorted out, we had a teacher... and yeah, the time was amusing.... We learned the word "hodgepodge" and we got a very interesting anecdote about text messages, red-faced men, and "last night".. too bad we didn't learn the entirety of the message...

Well, that's it actually... My first three days... Not really Crap, but more of a rollercoaster ride... That's it for now...

Wakarinikui na tenshi... Saraba

2007-06-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

ayan... trip kong mag-tagalog.. ewan ko kung bakit... haha... impluensya ng mga ibang tao... haay... ayun... sige... gamit ng gamit nanaman ako ng elipsis... ayun...hehe... saka marami din akong mga "one word comments"... ayun... hindi ko alam kung bakit ako ganito... siguro wala lang ako sa tamang pag-iisip... tama... wala sa tamang pagiisip (sandali lang, kailan ba ako nasa tamang pag-iisip?)

So, ayun... revert nanaman ako... sa dati kong skin... bakit? ewan ko... nakakaasar kasi ung nakuha ko eh... ewan... basta... (kung sa multiply mo ito binabasa, punta ka lang dito: link. Hahaha... gagawa nanaman ako ng bago... background...buttons...nakakatamad siya actually, pero... haha...andami ko kasing nasasabi tungkol sa sarili ko pag gumagawa ako ng para sa blog. Bakit? ewan... at wala nanaman sigurong may paki-alam...

so ayun... chineck ko ang nangangalawang na account ko sa friendster. bakit? dahil wala akong magawa. Ayoko naring pumuntang Ju-Ni dahil walang matinong makausap dun... Wala ring nangyayari sa dA. Kaya ayun...last resort: ang walang ka-kuwenta kuwenta kong friendster..biglang dumami friend request ko... yung mga di ko kilala... feeling ko ung isa dun ung kaklase ko nung grade 5... haha... biglang naglilitawan ang nakaraan ko... kasi sa dalawang okasyon, nag-kita kami ni Jexzen, kaklase ko ng grade six... taga lakandula HS pala cya... ayun... astig... dalawang contest un... tas pareho akong natalo...hmmm... coincidence? Tapos kasama ko sa CAS ung kaklase ko nung grade 5 na si Athena... weird nga ung story... bigla niya akong nilapitan tas tinanong niya kung nakikilala ko siya. Tapos pinakita niya form 5 niya..parang ako: "ZOMG WTF?!" hehe... astig...

So, ayun... speaking of form five, eto pala schedule ko...

Monday
10:00AM - 1:00 PM Com Sci 10 (malamang turbo C ito)
1:30 PM - 2:30 PM Math 17 (OH NO!!!)
4:00 PM - 5:00 PM History 1

Tuesday
8:30 AM -10:00 AM Philosophy 1 (OMG)
10:00AM -11:30 AM Math 17 (ZOMG WTF)
1:00 PM - 2:30 PM Social Science 1
2:30 PM - 4:00 PM Communications 1

Thursday
9:00 AM -11:00 AM PE (hindi ko alam kung ano ung BD)
1:30 PM - 2:30 PM Math 17 (*dies*)
4:00 PM - 5:30 PM History 1

Friday
8:30 AM -10:00 AM Philosophy 1 (WTF?)
10:00AM -11:30 AM Math 17 (*gasp! gasp!*)
1:00 PM - 2:30 PM Social Science 1
2:30 PM - 4:00 PM Communications 1

hehe... un na un... ang haba nitong post na ito... oh well.. haha...
Sayonara, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi. Boku wa kimi o wasurenai...

2007-05-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

whoo... dusty little blog I've got here... anyway, finally! I get to touch my *ahem* limited readership blog to rant yet again...

Love: It's not just for comfort
Yes... I'm emo... again...
It's listening to too much Nami Tamaki, Ken hirai and V6 (wtf? how did THEY get here?) too much.
Anyway... I HAVE indeed been delving too much in the romantic plotlines of Yamitsuki and Hikaru (if by some chance you are still in the dark, I'm an author... and these two lovebirds are my OC's)... And well... It's beginning to affect me in real life.. How about an instant pang in the chest whenever you think about that someone? It's very unsettling.. As I am trying to get over that someone... I'm beginning to be conflicted with fantasies in one sideand rational reasoning in the other. I guess I just want to feel love for a few moments... But I failed and now, I'm suffering the consequences of me being too naive for my own good.

Love is not just for comfort... Life is not a fairytale... But still, beyond the logical reasoning there exists a forceful part of me that wants to believe in miracles.. In a world where they are rare, if not non-existent.

And with that I sigh....

Here's a song that I've been listening to lately...
Snowdome
Kimura Kaela
(incidentally, the music was written by beat crusaders... interesting XD)
doko iku no? watashi no tenshi
samishii yo anata no himitsu

* shashin no naka no peace ima wa karappo no sleep
mata deaitai na dokoka de deaeru kana

hanarenaide watashi no tenshi
oshiete yo anata no himitsu

hitoribocchi de cry omoidashite yo smile
mada soba ni ite mimamotte kureru kana?

hirogaru kono keshiki wo mite iu
kirei da ne to
watashi wa anata no sono yokogao wo wasurenai

kakurenaide watashi no tenshi
kakusanaide anata no himitsu

kirakira kagayaku snow omoide wa itsumo slow
mata ikitai na mata itsuka ikeru kana

ookina samishisa ni fureta toki mo koko ni kita ne
2(futa)ri de mata fukitobaseta kamo ne koko ni kureba

michibikarete tondeku
hane hirogete mau

* repeat

hirogaru yuki keshiki wo mite iu
kirei da ne to
watashi wa anata no sono yokogao wo
wasurenai mama de iru

ookina samishisa ni afureta toki wa
kono basho de omoidasu yo

Translation:
Where are you going? My angel
Your secret makes me lonely

The peace in the photo, now I'm sleeping an empty sleep
I want to see you again, can we meet somewhere?

Don't go, my angel
Tell me your secret

Crying alone, remember my smile
Are you still by my side, watching over me?

When you saw the scenery
You said "It's beautiful!"
I won't forget your profile

Don't hide, my angel
Don't hide your secret

The snow sparkles, memories are always slow
I want to go again, can we go again someday?

Even when I was touched by a huge loneliness, you came to me
Maybe we could have shaken it off again if you'd come

I fly, guided by you
My wings spread and float

The peace in the photo, now I'm sleeping an empty sleep
I want to see you again, can we meet somewhere?

When you saw the scenery
You said "It's beautiful!"
I still haven't forgotten
Your profile

When a huge loneliness overwhelms me
I'll think of you here

Demo, watashi wa hime-sama wo daisuki desu!
Koinaka, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi

2007-04-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

Recently I haven't given myself the opportunity to post in my blog. Frankly, I found the idea absurd because no one really drops by and reads my posts, so why bother post them anyway? Considering this very limited readership, I post most of my rants in my dA journal. Having said that, it's a miracle my dear friend Leya managed to inspire mo to write here...

Anyway, this morning I woke up with the usual fantasies on my head thanks to a bout of dreaming. It has been a very long while since I last dreamed of an orange (or blue XD) -clad girl.. Yep, dreaming of girls again.. *sigh*... I woke up extremely emo today and since I raveled in Leya's frustration, I guess I should rant here (who would read this crap anyway?)

So, here I am being emo... Actually, my dream was about saving her life... like three times! I don't know, it just seems to me that I still have some feelings for her, though I know in my mind that she has completely waned from my heart. I don't really know what triggered that dream... maybe a sudder surge of testosterone or just a bout of oxytycin...

*sigh*

Watashi wa anata o mada aishteimasu, hime-sama...
Koinaka, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi...

2007-03-27T21:14:00.000+08:00

Thoughts on Graduation

Well, what can I say? Only a few more hours and I will be leaving behind the bittersweet world that is highschool and I will be venturing into the unknown realm of college. This is a most bittersweet parting from my alma mater, as I finally rid myself of the stains and sorrows of the past and embrace the new and exciting life in college. But there are still chains that bind me to Masci; chains that are extremely painful to sever. And so, I have proven that Shakespeare was right: Parting IS such sweet sorrow.

Now that I am to cross the inevitable boundary, I look back at the things that had happened: all the sorrow, pain, occasional laughter and triumph, and yes, that one hell of a rollercoaster ride that is high school. High school taught me a lot of things: things that made me who I am today. And like the rest of the 294 graduates, I have surpassed the trials and tribulations that bound my way, and now I am ready to spread my wings and fly.

And now for some stolen post idea...
This entry's post idea was taken from Miss Anna.

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

I said it once and I'll say it again,FICTION IS STRANGER THAN TRUTH

Irrashaimase ni watashi no kuroi sekai
Koi mo Yume mo tetsugakko de itsumo kotae wa nai kedo
Koinaka...

2007-03-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

This world is called fate.
The binding thread coils itself around a fragile helpless prejudice.
Hate and sadness, they end in tears...
For those who look beyond the midnight curtain,
vengeance will be served.

When one is cursed, two graves are dug.
I wonder how people do things that hurt others to please other people. Isn't that hypocrisy? Hurting for pleasure? It was during my first year that I knew that this was the definition of sadism...

So why are there so many sadists around?

Don't they realize the amount of pain their victim goes through? Don't they realize that by pleasing themselves they are committing a sin? Don't they realize that they are blind in seeing someone in pain but never taking notice?

Pitiful shadow cloaked in darkness
Your actions cause men pain and suffering
Try dying once.

Pain and Suffering? Why after all this time, I'm still not used to it? No matter how many times I fake a smile or wear my mask, the happiness never leaves any imprint on my face. It's still the same, it's always constant... But there's nothing constant but change! So where is the change? If there is none, then I have disproved one of the world's favorite quotes.

Why won't anyone understand? I'm so frikkin' sick of this insignificant and asinine fact that people just can't get a grip of being just a tiny bit sensitive enough to understand? So what makes them so indifferent? Are they too busy trying to seek their own gratification and welfare that they purposefully neglect others? Has society turned man into a vicious, cruel beast capable of doing some of the most inhumane acts imaginable? Think about it: the so-called evil in this world is a product of human selfishness and greed. They don't care about others, all they care about is their own happiness. Civilizations have fallen because of this, and the ones that prospered were smitten by the mighty hand of the Creator. This fact has been obvious all along, but why should History repeat itself?

Karma... it will be the measure of all things in the end...

2007-02-26T19:36:00.000+08:00

uwa... O,o...
nyahahahahahahahaha....
anyway, I'm feeling really asinine right now, so here's another asinine post...
Today was the first day of the idiotic and probably worthless "pre-final" tests. They were like, 50-100 items long and surely enough, would take a huge percentage of our grade. THe administration claims that it is to make sure that "we deserve the grades that are given us..." Crap... crap... crap... crap...

Right now, I'm trying to study for economics... None of it is getting to my brain... and tomorrow, all the really crappy subjects abound: Math, Economics, MAPEH, Humanities, and the dreaded ADVANCED CHEMISTRY... We have our work cut out for us...

No classes this wednesday... as if that's consolation enough... thurday to monday, we'll have a new set of tests from the division... expect more crap.

I rode on those new-fangled LRT's again! And at the station, I ate another belgian chocolate waffle... plus, my dA is slowly gathering watchers and admirers... yay! and this blog is becoming dormant as I have extinguished all the flames here... bwahahahahahahaha

In a certain place in the world,
A short flight of steps appears.
Enshrouded in the smell of Chinese candy
Beyond a door that seems shocking pink to me.
A hysterical singing voice echoes.
This place that looks like a cellar...
They call it atalier...

Gozen neiji, tobidashita
Tobira wo keritobashite
GARASU no kutsu ga warete
DORESU mo yabureta

Nee akirete irun deshou?
Oikakete mo ko nai
Namida ga afurete mou hashire nai wa...

JIERASHII kamo...SE-TSU-NA-I...!!

“Lonely in Gorgeous” Yeah...
Party night...I’m Breaking my heart
Ima sugu mitsukete dakishimete hoshii

HEDDORAITO ga hikaru
...where are you Bad boy?
Ai no SUKAAFU de namida wo fuite
Nanimo mie nai

Boku wa hime-sama wo mada aishiteimasu...

2007-02-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

Mirai sono te ni, tobitatsu faruko...
Surrender
I am silent, no longer able to speak... incapable of the mere act of speech... hindered by my freedom... The voice that escapes is the tip-tap of the keyboard creating meaningless sentences in an unsecapable void...

I am weak, immobile, useless...

It is my way out of the cruelty of this world... Read, Solve, Hide, Listen, then write. I hide within, listening to distant mumblings of voices from the northwest, reading the propaganda that circulates throughout like a cancer in our midst, solving the complexity of myself... Then, I write... Writing something that was never meant to be read...

Nee Kikoe masu ka?

I have given up on making others understand me. I'm better off escaping hell than to live with it misunderstood. I'm better off not seeing the demons that continue to exploit my weakness anymore. I'm better off alone, inside my mind, where I am safe. Where the fantasies and realities collide into a swirling cloud of haze, which no eyes can penetrate but my own. All the rest which is beyong my comprehension is thrown out... and I dream...

Alas, dreams are nothing more than dreams... There is nothing beyond that... The pleasure of a dream is that it's a fantasy; if you manage to grab hold of it and wake up, what happens next?

Love has left me... and I found that I can live without it... I'm back to this meaningless ultra-fantasy without anyone... Yet, I'm used to it. Used to the cold and bitter world... Fallen angels are everywhere stomping on my half-dead carcass... Vultures feast on me like some corpse left to die in the wilderness... Yet I try to move on... Deep in my heart, I still can love... And I still love her... I just WISH that she did love me.

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de

TSUNAIDA, KIMI NO TE O

I cry... yes, cry... Cry out to the heavens why they have made me this way? What is the grand purpose of my existence? A nuisance to the great? A minion of the opressed? A tool for the chaos and destruction about to befall the human civilization? Who am I really?

Inferior... to the angel and the demon... I have tried to save the angel from falling, but I become smitten myself. Then the demon laughs in my face and calls me names yet again. I am inferior to their greatness as I search for my own. But where is it? Does it even exist? The infinite me's are thinking simultaneously... Yet none of us can come up with an answer... My knees are weak, my arms are heavy... My mind is burdened with thoughts about how can I escape his cruel clutches. Alas, I fail... I'm too tired to think of ways to escape... My only hope is to wait for deliverance... and I pray that it comes soon...

Mebaete ta kanjou kitte kuyan de shosen tada bonyou shitte naite kusatta kokoro o usagitanai uso o

I see the light of my salvation coming, just a point of light in an endless sea of darkness... I still have hell to hurdle, before I can totally escape him. Yet, the irony of it all is that he wants me out as well... Good... I can stand it no longer... whether or not someone can understand the allegories is beyond me right now... I need to run. Run away from hell... To purgatore or to heaven, I do not care anymore. Just get me away from him. Get me away from the soul who torments mine... And may God have mercy on his...

Keshite, RIRAITO shite, kudaranai chou gensou wasurarenu sonzai kan o kishikaisei RIRAITO shite imi no nai musou mo kimi o nasu denryoku zanshin zerai o kure yo.

'Tis just tomoorow away, and my tunic would be white again, free from the stains of the sins from the past...

Kimi wa wakarinikui na tenshi
Boku wa wakarinikui na seeji

2007-02-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

Koibito no Shinjitsu... (A lover's truth)
If you can see this, you have definitely gone too far...

DISCLAIMER: call me weird and all by posting this... Call me anything you like, but this is MY BLOG and this is what I feel, okay?

I finally confessed... That I love her...
Well, the notion has hung on the back of my head for ages... Especially when I'm developing the story of Kuroi Tsubasa wherein fictional characters have real world counterparts. Although, I really haven't summed up the courage inside me to tell her. And, there isn't really much to say, as I have figured that she would have figured it out... But then, the year is about to close, and she is about to permanently walk out of my life. If I don't do it soon, when will I? Will I be imprisoned by the chains that bind me to yesterday?

I said to myself..Why am I so afraid to move on? Will hime-sama die if I do? Hime-sama will always be hime-sama, no matter what I do. I can never change my past... She's already a part of my past and a part of the ever-waning present... If I don't tell her now, I will still be chained in yesterday I snapped out of my reverie to find that I'm a fool for being such a coward: I have no future if I have no past. I was, in actuality, turning my past into present...

And so, I told myself I'll tell her the first chance I get. And that chance was through my ever-trusty Yahoo! messenger...

Her stat was "Sinong may pictures ng prom? Pahihingi", or something close to that. I GMed the Linnaeus group and told them to PM me if they want pictures while I suffer the wrath of Rizal's El Filibusterismo. She asked me for pictures, and I sent her 10. Now was the time. I made my move...

BJ: uhm.. anna?
anna arano: yup?
BJ: would you mind if I talked to you?
anna arano: nah.
BJ: uhm... wag kang magagalit ah, kailangan ko lang kasi ng closure eh
anna arano: okay
BJ: the truth is, I had and have feelings for you.
anna arano: ...
BJ: ngayon ko lang na-summon ung courage para sabihin sayo ito
BJ: I'm willing to put it behind me, pero, I need closure
BJ: before I am able to move on
anna arano: oh..
BJ: meron ka bang masasabi?
anna arano: teka
anna arano: hmm. salamat, kasi of all the girls out there, ako ung nakita mo.. pero, im sorry kasi hindi ko maibabalik ung feelings na un..
BJ: I have understood that a long time ago
anna arano: aun. thank you..
BJ: thank you rin at naintindihan mo ako
anna arano: =)
BJ: do you hate me?
anna arano: no
anna arano: i don't hate anybody
BJ: I understand
BJ: just one last question: will you still be my friend after this?
anna arano: sure
BJ: thank you very much.

While we were talking, My heart was racing and my body felt a strange tingling sensation that I rarely felt. It was an odd mix of fear, excitement, and longing that I couldn't explain... But somehow, after that, my heart felt at peace... and it seems that I have broken the chain of fate that bound me to the past... I can move on freely now...

The question remains: Do I still love her?

2007-02-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

Prom

It's one of those events of your life that you JUST have to write a blog about... anyway, since I cannot think about how on earth I'm going to start this post, I'll start from the very beginning..

Well, not exactly the beginning. I went inside the school and found that some students (most of them Juniors) were already there.I met Jorge who was wearing, of all things, a t-shirt. He borrowed the keys to Mrs. Correa's room to change. I was the one who tied his necktie. We went out of the room and wandered aimlessly.

We were told to come in, section by section. Each of us was paired with someone from the third year. And we wook our seats in the quadrangle. The venue was beautiful, more than I expected, to say the least.We waited for everyone to be seated and then the program began...

Each of the sections were presented and introduced with a short introduction ours (which I later found out was written by Taichou and Habon) was "Omnipotent, Phenomenal, Invincible, Legendary. IV-Lawrence is the sheer epitome of excellence". Impressive, no?... Anyway, the program began without a hitch...

Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, dinner was served. The people on our table were delighted to find out that we were one of the first people to get food... I git every single thing they had, except the dessert. When I finished eating, I was still hungry. But getting another serving was embarrassing and rude, according to Jorge.

After dinner, the tables were rolled out (literally) for the Cotillion (did I spell it right?) I didn't really watch it, mainly because it was repetitive and not exactly necessary. I spent my time texting GM Spam to Michaelle, Miss Anna, and Iris. Anyway, the dance floor was opened, and there was a live band too... The first songs were dance songs. And as the clock ticked close to the ominous hour of ten, the slow songs were played, something that was welcomed by all...

I asked Miss Anna for a dance. She was tired from the other songs so I let her rest... I gave myself hope that I can dance with hime-sama for just once, but I didn't get the opportunity... More like, never.

Sadly, I had to come home early. My head was filled with What-if's the rest of the night. I felt really lovesick and well, until right now. It saddens me... But, I'm willing to let it all go... I told Iris that "If something isn't for me, then I shouldn't be chasing it in the first place." I know that something isn't for me, but I'm such a hypocrite that I'm still willing to chase after it to the bitter end... I don't know why... the feeling is persistent even though I know that it can never be reciprocated... I just don't understand...

Anyway, that's all for now....
Sayonara, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi... Watashi wa anata o mada aishiteimasu...

2007-02-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

PRANKAHAN NA

Okay. Gusto ko na talagang matapos ang issue na ito kaya gusto ko na ring i-risk ang aking reputation (or at least what's left of it) para ma-clarify sa mga TAONG HINDI MARUNONG MAKINIG ang nararamdaman ko...

Seriously, Naiiyak na talaga ako ngayon. Bakit? Dahil sa mga flamers sa tag ko. Nung una, dinismiss ko nalang as jokes. Pero ngayon, they have really pulled the last straw, and frankly, it's time for me to speak my mind.

Okay... Ung dun sa Journ, ganito yun (please wag muna kayong mag-assume bago ko ma-explain ung side ko... please lang...) Sinubukan kong ipaalam sa Admin ung mga nararamdaman ng mga studyante. Siguro lumabas lang nang mali mula sa bibig ko, pero, IT WAS NEVER MY INTENTION TO PUT US INTO ANY HOT WATER. MY INTENTION WAS SUPPOSED TO FAVOR OTHERWISE. Aaminin kong tactless ako, pero yun talaga. I just had to say na meron tayong mga negative feelings at wala naman akong naisip na repurcussions nito kay Gidget, Sean, Habon, Abychu, or the ENTIRE STAFF FOR THAT MATTER.

Ngayon, ung tungkol dun sa smiling effect...

i believe allan. you're crazy. everybody knows you're crazy. you smile in spite of everything you've done for the journ people. you're insane. oh wait, YOU'RE NOTHING.

(wag nyo nang tanungin.... kilala ko ang writing style na yan) okay fine... sige... baliw na ako... ang punto ko: nakit kayo pangiti-ngiti parin, ha? madaming hipokrito sa mundo... Ang sinasbi ko lang, nakangiti ako kasi alam kong wala na tayong problema at INTERNAL ISSUES nalang within the staff... Internal issues that I am desperately tring to erase. We all know it's water under the bridge, but it keeps recurring to the point na hindi ko na talaga kaya... So please... kung sino mang flamers kayo, stop. You've made your point. STONE ME TO DEATH! CRUCIFY ME! PATAYIN NYO NA AKO PARA MAWALA NA ANG PERWISYO SA BUHAY NYO! WAG KAYONG MAG-ALALA, ILALAGAY KO SA LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT KO NA HINDI KAKASUHAN ANG SINUMANG PAPATAY SAKIN! SIGE NA!

So ayan, I'm sorry GIDGET, I'm sorry HABON, I'm sorry ANNA BEATRIZ, I'm Sorry SEAN, I'm sorry Ms. Basco. Okay? Gusto nyo hindi na talaga ako isama sa staff... Gusto nyo, i-expell nyo na ako sa masci... alam kong madrama ako, pero hindi ko na talaga kaya. Masaya ka na, flamer? I'm right here breaking down like the miserable idiot I am... You have won... I have lost... take all that is left of me... Suko na ako.

2007-01-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

Quiz results

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world.

And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it!

The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say

Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony

Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Geek Profile:

Geekiness in Love: Highest

Fashion Geekiness: High

Academic Geekiness: Moderate

General Geekiness: Moderate

SciFi Geekiness: Moderate

Gamer Geekiness: Low

Internet Geekiness: Low

Movie Geekiness: Low

Music Geekiness: Low

How Geeky Are You?

FICTION is stranger than TRUTH

2007-01-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

Crossing the threshold...

During the first few days of my senior year, I had to learn a saying called “Unity.” It goes like this: “I am only one, but I am one. I can’t do everything, but I can do something. What I can do, I ought to do. And what I ought to do, by the grace of God, I will do.” It’s only recently that I have given it much thought. The name and the content are ironies; the former enforcing teamwork and such while the latter giving importance to individualism. But something was deeper in the saying: that you need to do things to the best of your ability, and also to be able to learn from one’s experiences.

I heard once that a computer can play chess because it considers every possible combination of moves and chooses the best move to play. This is effective, as some computers can best the greatest grand masters alive. But in the game of life, there are an infinite number of possible moves to play, and so a computer cannot think its way through life. But how can a human can? It is because we learn from past experiences, and think before we act them out. It’s something called forethought. Furthermore, we are driven by desire, and hindered by fear. We are fuelled by passion and resolve, but we also know when to restrain ourselves, for the sake of our own survival.

Every single day of our lives is unique. No matter how mundane or monotonous one’s daily life could be, yesterday’s events are not exactly identical to today’s or tomorrow’s events. Fate leads us down different paths. And this is how the Universe coaxes us to be better people for the Creator: by giving us twists and turns, which, however small, give us lessons. In my four years in Manila Science, I had my share of these lessons. Most of them painfully learned. But every single one of them made me stronger and inspired me to take on a new day and face brand new challenges.

We all make mistakes, but we are still not afraid to take risks and persevere. As Thomas Edison once said when he created a light bulb that actually worked, “I did not fail 10,000 times. I just found 10,000 ways not to make a light bulb.” We will not know what happens next, but at least we know, with a certain degree of certainty, that our theories, speculations, and beliefs will turn out the way we expect them to. We learn from previous mishaps, and try to avoid them. We may become desperate in our attempts, but we always find a way to stand back up to continue in life. A failing grade does not necessarily spell the end of the world; nor does a trip to the office announce the destruction of mankind. These things happen so that it will not happen. I know I sound ironic, but isn’t the world just one big Irony?

As the manga-ka Kubo Taito has it, “That which blocks your ears is worthless fear. The enemy is one, you are one. What is there to fear? Cast off your fear! Look forward! Go forward! Never stand still. Retreat and you will age. Hesitate and you will die.” Truly, if you do not go forward, face your fears, and learn to harness your passion, resolve, determination and the knowledge you have gained, you will never succeed in this game called life.

take that, taichou... nuahahahahaha

2007-01-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

NCAE(pronounced as "Enkhay"... National Career Assesment Examination

Today we took the NCAE, which is some sort of exam that's gonna determine what kind of a person you woulkd be in College... or something like that...

Anyway, the questions were kinda easy... But it was very exhausting... The Clerical Ability was like a breeze, but the manipulative skills were a bit... huh? Also, the Mathematical Ability was pretty easy (but there was something about the sigma with the numbers and whatnot that freaked me out)... And the scientific ability was full of experiment-type questions (you know, the type of questions they ask you in your FIRST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL...) I was really hoping for "Calculate the heat of fusion of substance a..." or "how many molecules are there in one kilo of sucrose..."

So, we had a proctor from Manila High School... I forgot her name... And also, Habon accused me of cheating (which I did not... you know me, I don't cheat...like some people out there) This accusation was sadly, supported by Aia...

After the test (which I finished an hour early), I had a craving for senti/AMVable music care of my battered MP3 player. and also, we were supposed to have a shooting for humanities but since the script was almost impossible to accomplish, we made another story (we just wasted our vacation, therefore)

Anyway, I ate at KFC where I also found Jorge and Michaelle.. I went to the LRT station to get home. I wanted to wait for the new-dangled trains to come (teehee) but alas, three trains have passed and not a sign of it. I finally gave up...

Quitters never win, but at least they get a consolation prize

Anyway, ciao!
Koinaka, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi!
Kanashii, hime-sama....

2007-01-13T12:28:00.000+08:00

okay...
so, what's up?
First of all, I would like to brag about how great the Nucleus is... a lot of people really don't like my positive energy I give to the staff when I say "We are surely going to win!"... then again, they want to expect the worst... Which is kind of hypocritical, really, because they also hate Ezekiel's negative attitude like when he says "Only thirty minutes 'till the deadline and we're still not halfway through"
well, expect the Nucleus to come out before the month ends... And since we are staffers, we get GLOSSY copies! nyahahahaa... I'm planning to give one each to hime-sama and Iris, and also show those college centerpost people how you make a REAL paper and not crap

*bragging ends here*

I'm downloading bleach 110! yay! and the downlaod speed is way up! around 19.0 kb/sec right now, but a few minutes ago it was 22.5kb/sec... it's now at 80% *pokes monitor*.. I have really been anticipating this release 'coz as all Bleach fans know, this is the first non-filler ep, so I'm so excited...
85%... *pokes monitor*

the UPCAT results are coming next month and I really hope I'll pass... because that is the only college Entrance Test I took, I don't know what I'm going to do if I fail... by the way, we had a Mock test for the NCAE (pronounced as enkhay. National College Assesment Exam). I got a 116... If the test was for real, my tentative score would be... 232 out of 330... not bad, eh? (The passing score's like 165.

95% of Bleach_110 download... yay!

I would like to buy a plastic filecase because I want to a.) wash my cloth one and b.) I'd like to have 'wallpapers'...

okay, for now, I bid yu adieu...

Koinaka, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi!

2007-01-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

first post for 2007
okay, I don't really know what I'm gonna write here. But I'm really inspired thanks to Habon's blog.. So now what?

A deliberate attack on the classics:
I just took a test on the novel "Les Miserables". Frankly, I never took the book seriously, neither did any of the classics that came into my possession. BAsically, I never gave a damn to what Jean Valjean would be doing...

"But it's one of the most influential works of all time!" said my English teacher...
"I know it is... But who cares what Jean Valjean did" was my answer...

She was shocked...

Anyway, I'm not really like this. I'm the kind who devours books and savours novels. So what happened? Nothing... absolutely nothing...

The truth is, I am very selective when it comes to books. Authors such as JK Rowling or Dan Brown are great writers, but when it comes to guys like Victor Hugo and Harper Lee, I'd rather have a root canal than read.

I don't really care much for the classics they make us read in school. They all seem cliche'd and boring. Noli Me Tangere and The Catcher in The Rye were probably the only classics that I have stomached to read. The rest was well... crap.

The thing is, I don't learn anything new from classics. Sure you get the evil-is-always-there-out-to-get-you themes from Jane Eyre, To Kill A Mockingbird and Les Miserables, but what's the edge? Where's the innovation? Where's the mindless violence and unending romance that I crave for?

Maybe that's why I prefer works such as Harry Potter or Angels and Demons. And probably the only reason why I read The Catcher in the Rye. They were... relatable. Sure Potter's a wizard and all and Langdon's a womanizing symbologist and Holden's well.. Holden. But I get the sense of "I want to know what happens next" instead of "Who cares what Jean Valjean does next"

So what's in it for me? Well, I can't say all classics are that bad. I guess I'll try Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's "The Hound of the Baskervilles", whose plot is really very intriguing. I may check out "The Scarlet Letter", which is a novel about an adulteress (scandals...naughty!) or the works of Dante aligheri...

In the end of the day what I look for in a good book is the back. I guess I'd like something like "Fleeting for their lives across a desolate and lethal landscape, their only hope for survival is to discover who is behind this masterful plot. The truth, they will learn, is the most shocking deception of all" instead of "Today it is regarded as a masterpiece of American Literature"

That's because Moro never Dies...

2006-12-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Kyou wa kurisumasu...

so today is Christmas... already? hehehehehehehe
All I can say is, I had a blast... I recieved a National Bookstore Gift Certificate, 500 Php... more 500Php... a shirt, two shorts, and a 512mb flash drive...

anyway, we had the noche buena early. Don't ask me why... We had yellow cab pizza and some weird lookin' spaghetti... I ate a lot... probably because the pepper mill was so addicting.

Me and my cousins played Scrabble afterwards... They were drinking wine while playing... no wonder they failed to tally the scores without bursting into fits of laughter first. Anyway, I don't drink alcohol... So I settled for some C2, which I now believe to be an alcoholic beverage due to the fact that I acted like I was drunk during the game: you know, not being able to think straight, not knowing whether a word exists or not, and so on... I looked like I was drunk... laughing at practically anything. A quick shower seemed to be the cure for my hangover...

So that's it for my boring christmas eve... but let as all remember, that we don't celebrate Christmas for the 'hohoho's' but rather for the 'hallelujas'... well, that's it...

Ciao!
Kurisumasu Omedetou Gozaimasu, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi! ^^

2006-12-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

Yamitsuki can't skate
Today was our Christmas party. And not a very great one. I escaped Mr. Banagayan's ID check using a diversionary tactic using a wallet, but I couldn't escape Mr. Victorio's clutches. But still, I got through... I gave my teachers their presents in record time, finishing the task before the party began...

Leah gave me a bracelet, and Luis too. I recieved a some sort of miniscule purse from Jaye, a candy cane from Mikhaila, and a pewter necklace from Jonathan. I gave Angelita some perfume, Taichou a manga, Ivan some earphones and Clarisse a Keychain... They also gave away awards... I recieved the "Basic Award" because I always say "So Basically"

Anyway, after the Party, we went to Moa. We were like maniacs on the Jeepney singing (with voices) all of Lawrence's hits, such as "Carol of the Bells", "Jingle Bells Calypso", "One thing I ask", and "Lupang Hinirang"... ehehehe... I think we freaked the other people out...

After some problems with Baggage, we went to the skating rink. In our family, skating is BANNED, but I still went ahead. At least I can stand on the ice, and I can move a little... But my feet hurt and I fell down, 5 times! There was even one time when a small girl (around 5 years old) picked me up and got the Ice off my pants! It was very humbling... Well, the fifth was intentional... Hime-sama was there as well; and she can't skate either... But she looked pretty on the ice. XD... I spent a whole hour there, by myself mind you... I recieved assistance, much to their dismay, and I think I got a little hang of it (if that just made sense)

I discovered another quote within me: "Nothing Academic scares me, Anything physical, does" eheheheehe....

So why is Ice so slippery? It's because of the fact that only the core of the ice is solid, the surface (the first few micrometers)is liquid, meaning, it's water. This makes the ice almost frictionless... Frictionless my ass! Sine the ice was not cleaned at that time by the Zamboni machine, there were grooves in the ice; grooves that the blades of my skates tend to follow...

Anyway, that's it for now... Ciao!
~Koinaka, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi XD

2006-12-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

I just had the sudden urge to write an entry... Something about blog-hopping for the last few minutes seemed to fuel my attention... Also, I'm waiting for taichou to show up...

Anyways, we watched this play last Sunday... it was "The lieutenant's Princess"... In JApanese, it's "Fukutaichou no hime-sama"... serendipitous, eh? hahahahahahaha.... anyway, it's a sort of surreal, modern-day moro-moro... IT was weird at first but it started to get better once they got to the middle part. Though I really hate the ending... Also, I bought a fushigi Yuugi manga. Volume 13: goddess... I bought it because A.) it was cheap, B.) I didn't have a chance to see how the series ended and C.) Because I love MiakaXTamahome Scenes... XD

On to other matters... I'm rediscovering the beauty of Bleach as the new movie approaches... I'm not oo keen on the rumors that Senna, the new character, is Ichigo and Rukia's daughter from the future. They do make a point, but it does not make much sense.... Either way, Her spear-zanpakuto is pretty cool... and finally, they have unleashed Sode no Shirayuki, the long awaited Shikai form of Rukia's Asauchi...

The plot of Naruto twists again! and this time, there could be one more surviving Uchiha, Kakashi's got Mangekyou and Sasuke's got double Chidori Power... Could the plot get any more complicated (or should I say, contradicting?)... anyway, Orochimaru claims that Kyuubi's power is only one-third of Sasuke's... I say, just screw the damn man and talk some sense to him!... ahem....

well... what more could I say? Christian made me touch the live wire in the AdChem room this afternoon. You can feel the electricity cousing through your arm!

2006-12-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

Impluwensya ng blog ni Iric at Chinese food na hinaluan ata ng LSD...

Ayan, birthday ko pala. Ang weird... parang buong taon ko tong hinintay tapos parang normal na araw lang. wala lang, sinubukan kong mag-feeling special, walang kuwenta. Konti lang ang talagang nakaalam at bumati. Ung iba niremind ko pa. Bat sa iba agad-agad silang napapa-Happy Birthday!.... Hay nako, siguro kapag nakilala na talaga ako ng tao, kinamumuhian ka na....

Umakyat ako kanina sa may "observatory" ko. Pinagmasdan ko ang buwan. Angas, ang ganda... ang linaw. Walang kaulap-ulap... kita pa ang paborito kong constellation.. Orion. Nagpasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil sa birthday ko ay maganda ang kalangitan. Pero wala talagang magagawa... Light pollution talaga ng metro manila umaasak na... pero ang daming bituin... Naalala ko ung kanta "Ang gabi'y payapa, lahat ay tahimik, pati mga tala, sa bughaw na langit"... ang weird no? bat may tala sa bughaw na langit? diba dapat black? ewan... hahahaha... lasing siguro ako sa dami ng tsaang nainom ko, na hinala ko ay may halong LSD. Bumaba ako, at naisipan kong magsulat ng blog... hehehe, addict

ayan... Feeling ko may drugs ang kinain ko kanina. PAra akong adik... Adik sa Holic... sa maburaho, at siyempre, sa Bleach. ewan ko ba. Parang lasing talaga ako. ang spontaneous kasi ng pagsasalita ko. Hindi ko naman gusto yung lasa ng tsaa... tiniis ko lang na parang training. "Drain this cup for her..." hahahaha... un ung laman ng isip ko. talagang adik...

Binigyan pala ako ni Aia ng Birthday card. Sa tanan ng buhay ko ay ngayon lang ako nakakuha nun. Ewan ko ba, sinungitan niya ako bago matapos ang araw... HAy nako... Ineexpect ko nga na may higanteng card na makukuha ako mula sa linnae, ung parang nakuha ni Karl... Pero mi isa sa linnae, walang nakapansin na birthday ko... Pwera na nga lang ung mga LAwrence, na naghangad ng libre. Wala rin mula sa Kepler, o sa wala na yatang nakakaalalang Umali...wala lang... nakakalungkot lang...

Grabe... naimpluwensyahan talaga ako. ISang beses palang ako nagpopost sa tagalog. Lahat English... Iric kasi, ang senti ng blog... NApasenti tuloy ako... Sabay tugtog ng "northern lights" sa mp3 ko... Ewan ko ba... nakakaasar... Gusto ko siyang yakapin kanina... parang handa na akong magtapat sa kanya... pero nawala siya. Hay nako...

Wala palang nagtag... ganun siguro kagalit mga tao sken. HAy nako... bat ung mga di pa ako lubos na kilala medyo may pagtingin sakin... May bahid dungis siguro ako... Sa tanan ng buhay ko, ngayon lang siguro ako nakaramdam ng magkahalong pagkalungkot at pagnanasang mabalik ang oras at kasiyahan. Walang sense no? tapos birthday ko pa... tsktsktsk

Natalsikanh ako ng kanin na may sauce kaninang umaga... ang saya... tumatawa si Christian... may advice naman si Joko... hay nako... peste... arrrghhh....naalala ko tuloy ang sinabi ni Sarah :" Be careful what you wish for".... hay nako....

Nag LRT ako kanina kasama si Christian... wala lang...

Sayonara, Watashi no Wakarinikui na tenshi!

2006-12-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

Here's another post from the Crazy_Lunatic_Posing_as_a_writer:
okay, so where are we?Oh yes... nowhere... I completely forgot the outstanding progress of the Nucleus.

4 years of waiting. And now as the responsibility has fallen into our hands, we are staring at nothingness as we... do nothing.

Seriously, we do nothing. But that's going to change. You wanna know why? because I'm going to take the initiative and do something (wow... Me and initiatives? am I sick or something?)

ahem... on to other matters...

My progress through the virtual world of rune-midgard has been very slow. My wizard's build is... I don't really know what the build is. Most probably Storm Gust-Jupitel or Firebolt-Jupitel... don't really know... GTB's still hack me to death and my assasin... well, let's just say he's a bit... weak?

ahem... on to other matters...

As some of you may know, we are saving money for funds (or as I call it, the taichou foundation) to buy a new tablet. According to taichou, we need around 4500 Php. According to third seat, we have now an accumulated 2160 Php. "Not bad!", as our canadian physics instructor (is that an appropriate term?) says. But still... we have at least 1400 Php to go... Can we make it in time?

and now, I shall end with the chorus of "Northern Lights":

yuragu koto nai
tsuyosa na do naku
susunda saki ni
motomeru kotae ga aru

ai mo tsumi mo yume mo yami mo
ima subete mini matotte
kimi no chikara boku no kokoro
kasanariatta shunkan
nani ga umareru...
Do you believe in destiny?

Translation:
No need to waver.
Though without any strength,
You can find answers that you're looking for
After you've moved on.

Love, sin, dreams, and darkness
Wear all of them now.
And at the moment when
Your power and my heart overlap,
Something will be born.
Do you believe in destiny?

Koinaka, Watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi!

2006-11-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

Well, I couldn't say that I will win
I couldn't even say that I will lose
It's one of those moments where I can't weigh my odds...
damn... 15 places.

I bet you don't know what I'm talking about...
I'm talking about the division press conference, that's what...

So I went to school that saturday morning and left an hour later to Raja Soliman High School. There I met Jexzen once again, and she told me she studies there. Man, she HAUNTS me...

Anyway, after doing almost nothing for another half hour, we were led into their "quad" and started the ceremony. We were then led to our rooms where we waited...

After waiting, we finally got the chance to proceed through the test. First up was Editorial introductions. The task was extremely daunting as I mispelled MERALCO into MERACLO... sheesh...

Next was a full editorial. And heck, I didn't like the topic. Luli Arroyo getting shouted at. Well, my stand was that the guy who shouted should have only been given a warning instead a full-blown investigation. (which, I find out, later sacked him). I mean, it's unjust... seriously...

So anyway, after that, I wandered aimlessly again. Talking to Kervey whenever I get the chance, and constantly reminding taichou that we had to release "Reiatsu with Kiling intent" (That made sense, right?)

okay, so we ate at 168, where we almost got lost, thanks to me... and then taichou and I rode the train to monumento, to buy Manga Software. That (and the ride back) was one of the more disturbing train rides I have had...

Anyway, I got home by myself and slept for the remainder of the day...

Koinaka, Watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi n_n

2006-11-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

Kanashii...

I'm sad... and I'm sure I know why... I just took a peek, that's all... and then the reality that I have been trying to escape so desperately hit me again... It saddened me. It broke my heart. It crushed my world...

Then the song playing on my browser seemed too perfect for the moment... It seemed too realistic... As if the singer knew how I was feeling... As if she knew the pain I'm going through...

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
afureru hikari furasu yo itsumo
Kanashii toki yozora miru anata ga
egao ni naru yori motto kagayakitai

anata wa itsumo hitori nanika to tataketteru
soba ni iru kotoshika atashi ni wa dekinai kedo

Moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
Sora kakenuke tonde iku,kitto
kanarazu todoku kono isshun no hikari de
anata no ima terashi sora wo megurou
atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
kitto soba ni ite ageru donna toki mo

Translation:
If maybe I could be a comet
I would spill my overflowing light
so if you look at the sky when you are sad
I will shine more so that you will smile

You are always fighting someone within yourself
And being by your side is all I can do

If maybe I could be a comet
I would surely be flying through the sky
I would definitely reach you with this single light
And I will light up your present

If maybe I could be a comet
I wil be at your side.

Kanashii... It saddens me...
Sayonara, watashi no wakarinikui na tenshi...